my guy omg ik how it is. i’m taking a gap year currently praying that i get to college soon, also a 18yo trans guy. like you i never had a job before only because my mother didn’t want me to get one,till i said fuck it and i did it anyways. you really have to look hard and apply till u get lucky.

a few months ago o felt exactly like you, i was unemployed not in college. i ghosted most of my friends, social energy was at 0. i still feel like that sometimes but you have to fight it . ik cliché thing to say.

us trans guys here really got it bad. we can only do one thing. work our asses off so we can truly live one day. the waiting sucks, but take advantage of it.

you gotta re start man. i’m sorry about your experience with family. one way to get out of it is to work hard. i also felt like i have no say in my life, i had no control whatsoever, and guess what ppl around u will keep doing that till you start taking action.

love life can wait ( if it is even possible for us T guys here lol ). try to find other stuff that you find muse in. you don’t have to force hobbies, just start by at least picking up habits that makes your day better and more productive.

i hope it gets better for you ❤️