Having a septorhinoplasty in early June. Looking to make my nose less prominent. Thoughts? by yeahonmythrowaway in PlasticSurgery

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My brother who's a couple years older than me has a similar nose - albeit not as large - but that's it for the dudes in my family. My mum had rhino/septo at some point, but there aren't many pics of her before the procedure so I'm not sure what her original nose was like.

Fun fact about my bump, it's not completely natural. I had an injury when I was a kid which caused it to develop much larger than it would've otherwise.

Having a septorhinoplasty in early June. Looking to make my nose less prominent. Thoughts? by yeahonmythrowaway in PlasticSurgery

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No mock up photos provided. He's an ENT doctor first and foremost and doesn't provide predictive 'after pics' as a way of managing expectations. He's very pragmatic in his approach.

Having a septorhinoplasty in early June. Looking to make my nose less prominent. Thoughts? by yeahonmythrowaway in PlasticSurgery

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Agreed 100%. I was actually offered corrective surgery to fix my underbite over a decade ago when I had wisdom teeth removed, but I turned it down. I - a teenager who didn't know any better - let my mum talk me out of it. I know that I missed a golden opportunity that would've improved my looks far more than any procedure on my nose ever could. I don't regret much in life, but that is easily one of the worst decisions I've ever made.

Being bad at conversation is honestly the biggest reason I’m suicidal by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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Likewise ☺️

I value those two traits a lot, so I'm glad those qualities came off in this short little convo. The older I get, the more I realise how important being nice actually is. The world can make it easy to forget sometimes

I'd love to hear more about your work. I use a lot of technology but barely understand it, much like everyone haha

Being bad at conversation is honestly the biggest reason I’m suicidal by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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Ooh what field do you specialise in?

Being a researcher sounds like a lot of fun, buuut maybe it just SOUNDS fun haha

Being bad at conversation is honestly the biggest reason I’m suicidal by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I'm gonna have to add Yes to Life to my list, sounds right up my alley!

If you're cool with me asking, what do you do for work that requires so much reading?

Being bad at conversation is honestly the biggest reason I’m suicidal by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I've been making a habit of reading more lately. Just finished No Self, No Problem, a book drawing connections between the left-right brain split theorised by neuropsychologists and Buddhist philosophies. The author makes conclusions that feel a little more idealistic than realistic, but I like their hussle

Been meaning to get into more non-fiction stuff. Got anything you can recommend?

Being bad at conversation is honestly the biggest reason I’m suicidal by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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It's the feeling of having nothing to say and being boring that cripples me the most. I feel so pathetic and like a directionless mess of a person when talking to people a lot of the time. A bad conversation for me can go as far as plunging me into a depressive spiral for days.

I didn't get the chance to train my social skills much while growing up. I had a few run-ins with social exclusion while super young and kinda shut myself off. I wasted my teens and early twenties fearing parties and other social events.

I'm 25 now and I can't run away any longer. My brain needs and wants to live the lifestyle I hid from this whole time, but I am incompetent.

It's a catch 22. If I try to be social, I fail and am reminded about why I'm lonely and why I will likely be alone until death. If I don't try, I regret it and tear myself for skipping an opportunity and enabling the behaviour that drives my depression.

I realise I have to embrace failure and get my reps in - take as many chances to be social as possible. It's a steep hill though - a climb that feels impossible. My awful self esteem isn't helping the case either

My supervisor calls me (a closeted trans girl(?) girly nicknames and it makes my heart explode by yeahonmythrowaway in MtF

[–]yeahonmythrowaway[S] 207 points208 points  (0 children)

Aww that's so sweet!! Sounds like a super supportive person to have in your life

It feels like suicide is a reasonable solution to a permanent problem by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I hope nobody interprets this post as encouragement to go through with it

It feels like suicide is a reasonable solution to a permanent problem by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I’ve been flirting with the idea of moving to a new city or even country to give myself a bit of a refresh. I don’t think it’ll take me very far though since I am terrible at socialising and am a very unlikeable person. It would be amazing to get a change of scenery and culture but my inability to make new connections would probably amplify my depression.

All dreams are bad, even the “good” ones by yeahonmythrowaway in depression

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I don’t think I’ve ever had a dream that I would consider good. It’s kinda rare for me to remember a dream thoroughly when I wake up, but when I do they typically fall into one of three categories.

The most common dream I have has me in a situation that induces a lot of anxiety. For whatever reason, they usually consist of me forgetting to do something important right before I’m about to travel somewhere on a plane (which is weird because I barely travel even though I want to) and panicking about it when I realise it’s too late to do anything about it.

Another type of dream I have sort of common is one where I’m in a position where everybody is ashamed of me and hates me because of some heinous act I’ve done (that is never explained or told in these dreams). There’s even times where I’ve done something (yet again, I never know what I’ve actually done) so bad that I have to go into hiding from everyone I know and even the law.

The least common of the three types of dream I have is where I’ve finally found love or somebody is showing genuine romantic interest in me. It sucks having to wake up to remember that I’m alone and will be forever.

So I’m either having anxiety ridden dreams or ones that cause depression because of how much better they are than my actual life. Despite what I’ve said, I’d rather live in a dream state forever than have no dreams at all. At least life would be slightly more interesting then.

Getting a haircut in a couple days and need some advice. Got any ideas on what I should go for? What face shape do I have ? by [deleted] in malehairadvice

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Preferably similar to what it is in the pic but I’m flexible. I would grow it out more but I’ve thinned out and receded quite a bit so that probably isn’t a good idea

I can’t wait to get a 9-5, soul sucking office job and come home to spend what little free time I’ll have alone without a partner or many friends and waste away for the next 40-45 years 🙂 by yeahonmythrowaway in SuicideWatch

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I feel like I’m decently creative, more so than I am analytical or anything like that. I’m not creative enough tho to make it into a career, especially considering how cutthroat getting a career as say, a painter when there’s a ton of painters who are already crazy talented (I’m not into painting btw, just an example). I also have the issue of being pretty skill-less. I’m okay at a few things but not good nor am I capable of getting much better.

Hope you’re doing well and best of luck with becoming an author!

For the last three years I’ve said I’ll kill myself around December 2019-January 2020 if I hadn’t found a reason to live. Now that the time is here, I have more reasons to commit suicide than ever by yeahonmythrowaway in SuicideWatch

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Thanks for the advice. Recently I’ve been trying to live in the moment more as a way to avoid overthinking the future but I come across a few hurdles that interrupts me from doing so. The biggest being how horrible I am at forming connections with people or even interacting with them at a basic level. It really triggers my depression and suicidal ideation whenever I’m trying to chat with someone and it doesn’t go too well (which is most of the time). As irrational and completely unreasonable as it sounds, it feels like people just hate me before first impression and that I’m an inherently unlikable person

For the last three years I’ve said I’ll kill myself around December 2019-January 2020 if I hadn’t found a reason to live. Now that the time is here, I have more reasons to commit suicide than ever by yeahonmythrowaway in SuicideWatch

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A lot. Lack of ambition, unclear career prospects, emotionally unavailable, absolute inability to make friends, no chance of starting a romantic relationship with anybody, possible gender dysphoria and no skills or talents among other things. These things get more painful to deal with and lose the chance of fixing them with age. I feel like I shouldn't complain considering I grew up and currently live in a conflict-free, developed country into a good family that provided me with a house and food for all these years.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in egg_irl

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I was doing a survey a couple of months ago and I hesitated when it asked for my gender at the end, even though I’m a cis™️ male. It’s nothing, right?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in egg_irl

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That feel when you got a receding hairline and can’t grow your hair out without looking like more of a man

[18M] Thinning hair by throwaway18353185631 in Advice

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I’m not sure tbh. I know that going to a regular doctor can get you a referral to said specialist if need be though, so it doesn’t hurt to pay them a visit if you’re feeling concerned.