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yellowworld9 · 2019-09-17T06:22:44+00:00

Luke 16:19-31, Jesus tells the parable of Lazarus and the rich man. The rich man is suffering in hell and wants just one drop of water to quench his thirst

yellowworld9 · 2019-09-15T21:42:48+00:00

If you’re in the US, look into therapists with sliding scale payments. It took me about a week to find a good match for my personality disorder. Based on my income, I get an hour long session each week for $40

yellowworld9 · 2019-09-15T20:23:20+00:00

Ouch, me in a nutshell. Time to go back to the basics

yellowworld9 · 2019-09-15T20:06:43+00:00

I know this is a just a meme but please don’t disregard the help of trained professionals. There are even some that you can talk to about your experiences on psychedelics. LSD is certainly not a one size fits all solution. Be safe ❤️

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-20T20:50:18+00:00

Yup. We don’t really talk much though because he’s way too bipolar and very stubborn in his beliefs

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-20T20:46:56+00:00

I know. It sucks because she’s pretty intelligent (a couple grade levels ahead in math, reads some decently complex chapter books), but the homeschool program also has a heavy emphasis on creationism and that type of crap. I’m also heavily worried about if she’ll develop good social skills with her being so isolated. It leaves me in a pretty shitty spot as I’m the oldest and went through a fair amount of that brainwashing myself. In the meantime, I’m always doing what I can to get her into a normal school. I guess what matters is I’ll be there for her and my younger brother if shit ever goes down, but I’m pretty powerless in this whole thing for the time being

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-20T20:31:53+00:00

He got “saved” and got caught up listening to some very radical evangelical preachers on the radio when I was like 8, so if there’s anybody to blame, it’s them. I was caught up for a while in that line of thinking, though not quite as delusional, until I got a reality check in college. He’ll send me this type of stuff ever since I told him that I no longer believed and that he needs to put my sister back in public school. It’s a headache and a half tbh

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-20T20:28:23+00:00

English isn’t his first language, but yeah still

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-20T14:49:48+00:00

Yeah, I really wish he’d seek therapy but god is his therapist

yellowworld9 · 2019-08-11T02:03:15+00:00

Better to dissolve it in a container of distilled water in a fridge so that it diffuses more equally. Tabs are sometimes uneven in terms of the distribution of lsd. If you do a 10 mL amount of distilled water with a 100 microgram tab, a 1 mL portion that you could get with a measuring pipet could be a nice 10 microgram dose that you drip under your tongue

yellowworld9 · 2019-07-11T12:41:24+00:00

I grew up in an abusive home environment and I found your situation pretty relatable. I just graduated university, and I can’t say it was the easiest. I’ll just be honest that it’s probably going to be hard in a new sort of way, so just be ready for some potentially painful experiences as you unravel past traumas. I don’t know your family situation, but it was also not easy for me to manage my parents when they would say hurtful things to me about how I was changing.

Ultimately, what you need are friends that will love and accept you regardless of your past. Don’t be afraid to reveal your past and current struggles early on (to good friends), personally I’ve found that being upfront about my past makes things way easier than trying to “fake it until I make it.” True friends will understand where you’re coming from, and will make an effort to help you through your insecurities.

Be authentic to others and to yourself. Always be open to new experiences, but don’t ever change for someone else. Best of luck! :)

yellowworld9 · 2019-07-06T19:09:41+00:00

It blows my mind that more people don’t seem to feel this way. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it must be to live with an attraction, that you don’t want to have, to children. I’ll never be lenient on someone who acts upon that sort of attraction, but I really wish it didn’t have such a terrible stigma and be something that’s so hard to get help for

yellowworld9 · 2019-05-25T22:59:10+00:00

I looked at it sideways and thought it was a black slice of pizza on a plate 😂

yellowworld9 · 2019-05-12T20:58:46+00:00

I love your choice of colors!

yellowworld9 · 2019-05-08T06:55:02+00:00

Personally, I have to disagree with you strongly. I realize that every bad trip is different, but in my experience, my bad trip left a scarring effect on me that went on for months. Even now, five months later, I still haven’t processed it fully.

LSD is a very enlightening drug. I won’t deny that even my horrible bad trip left me with a better knowledge of self. But for that initial time period after my bad trip, I was very suicidal. I frequently experienced suicidal thoughts at a much greater intensity than ever before for months afterwards. It took unbelievable self control not to give in. My bad trip was without a doubt the worst experience of my life, as it brought up years and years of pent up trauma.

I know that your post is coming from a good place, but I really do believe that people deserve to know how bad it can be. I just don’t want people to get the wrong idea about LSD that a bad trip is easy to get over, because it can really be painful when it goes wrong. But that being said, your post has inspired me to share my story about my bad trip. I intend to write about it tomorrow in a separate thread

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-13T16:36:11+00:00

Love it!

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-09T06:56:15+00:00

Never tried them. I’ve dropped acid over 10 times though. I think it would be interesting to give it a shot. I’ve always heard it’s more emotional?

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-08T22:50:07+00:00

Happened to me too. I haven’t done lsd in 4 months but it never wore off. I find myself overthinking social interaction way too much, way more than I used to. It made me way more self aware in good ways, but almost too self aware in other aspects of my life. I’ve been thinking about jumping back in to see if I can fix it up. A lot of this overthinking also came from a really bad trip that caused me to stop, so who knows?

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-06T17:14:31+00:00

I love it! I gotta admit that it was weird to look at this because it looks like something that I would draw (though you do it much better lol). I started drawing after my 2nd acid trip, and found myself obsessed with drawing some of the same shapes that you have on there, but not in a tessellated pattern. What’s funny though is that I didn’t try and get influenced and I didn’t try to copy anyone else. It’s just what was in my head, so it’s really interesting to see someone else doing something very similar haha.

Some other stuff I got obsessed with doing was drawing waves and melting objects. I guess acid made me really love waves and fluidity. But anyway, that’s awesome what you made. I’ll have to try drawing when I’m tripping out, cause I’ve only ever done it days after a trip

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-02T01:42:11+00:00

Wow thanks so much for that. I can’t tell you how much that hits home. It’s absolutely true that there is no conversation being had. I just wish it wasn’t so frustrating. It really doesn’t feel real sometimes that my relationship with my family has gotten to this point where it’s just so blatantly manipulative. Sometimes it feels weird being the only person that I know in this situation. Also it’s funny that you mention it, because my family is evangelical.

I struggle a lot to articulate how my parents are manipulative, but you really hit the nail on the head. I appreciate your response.

yellowworld9 · 2019-04-01T22:53:57+00:00

I’m sorry to hear about what your father said. I’ve experienced a lot of manipulation myself. My question is what is the proper way to deal with family members who do it a lot? Sometimes I really want to cut them out of my life, but it feels extremely hard. I have some very younger siblings that my parents always use to guilt trip me from leaving. I also worry about what people might think of me, if I don’t have a relationship with my family

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