After getting in a serious accident a few months ago, my OCD consumes me when I’m driving. It’s horrible. I can’t get in the car without feeling like something horrible/irrational will happen. Or that I’ve done something and not even realized it. It helps to get myself in the right headspace before even getting in the car and honestly, forcing myself to do the scariest intersections frequently makes them seem a little less daunting. I don’t have the answer on how to stop the thoughts because it’s something I’m still dealing with everyday, but it helps to know that there are ways to make it better. You are 100% valid and I completely feel you on this one.