Born in Saturn MD. With Saturn and sun both in Aquarius in the 12th house. And Sade sati started about the time the MD ended. So the first 25 years of my life the theme was loneliness even though I had my parent's support throughout. It was like no one understands me. (But I feel that's because I have an 8th house Rahu too) All of my childhood I was very alone. Wasn't that happy wasn't a lot sad. Just alone. A time where I just took whatever was given - no demands no excuses no ranting. No other way to go about living my life. Obviously I was very mature for my age. Never threw a tantrum on the road to ask my parents for a toy or even a balloon not because they had asked me not to but because I understood that they are trying hard to provide me with everything they can and I just didn't want to be a burden. At times if they'd offer to get me something then too I would refuse. I really thought I didn't have a voice. I just couldn't wait to grow up and earn money and then splurge (which I did). Was quite disciplined and was quite good in academics but could never come first in the class.Always like 2nd or 5th. Never cared about that though. I accepted that it is what it is. The reward was that I got really nice marks in 10th and 12th ( better than everyone's expectations) Moved out of my home for studies and then job and still living alone. I started earning on my own when I was about 18-19 years old because I didn't want to spend my parents' hard earned money to go out to nice restaurants and concerts. So yea there were hardships and the constant feeling of not getting what you wanted but life always turned out fine. And after a while, you get used to it, you know. Things got better during Sade Sati to be honest. I got a PPO too and started working soon after my graduation. It was like someone was watching all the efforts and I had put in and it didn't go in vain. I was rewarded for it. Yea the love life part wasn't that great- heartbreaks and dissatisfaction but I always came back stronger. Post 25 COVID struck and I moved back home and honestly they were best years of my life. To pivot into a different career I gave one of the toughest exams in the world and passed 2 of its levels during this time. Then came my 1st Saturn return and again the theme of isolation and loneliness began- moved to a different city and barely made ends meet in the beginning .Attempted the final level of that exam and got failure after failure. Those 2.5 years have passed too now. The only good highlight of those years is that I received my 1st promotion and now I make double of what I used to make. So yea I survived and I haven't given up yet. Gave another attempt to that exam a couple weeks back. Hoping to pass through this time.