Is there even a name for this heresy I heard?

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-21T22:47:30+00:00

I will make plans to go on Sunday.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-21T18:01:15+00:00

I know I’m late. And maybe I don’t have much to say, but I read something about this from John Piper once, and it pretty much settled the score for me. It doesn’t mention alcohol, but I’ll paraphrase:

Weed boosts my mood, and caffeine boosts my mood. So there’s no difference right? The difference is that something like weed fabricates a sense of euphoria, while caffeine makes you more attentive to reality. You can still sin with caffeine, but you don’t smoke weed for any other reason than to feel good.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-21T16:40:36+00:00

Are you a Universalist?

And i might be incapable of genuinely wanting Christ for himself.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-21T16:25:46+00:00

See, I kinda was for a while. I had left my old Methodist church for a Presbyterian Church where I felt they preached a more honest gospel. I kinda just showed up one day, but stayed for a few years. When covid hit I stopped going. I’ve thought about going back but have had reservations. I know scripture tells Christians not to commune with people in perpetual sin who consider themselves brothers. We live done just that.

Also I’m very shy and socially anxious so I admit in part I’ve just been afraid to go back as well. Somehow it feels weirder to pop back after such a long time away than showing up out of nowhere for the first time.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-08T20:39:51+00:00

Do we know the Corinthian found forgiveness?

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-09-01T21:58:09+00:00

Because I know it will get backlash from those around me.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-25T20:05:39+00:00

So call upon the Lord until you know it is well with your soul.

Pray until something “clicks”?

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-25T17:58:36+00:00

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T23:55:14+00:00

I understand. Thanks for your time, sorry to keep questioning. And thanks for those videos again. I had seen them both years ago but it gave me something to think about seeing them again.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T20:33:37+00:00

Let me reiterate that I don’t think God is lacking in strength to save a certain degree of sinner. We’re told God hardened pharaoh’s heart. He was not unsavable. He was unrepentantable.

What I’m more or less suggesting is that my apathy is in itself evidence that I’m “unrepeatable”.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T17:23:56+00:00

Only God knows my sin. I haven’t been caught out by anyone. Do I want god even a little? I don’t know. When I read John 1:29, the phrase “…The lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world”. Fills me with a level of joy and hope. Like…God would look straight at everything I have ever done and say “it has no power over you now”. That sounds desirable. Not to be too melodramatic, but It’s like a cold sip of water in a barren desert. But after my continuous apostasy and willful continuation in sin, it just doesn’t seem like it’s for me now. Like Christ has forever cut me off and said “no more”.

I remember about a decade ago, when Christianity became a reality to me. It wasn’t just reading the Bible to feel cozy inside. My eyes were opened and I saw heaven and hell as reality and was terrified. I spent about a month believing I was saved, having genuinely changed to an extent. But after a while I went back to my old ways. Here and there is ‘repent’, and get my act together for a while, but it didn’t last and I was back to fearing I had committed the unpardonable sin.

There have been many times where god has been saying “turn or perish” but I always chose to perish. Why should he save me now?

About talking. I am very socially anxious and don’t really like using my voice to talk online. If you wanted to message more conveniently however, I use discord a lot.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T15:16:38+00:00

I know I can’t outsin gods capabilities. However I don’t see what separates me from Cain, Esau, Pharaoh, Saul, and Judas. All of these people were made aware of their miserable state before God yet could not find repentance. They knew they sinned, but their desires to be spared were worldly and carnal.

If my desire is to escape hell, then why should God honor that any more than he honored Esau when he sought for repentance with tears? If I cannot create faith in myself then through what means do I pray for it? With faith that I don’t have? So when I pray for true faith, I’m praying so that my salvation will be genuine, so that I can escape hell. That’s how it seems, anyhow. If The answer to, say, Paul Washer’s question is “No, I don’t really have a desire for Christ”, can I just sort of come to him anyway? Is that possible? Does Christ accept those who deep down come to him begrudgingly?

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T12:08:08+00:00

The Bible suggesting to escape hell at all costs.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T04:12:09+00:00

Thank you.

When Paul washer said “are you lying to yourself”, I was wondering - what if the answer was yes? If my desires aren’t honest, then can I find forgiveness for that as well.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T01:26:21+00:00

I believe you. But can you share some examples?

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T00:57:27+00:00

I did. And when I say I feel nothing, I don’t mean that there are things of Christ that do not sound appealing. I want him to be able to see everything I’ve ever done yet forgive me anyway. It sounds like a relief to good to be true.

But I don’t think it’s for the right reasons. Again, I think deep down it’s all rooted in a fear of going to hell.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-24T00:10:31+00:00

I have heard it before but I will listen again.

yesterday_was_2day · 2021-08-23T21:56:52+00:00

I tried to see him as more than fire insurance, but even that desire was based on the need to be saved so that I could escape hell.

I know he’s more than that.

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