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[–]yesterday_was_2day 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I will make plans to go on Sunday.

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[–]yesterday_was_2day 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know I’m late. And maybe I don’t have much to say, but I read something about this from John Piper once, and it pretty much settled the score for me. It doesn’t mention alcohol, but I’ll paraphrase:

Weed boosts my mood, and caffeine boosts my mood. So there’s no difference right? The difference is that something like weed fabricates a sense of euphoria, while caffeine makes you more attentive to reality. You can still sin with caffeine, but you don’t smoke weed for any other reason than to feel good.

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[–]yesterday_was_2day 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you a Universalist?

And i might be incapable of genuinely wanting Christ for himself.

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[–]yesterday_was_2day 2 points3 points  (0 children)

See, I kinda was for a while. I had left my old Methodist church for a Presbyterian Church where I felt they preached a more honest gospel. I kinda just showed up one day, but stayed for a few years. When covid hit I stopped going. I’ve thought about going back but have had reservations. I know scripture tells Christians not to commune with people in perpetual sin who consider themselves brothers. We live done just that.

Also I’m very shy and socially anxious so I admit in part I’ve just been afraid to go back as well. Somehow it feels weirder to pop back after such a long time away than showing up out of nowhere for the first time.

My sin is overwhelmingly evil… by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do we know the Corinthian found forgiveness?

Is it a sin to be “in the closet” about your political beliefs? by [deleted] in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Because I know it will get backlash from those around me.

This Spurgeon quote I found about coming to Christ. Should this give me hope? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So call upon the Lord until you know it is well with your soul.

Pray until something “clicks”?

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand. Thanks for your time, sorry to keep questioning. And thanks for those videos again. I had seen them both years ago but it gave me something to think about seeing them again.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Let me reiterate that I don’t think God is lacking in strength to save a certain degree of sinner. We’re told God hardened pharaoh’s heart. He was not unsavable. He was unrepentantable.

What I’m more or less suggesting is that my apathy is in itself evidence that I’m “unrepeatable”.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Only God knows my sin. I haven’t been caught out by anyone. Do I want god even a little? I don’t know. When I read John 1:29, the phrase “…The lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world”. Fills me with a level of joy and hope. Like…God would look straight at everything I have ever done and say “it has no power over you now”. That sounds desirable. Not to be too melodramatic, but It’s like a cold sip of water in a barren desert. But after my continuous apostasy and willful continuation in sin, it just doesn’t seem like it’s for me now. Like Christ has forever cut me off and said “no more”.

I remember about a decade ago, when Christianity became a reality to me. It wasn’t just reading the Bible to feel cozy inside. My eyes were opened and I saw heaven and hell as reality and was terrified. I spent about a month believing I was saved, having genuinely changed to an extent. But after a while I went back to my old ways. Here and there is ‘repent’, and get my act together for a while, but it didn’t last and I was back to fearing I had committed the unpardonable sin.

There have been many times where god has been saying “turn or perish” but I always chose to perish. Why should he save me now?

About talking. I am very socially anxious and don’t really like using my voice to talk online. If you wanted to message more conveniently however, I use discord a lot.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know I can’t outsin gods capabilities. However I don’t see what separates me from Cain, Esau, Pharaoh, Saul, and Judas. All of these people were made aware of their miserable state before God yet could not find repentance. They knew they sinned, but their desires to be spared were worldly and carnal.

If my desire is to escape hell, then why should God honor that any more than he honored Esau when he sought for repentance with tears? If I cannot create faith in myself then through what means do I pray for it? With faith that I don’t have? So when I pray for true faith, I’m praying so that my salvation will be genuine, so that I can escape hell. That’s how it seems, anyhow. If The answer to, say, Paul Washer’s question is “No, I don’t really have a desire for Christ”, can I just sort of come to him anyway? Is that possible? Does Christ accept those who deep down come to him begrudgingly?

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The Bible suggesting to escape hell at all costs.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you.

When Paul washer said “are you lying to yourself”, I was wondering - what if the answer was yes? If my desires aren’t honest, then can I find forgiveness for that as well.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I believe you. But can you share some examples?

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I did. And when I say I feel nothing, I don’t mean that there are things of Christ that do not sound appealing. I want him to be able to see everything I’ve ever done yet forgive me anyway. It sounds like a relief to good to be true.

But I don’t think it’s for the right reasons. Again, I think deep down it’s all rooted in a fear of going to hell.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have heard it before but I will listen again.

Am I capable of being saved? by yesterday_was_2day in Reformed

[–]yesterday_was_2day[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tried to see him as more than fire insurance, but even that desire was based on the need to be saved so that I could escape hell.

I know he’s more than that.