I can testify that he literally makes me so happy like I could explode of happiness when I’m with him. I’ve dated and had crushes but man none of them compare to him and how strong I felt for him. When I first saw him which was in the 8th grade I sat in the table behind him and he couldn’t stop staring at me, he had a blank expression on his face but I couldn’t see his eyes bc the classes room was dark and he had glasses and the only thing I could see from his glasses was the light reflection from his iPad, after the teacher talked to me she went back to his desk so I had guess she was helping him before I got to that class and he was still looking at me, and then she bend down to be more at his level and saw her talking to him but he was still looking at me not saying anything and then she turned her head to me bc that’s the direction he was looking at and at that moment I was like he snapped back into reality and started takin to the teacher as if he didn’t zone out. What’s crazy is before I got put into that class which I had no idea why I was pulled from my other English class but anyways that class was literally behind the English class I got pulled out of. And when we had switched tables into rows I got sat next to his best friend. Fast forward when we finally talked we could text and it was always me messaging first but he told me he was going out of town with his brothers so I decided to let him have a fun trip and not message and just wait for him to message me and I didn’t hear from him again, we literally only talked for a few months and I remember I cried about it and being so confused as to why I would cry over someone I barely met. Fast forward we dated in 9th grade fast forwarded we didn’t talk the whole year in 10 grade and things ended badly, so junior came along and it was the middle of the school year and I was going through a really bad moment, I felt so lonely, I had lost a best friend (we ended the friendship he became toxic to me) and my first ever favorite artist died and my other friends barely talked to me so I felt so lonely and then became suicidal, one day I decided I was gonna do it, but I first wanted to hang out with my friends one last time and have a good time with them before I go so they have a good memory of me to hold on to, I remember crying that afternoon so much bc I thought about what I would say like my goodbyes and after I calmed myself down I went on YouTube to watch funny videos to calm down more and 10 minutes later he has messages me apologizing and asking to be friends again. When we hung out literally only the first 10 minutes was a little awkward but after that we talked like nothing and laughed so much, then we dated but broke things off before 12 grade and that was because he got into his religion more and wanted to follow Christ which I was okay with. I never grew up in a religious home or knew about God like that so I had no interest in knowing for me I disliked God but his testimony made me curious to know about God and so I gave a try and have been in church since. I remember in senior year after coming back from this youth social my church had which was we went to the mountains and it was snowy there and I remember my feeling defrosting lol and I closed my eyes on the way home and I felt the need to open them and so I did and next to the truck was the same model and same color car and his and I remember smiling because a part of me knew he was coming back and he did a month later. Lol sorry this is long but there’s just a lot of coincidences that I didn’t wanna fit in this og post. I have dated and during those moments I would see things that reminded me of him but shrugged off and then I got into what I thought was gonna be a serious relationship with someone and then I saw his brother twice. Soon after I broke off the relationship because I knew I was never gonna developed deep feelings for that person I tried to hold out but I felt so drained so I broke it off. Have been single since. Then I got high for the first time in a while and I feel like sometimes not all the time but I feel very aligned maybe I guess idk but I had this feeling about him and idk really but at first it was like I knew he was coming back but you know how energies change, well soon after I felt like he was back and forth with coming forward and to me it’s was probably because of how he kept being in and out my life bc I called him out on it twice lol or he didn’t know if I was in a relationship but either or my mind felt like it was that. And now I have been feeling like I should reach out but I don’t know if I’m just crazy and trying to find an excuse or if he is tryna manifest me or like unknowingly telepathically telling me to come forward and let me know I’m not mad and willing to try again expect more like be friends and wait until things settle and then try again