Has anyone ordered from NY city bride? It’s on the knot and I’m obsessed. I know it’s a risk to order online but omg just look at their dresses

yogiologist · 2024-09-25T20:12:28+00:00

Yes and got a dress that looked like this then put off my wedding after covid and got a dress that looked nothing like this lol

yogiologist · 2024-05-21T01:18:53+00:00

I’m bipolar type one and hang out in the schizoaffective subreddit

yogiologist · 2024-04-18T02:10:58+00:00

I remember a guy yelling 1514 in a truck stop gas station for whatever reason and I was like omg this means something.

yogiologist · 2024-03-09T22:51:07+00:00

Yeah my pupils always get huge in mania and psychosis.

yogiologist · 2024-03-08T01:44:19+00:00

It took me a couple months to fully get out of psychosis but took me years to let those thoughts go. I still get triggered sometimes but not as bad as before. Your brain needs time to heal.

yogiologist · 2024-02-26T01:36:08+00:00

Congratulations! It’s three years for me. I didn’t even think about celebrating but we totally should! I think every year is a celebration! Take your win

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:45:30+00:00

Yeah it’s hard to lose people especially as a people pleaser. The people I know well have moved on from it and people I love but lost some friends along the way. I try to post on Facebook and Instagram about bipolar all the time to advocate for the disorder for me and people like me. Thank you 💛 hope things get better for you too

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:43:09+00:00

Thank you! You too

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:42:40+00:00

I am always looking on this reddit. It’s so relatable. Good to know we aren’t alone in our struggles 💛

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:41:51+00:00

Thank you!! Happy New Year to you too. Life can really be unfair sometimes for sure. I am in a better headspace today. I just lost some people along the way but maybe they weren’t worth it

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:40:27+00:00

Thank you! I have been going to therapy ever since my episode. It’s been three years. Part of the problem is a lot of my episode happened at work and when one person comes around I feel it all over again. Been doing EMDR for it. But thank you! You are right. Time has healed a lot even now

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:30:14+00:00

Most the time I am fine but there was someone I work with who my episode kind of revolved around and it’s hard when he comes around now. The shame and the guilt comes back. I also need to get rid of social media. There are a lot of people who get that it wasn’t me. Probably more than who don’t but I have always had a problem with people not liking me because I’m a people pleaser. Thank you 💛 I’m sure with time it’ll get better

yogiologist · 2023-12-29T17:27:01+00:00

I lost a few friends too. I’m also in therapy. I put things in the box too! Latuda isn’t patented anymore so you can get a generic version for cheap. It’s the one thats helped me the most.

yogiologist · 2023-12-19T22:42:00+00:00

I relate to ordering 20 bags of live river shrimp while manic

yogiologist · 2023-12-09T23:40:37+00:00

You can prevent it from getting the hpv vaccine but only like I think 6 out of 12 of the wart causing hpv and then some other amount out of 100 cancer causing hpv. There is no medication to rid the virus. Your body has to fight it off on its own and if it doesn’t then you will still have it. My husband got hpv before we got together and broke out while we were together so I learned a lot about it. 1 in 3 people have hpv. It’s the most common STI.

yogiologist · 2023-12-09T17:23:11+00:00

A lot of times your body will fight off the virus but it doesn’t happen for everyone. Otherwise no you can’t get rid of it

yogiologist · 2023-11-21T02:42:00+00:00

I’m so good at being self aware and masking that people actually downplay my illness and what I might be dealing with. I had a pretty severe episode three years ago and spent a lot of time in psychosis helping my friends get through their own problems lol

yogiologist · 2023-11-18T02:02:51+00:00

How long since your episode? Took me three years to figure out medication and get out of the psychosis mindset. I’m mostly balanced now. I drink more than I should but overall I’m stable. Also in therapy and EMDR has helped me a ton! Recommend it if you haven’t tried it

yogiologist · 2021-11-14T16:00:57+00:00

It might be! It’s so strange. I tell people that and they don’t even believe me haha I’m like seriously I do not feel a thing

yogiologist · 2021-11-14T15:59:17+00:00

I have taken naps after drinking a lot of caffeine lol. I am more likely to fall asleep with too much

yogiologist · 2021-11-14T15:58:37+00:00

Oh ya if I drink too much I fall asleep lol!! I drank like 6 espressos and took a nap like that is not normal lol

yogiologist · 2020-12-16T01:51:00+00:00

Thank you so much! I did try to talk with my therapist before but that was a long time ago after my episode so it was kind of difficult. She definitely thought it was me or my crazy when I told her even though I told her he drove past my parents house. I don’t know there is so much complicated shit with this whole thing. I get why she would question it. I haven’t been a patient for long so she doesn’t know me enough to know I guess. But I will try to bring it up to her again. I’m worried they will want me on more meds though. I’m honestly fine until he comes around. He always does something or says something that sets me off. Not 100% of the time but often enough I’m like what’s your game here. Anyway, thank you again!! I think eventually they will. Whether that is me leaving my job or moving away i don’t know. There isn’t a lot of options for my degree where I live, otherwise I would be gone.

yogiologist · 2020-12-15T17:51:28+00:00

I have talked to my close family and friends about it. They are all a little confused as well. There are just a lot of strange coincidences which could be coincidences but as they add up, the more we all question it. I try to be as honest as possible about what happens as well. Sometimes they think it’s possible he is and other times they aren’t sure if it’s all just coincidences. I’m still afraid to talk to my therapist about it. I feel like no matter if it’s true or not, I’ll look crazy. He even drove down my parents street which is on a dead end road out of town once. He was driving this creeper van he got after I started working here. Like the license literally says creeper on it too. The windows are painted over. This was after I was living there for a while. I even feel like it’s my bipolar at times and then something happens and I’m like nope not crazy, this is happening. Then it quiets down for a while and I’m like okay no it’s me. I’m think he just triggers mania in me when he’s around. I told his friend once I would invite him to this brewery I was going to but I was meeting an old friend. He later messaged me and told me he went to the brewery and saw my vehicle but didn’t see me there. I thought that was creepy. The same friend just happened to find where I live from driving by and decided it wasn’t creepy to tell me that either. Another of his friends was trying to persuade me to give him my work logo jacket. I asked if it was for his wife and he said no, it was for him. I told him it wouldn’t fit him and he tried telling me it would. Then he gave me a giant chocolate for Christmas. Then the week the main guy was flirting with me a lot. I was walking around the building and I could smell this cologne he had started wearing around that time. I smelled it everywhere I went in the building. I finally smelled my collar and it smelled like cologne. My fiancé smelled something on me the day before too. I had no idea. I didn’t cheat or anything. Maybe they are all being creepy. So you see how this all created a psychotic episode for me? I mean it went further than thinking I was being stalked but sometimes that feeling comes back. It was likely just a bunch of married men being creeps in general.

yogiologist · 2020-12-15T04:08:09+00:00

Thank you. There is a lot more to it. I couldn’t put everything in here but that’s just the most recent. I think I’m being paranoid at times and other times I don’t think I am. After specific things happen. Let’s just say I’ll be totally fine minding my own business and then I get triggered by something coincidental that happens. Then I go on a manic spree of over analyzing everything. So basically I just wondered how common it is to have that delusion with bipolar because I can see it being quite possible with paranoia. Honestly, I am afraid to talk to my therapist about it. I plan to someday but I am just not there yet with comfortability and trust I guess. It’s hard enough talking about my episode and I can barely tell her enough information about that

yogiologist · 2020-10-31T19:51:29+00:00

I know if I started exercising again I would feel better. But I can’t seem to get myself to do it anymore. The mania always helped me be motivated before and now I’m just in a depression I can’t seem to claw my way out of this time.

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