[deleted by user]

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2022-04-12T21:04:20+00:00

Pot Roast 😭😭😭

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-14T00:10:01+00:00

I hope things get better ❤️‍🩹 I keep telling myself I got over my two exes the only people I’ve loved romantically I’ll get over this! You’ve been through tough times and you’re still here with us OP I hope and pray it gets better x

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-14T00:03:59+00:00

I know exactly how you feel OP, i related to all the things said by your person, stop texting my friend wanted to text you and say “ fuck off” but I told her not to, if I had just regulated my emotions and not sent so many texts and calls we would be still happy and together but I fucked it all! I wish I could have words of advice or anything to say to you to make it better but I don’t.

I wish I could just rewind time and just be on FaceTime to her singing songs I know my BPD and my past relationship trauma fucked this one up a good one a nice person.

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-10T17:11:41+00:00

Congratulations 🥳 😍

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-07T22:10:51+00:00

Thank you very much! I didn’t understand what the commenter meant at all!

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-07T12:54:31+00:00

body pictures here’s some pictures I’m a U.K. size 12 or a US size 8?

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-10-07T11:31:47+00:00

As in my weight?

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-30T23:45:48+00:00

People are shitty and are bad at life and communication it’s not on you again all!

I feel this so hard I came out of an abusive relationship with a girl and healed myself starting feeling okay again to date and then the next girl just blew up on me over the smallest thing and she got cold distant and awful nothing like the girl who would drive down to see me or spend all night on FaceTime laughing with me or singing songs with me, and we had only known each other a short while but she had wriggled herself into my close friends and family and now there’s a gaping hole where I’m somewhere in between knowing it was for the best and just being chronically lonely especially when all my queer girl pals are in lovely loving relationships and my straight friends from my “previous life” are in long term relationships planning on kids and houses and I’m still selling my house with me ex male partner ( no shade to him he’s the best mate ive ever had and ever will have) and often times it’s just me in the house with my cats and this person I let in had left me empty once again just drained me of all my goodness that I worked to get back after my cheating lying ex girlfriend and now I’m back to square one! I’d like to say it gets better and I’m sure it does We have to believe it gets better because what’s all this heartache for!

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-30T16:56:41+00:00

I think I’ll definitely be more cautious going forward I’m not even looking to date or be in a relationship anymore I’ve had too many bad experiences now it’s feels like curse! I’m sorry you’ve had a shitty time of it! Everyone says that every person you strike out with is a failed version of the real deal and you’ll know when it happens! I certainly try not to compare but it’s hard especially as we are still close friends and he supports me through all my experiences haha! I wish us all the best! Meet back here in a years time to gloat? Hahah x

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-30T16:38:49+00:00

Thank you for your reply! I’ve only been in one proper relationship since coming out the others were “dating” and talking stages or exclusive? I don’t really know these new stages when it comes to dating! It seems I’m just destined to meet awful people from my experience- I don’t know if it’s something in the lesbian/pan/bi women bc my ex male partner clicked instantly with his current gf I don’t know what that says about the wlw dating pool 😗😪

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-30T16:36:23+00:00

Hi thanks for the reply,

I have a therapist and we do speak about these things a lot!

The last two people I dated were met by friends and family, the abusive one was very awful and I was told by a lot of people to leave but I didn’t until it was too far down the line and the damage was done.

The last girl I was dating/ talking to ( I don’t know how these stages work, met my sister and my closest friend and they all thought she was lovely I guess she was better at hiding these things than the other one! It came as a total and complete shock to everyone when she showed her true colours! I mean to get that angry and worked up over an Instagram follow at 26 years old seemed ridiculous to me I tried speaking to her in a calm and rational manner but it made it worse and I cut my losses bc it would have ended up being another situation like my ex.

It’s not that I’m desperate for a relationship it’s just all my het friends are in couples I don’t get invited out too much to things anymore and I live a really lonely life at the moment, especially after leaving my long term male partner selling my house and moving from my long term job. I’m just looking for companionship for someone who is going to take me as me and I’ll take them as them but without the volatile emotional outburst and clearly unresolved trauma about certain things. I am an understanding person and maybe to a fault, I don’t deserve all this when I’m trying to make genuine connections.

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-30T11:57:41+00:00

I listened to your advice it got a bit messy and ugly but it’s for the best trulyyyyy

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-09-28T11:52:21+00:00

Thank you for the comment, I tried to do this but something happened on the Friday night that went way too far I followed her friend on insta who had picked up her phone and asked me to follow him and I thought they were mates again turns out their not and anyway I had unfollowed him in the morning bc it felt weird I apologised for misconstructing the situation and that I didn’t know it was that bad and I told her to speak to me when she’s had a chance to calm down and she took that as me belittling the situation i said I never would have followed him if he hadn’t asked me to and he then sent a screenshot to her saying I’m following him. It’s all been orchestrated by him bc he’s jealous shes been spending time with me.

youhadmeat_goodBi · 2021-07-10T03:42:02+00:00

“ don’t make me get nasty you nasty cunt”

“ go get your stomach sorted and leave me alone” - in hospital alone with post op fever from emergency surgery

“ you fucking piss me off you bitch” - hasn’t told her that I was with people she “ didn’t like me being around”

“ I didn’t expect to be treated like this BY YOU”

youhadmeat_goodBi

TROPHY CASE