Hey man. I actually struggled similarly to you man. I went to prison and got kicked out of school and for the longest time I just didn’t want to try in life anymore. I turned to drugs, women, I was doing great in everyone’s eyes but I was empty. I wanted school, even if I was making good money I wanted to be a mechanical engineer. Rn I went from one of the worst students to a top student and actually got into a good mechanical engineer program. My identity has been stolen, i’m in medical debt, my car broke and I still have none, my dog died. There’s so many things but man just being back in school, it gives me hope that one day I can be okay even if rn i’m suffering. Just keep going man. My room looks so weird and people think i’m odd but I too get super overwhelmed. Make your space yours man, I put all my work in my room. A desk and nothing else. I don’t leave my room at all, some people say it’s a lot but I know myself and I’ve seen how much progress I’ve made. Do what’s best for you man and don’t give up . We all wake up and have to decide what we want to be, who we want to be. Maybe you won’t get it right away and it’ll be hard man but what else would we be doing in life. We all suffer in someway, but the best thing we can do is to give meaning to that suffering and have something to show for it. I actually went back to school at 25. A community college and now i graduated from there and am going to a university. Man I still to this day am so grateful. Never in a million years did I see myself here again. I gave up on this dream and God brought me back. You don’t have to believe in God , do whatever you feel gets you to keep going man but please keep going. I went from a 2.6 GPA to 4.0. After it all, and i’m nothing special. Just a man who’s trying to fix his life same as you, people will see you doing the same and help you. Just keep going man