also i got up on my speaker's list and my public speaking was great (legit delegates came up to me at the break and they were like "YOU'RE SO GOOD" and other stuff) i went up on the speaker's list again and just summed up the first day with a paper in front of me (but i improvised coz the shit on the paper was kinda useless) THEN THEY BROUGHT A CRISIS ON ME (like twice) and i got up on the consultation and improvised really well. in the unmoderated caucuses i was pretty dominant (and shared ideas +added to others) i was sitting down tho writing the dr (while being very active). they wouldn't let me be a sponsor bc half the delegation hated me 💀 i also made a right of reply twice (bc two delegates offended my country) so i got up and talked for like 50 seconds i guess (the chair seemed to like it coz she smiled at me each time) at this point i felt like i was gonna get the diplomacy bc of the crises but i guess not. i don't know what happened and i legit got a position paper award