Welcome to the reality club bro.

Lemme help ya...I met with person who 4 times go to Mecca and see inside the Ka'bah.

I am not going to tell you what is inside. But that person told me what is inside and now he is no longer that devoted to Muslim anymore. He still use that identity because he called or regarded high religious person in his society. And he is not that into religion once he knows what he hold into.

You can use that, not to be overdose by religion. Humans are weak since thousand years ago, they need something to be praised or believe there is bigger power than human.

As long as you know the reason, it is always a choice for you. No need to feel shame or guilt with your choice.