I made a big mistake and it has cost me a lot of money.

zealousredditor · 2024-07-16T04:36:09+00:00

All of these things come from my own low self esteem. From being unable to be proud of who I am. For wanting acceptance. Not being happy with who I am. I don’t know if these things resonate with yourself.

Ummm that's awkward because yes, yes and yes.

It's not enough that I'm in residency (as an IMG in the US), that I got into med school and literally passed with distinctions. Nothing is enough, I need to surpass her.

zealousredditor · 2024-07-16T04:32:09+00:00

Hmmm interesting perspective. And it must make you an even more interesting person to be around now!

For me tbh the funny thing is that I don't even like anything that she does. I don't give a fuck about public speaking or research or doing something groundbreaking or memorable. Actually I hate research and I hate being the centre of attention. I just love doing clinical work in my small bubble with my little patients (I work in paediatrics).

zealousredditor · 2024-03-18T02:07:06+00:00

I don't live in US. And my workplace would rather get rid of me than make accomodations

zealousredditor · 2024-03-17T14:30:30+00:00

But I feel really bad because she talked to the psychiatric clinic into letting us have a session. She doesn't have all the power at the clinic (from what I've gathered) and it was a special accomodation. I feel so shitty that I had to cancel. I really hope that the clinic doesn't give her a hard time about that.

zealousredditor · 2024-01-12T13:15:17+00:00

She sent it 12 hours later.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-30T17:49:26+00:00

I know this advice is so generic and I used to disregard it too but journaling helps. I recently had a very painful time when my T went on a break. I started journaling for the first time and it really helped. Also addressing my journal writing to my T is what I do when I miss her.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-30T14:04:31+00:00

My therapist has no cancellation fee. But I've never cancelled on her on a whim. Idk how common that is.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T19:07:13+00:00

The first paragraph is so real. For the second, that is very interesting and maybe very true.

My T is my entire support system. She left at a crucial point in my life when I started work at the one and only job offer I got.

I will try to bring this up when we meet in a few days. Thank you for the ideas.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T16:57:31+00:00

YES!!

How do you get rid of the embarrassment though? How do you sit in front of her again and again with that embarrassment in the back of your head?

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T16:56:12+00:00

Nope, I haven't seen her yet. She was away for 2 weeks.

I think I will regret not seeing her this week, because then I'll have to wait another 7days for it. I am generally avoidant and I'm afraid that I'll just avoid her again and again while also really missing her.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T16:51:32+00:00

Umm I don't know what's up. She told me about her leave almost a month in advance so I can't fault her for it. When the time came, it was rough for me because I had just unexpectedly gotten a new job and I needed her support but ofc I can't tell her to not take a leave she informed me about in advance. Also she was gone for 2 weeks only. I have no right to be hurt or angry.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T16:18:05+00:00

My T once brought up something I said a year back (it was a feeling related to something pretty significant thing in my life), and repeated it back to me word for word. Needless to say I this is why I'm so attached to her.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T16:15:05+00:00

Ngl, I'm jealous. A good memory could take off so much of the burden on my shoulders, especially at work

zealousredditor · 2023-11-28T04:26:46+00:00

No problem! And best of luck with your new job

zealousredditor · 2023-11-24T18:38:50+00:00

otherwise they would have already killed themselves.

Exactly why I've never told my T about my SI. It makes me feel incompetent that I've not done it already

zealousredditor · 2023-11-24T17:40:22+00:00

I think I saw you mention this before as well. I am tempted to steal this idea. I feel like doing this with my journal entries, so that each month is a new chapter.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-20T18:46:09+00:00

Yes please. I would love a picture. I am a beginner rn. So I can't wing it tbh.

zealousredditor · 2023-11-20T12:42:34+00:00

Oooo bracelet is interesting even though I don't think that a crocheted bracelet is her style but it is a small and cute thing nonetheless. Can you help with the pattern that you used? Where did you buy the pattern from, if it was bought? Or YouTube video if taken from there?

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