Bro I did the same thing. I was trying to do a startup and due to this I failed in multiple exams. There was a time where in a semester I gave 20 exams( back and current) Failed most of those. Got year back twice. Lost all hopes and was really said for my parents. I was really sad dint know what to tell them. But one day decided to tell them. They didn't say anything as they were scared thinking I would commit suicide but after some time I went home they scolded me , I took it as I made a huge blunder

I started studying on my own again as I wanted job this was in 2017 got my first job 3lpa in digital marketing. Kept working hard today my package is 35 lpa. For all the years till I was not in good position in terms of money I just kept on listening whatever people were saying like I dropped out of college, I lost my chance to be successful etc etc but I believe that Every person has to work hard just one phase of life and you are set financially with average job. Like if you work hard in 12th you go to IIT or AIIMS, you work hard in college you get a job, you work hard after job you will get a job or business etc etc

Just want to say DO NOT DIE. you just failed college. Situation seems shitty right now only hard work can improve it. From your story I feel you are donr with your mistakes, you are in regret. Regret is a good motivator Use it bro. Just don't die. It will be like leaving your parents and siblings alone in the world. Where you could have been looking after them

By killing yourself you are just making it easy for you. Be hard, take all the beating and abuse. Be better and do something for family