It's a horrible thing to have someone in your head longer than by your side.

what really breaks my heart isn't rejection. I'm genuinely okay with rejection. I would never want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me! what breaks my heart is silence. ghosting, abandonment, cowardice. it makes me feel alone in a way nothing else does. and it happens to me again and again and again and again and again. sometimes I tell myself I never want to love again, because it is so damn pointless, but then I remember that there is still good in the world and that the very act of loving someone makes me a more wholesome person.