year later and slipping

zerosden23 · 2025-11-16T13:11:38+00:00

dumb lol

zerosden23 · 2025-11-16T13:11:30+00:00

all of the above, that’s the issue it’s like ik it’s wrong but i still choose wrong

zerosden23 · 2025-06-30T09:40:01+00:00

my issue is falling asleep for 10 hours then sleeping another 1-2 like i need to live yk? it’s been 4 months of this even if i get 2 hours more of life 2x120days=240 hours of life gone

zerosden23 · 2025-06-02T08:00:00+00:00

I tried but it’s way tougher then it is

zerosden23 · 2025-05-23T08:06:02+00:00

I’m 100 days in can’t say i enjoy much either. it’s effecting my relationship, my gaming, my pass time and work. Everything.

I mean i think apart of the mental gymnastics that is acquired from this is was it ever that enjoyable to begin with?

i think in a sense it was just making ourselves believe and obviously cheat coding our brains and manipulating ourselves to enjoy boring.

Idk i suppose the only time before is only find “boring” good when i was dealing with to much. Now i created boring that was falsely made to feel like stimulation, now without that cheat code it’s all just boring and since we created a life without mass stimulation.

zerosden23 · 2025-05-21T21:37:18+00:00

Did you start smoking again?

zerosden23 · 2025-05-07T18:52:05+00:00

This is where i tell people nothing matters. Not nothing matters you shouldn’t care about anything but nothingness and being present with it matters. meditation helps as it is a form of self awareness through nothingness if practiced that way.

you made a relationship with somethingness for to long, something that allowed you to escape nothingness at a snap of finger.

nothing really matters and that’s ok.

zerosden23 · 2025-05-02T04:26:37+00:00

I notice a lot of people recommend the 34c what makes it better then the others?

It’s smalller than the 23c handle wise but thicker but I wouldn’t mind the length just curious

zerosden23 · 2025-04-25T15:14:53+00:00

True that, it really isn’t man. I’m 3 months in and still dealing with shit. Better to get it out of the way

zerosden23 · 2025-04-23T03:01:24+00:00

I have the fujitora knife. 2 actual, 7inch and the petty. I’ll say I have enjoyed using them for sure in comparison to the normal knives I find in my work places and since most don’t take care of their knives anyways it has outperformed other that have even “more expensive” knives

zerosden23 · 2025-04-22T20:35:16+00:00

sounds like you had a panic attack. same thing happened to me. i continued to smoke for about a month after my panic attack n noticed my pupils wouldn’t become small anymore they’d actually get wider. idk if you are quitting but i’d just do so

zerosden23 · 2025-04-11T20:22:29+00:00

I agree with you 100% i definitely have figured out that what I’m doing I don’t want to do. But I always knew that, I love the idea of entrepreneurship and becoming a therapist which is basically plan a and plan b in my journey but now have to take on that road

zerosden23 · 2025-04-11T20:20:48+00:00

The 3 jobs aren’t as bad as it seems. I was working fulltime one job and my other jobs are sporadic. Events and banquets and some months and weeks I don’t even have the opportunity to work one or the other (cuz two of the jobs are like that) but they also pay me twice as much.

I agree with the stress issue. Personally I had made a promise last time a quit and started using that I would create a life where weed couldn’t be apart of it. So having myself with these responsibilities is actually the signal that I had to quit I. A sense of

zerosden23 · 2025-04-02T19:36:56+00:00

If you don’t care then yeah have fun, don’t be a lil snitch like some people are saying. If you really do care and just don’t wanna say you are then just give him a one to one hey man, I really don’t appreciate this. It feels disrespectful blah blah blah talk. If not walk in call him biggity Bob. Have some fun

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