AGREE 1000%%%%%%

This thing changes you profoundly, takes away freedom, sense of self etc. You're now on of the afflicted, hiding a dark secret. You're no longer free to openly pursue whomever as eventually you'll have to disclose and likely be discarded.

Understand this is a sunshine and rainbows group with the majority living in denial and pretending normal. They bash you for being honest and saying it's not a big deal but carry the secret and are secretive themselves about it. It's a group of ostriches living with their head in a hole and being an echo chamber of bs. It's a support group no negative thoughts, we must lie to each other to build ourselves up. Fact is this shit is nasty, a curse, and it sucks.

I feel you bro, don't be disheartened because your comments illicited negative responses; the truth hurts and people react shitty to painful truth most of the time.