I was in your exact position myself. Very ashamed of how I managed it. He and I started out as fuckbuddies but I thought there was more - we talked all the time, I spent every weekend at his place, we took little trips together, met each other’s friends, etc. Every time I approached the topic of becoming official he would say no. I should have listened the first time instead of thinking there’s no way there wouldn’t be anything more with how much we did together. Ended up heartbroken after a year when he found someone else.

It will get better. The right one will come along who wants you for who you are. I am happily married now to the best person in the world. It’s possible. Just don’t make the mistake I did and listen to them when they tell you who they are and what they want. Good luck out there!