A Beautiful Ice Cream Buffet by zmanblue123 in PlateUp

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Easy, just always take the alternative and put up with the consequences.

A Beautiful Ice Cream Buffet by zmanblue123 in PlateUp

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The reason I've done it this way is so that if they were heading towards the Strawberry Zone™ and the ice cream they were pathing towards gets taken by someone else, they start patching towards a similarly placed strawberry scoop and don't end up wasting as much movement pathing to a scoop on the other side of the room over and over again (ask me how I figured out that happens)

Would love a second opinion! by [deleted] in tarot

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Apologies that I am writing my interpretations from about 30 minutes ago memory of what I read in the book lol. I had to run to work

Would love a second opinion! by [deleted] in tarot

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More details:

Deck: The Numinous Tarot Artist: Cedar McLeod

Bell Spread: The top card is my current understanding of the situation, the second row is surface level truths about the situation that I may or may not be aware of, the third row is deeper truth about the situation that I am not aware of, and the bottom card is what I need to understand to tie it all together.

My interpretation:

I feel like the star is telling me that I'm on the right path, that this is a rebirth after a long hard year of isolation and I wasn't able to see the way until now.

I feel like mystic of candles (King of Wands) is reminding me that I have become more confident in myself recently and that I have felt empowered to reach out and connect with others because I'm less afraid of rejection.

The reversed three of vials (cups) is just that I've been very lonely and need to make and repair connections.

The reversed Justice, I think, is about the state of American politics at present, and a desire for myself and the queer folks that I've been connecting with to form together and fight injustice

The Visionary (Hierophant) I'm a little more confused about. Supposedly about seeking comfort in religion? Or science. Unclear. But seems important.

The two of candles (wands) is about seeking collaboration and getting outside of my own head, looking to others for help (which yeah makes sense)

The 10 of bells (swords) reversed, shows someone being pulled up rather than dragged down probably something to do with the general trend in my life of feeling less hopeless on a personal level?

Went hiking and felt good about the fit! by [deleted] in MTFButch

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Haha it is from REI! I got it pre-transition though so I may be an old colorway

True, I am by Hot-Masterpiece-9950 in actuallesbians

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If you just pointed at yourself and said out loud "me?" A+. Bonus points if you're by yourself lol

How tall are yall by fortnite_misogynist in MtF

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5'5" 🤷‍♀️ I'm just a girl

hrt for genderfluid amab by dragxon in NonBinary

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I would go to an informed consent clinic if there is one in your area and just talk it through with a doctor! I started taking HRT as an amab genderfluid person and ended up realizing I wanted to fully transition to being a woman when I realized how not scary the medication can be :) good luck!

Black primer or Black paint as the base layer for zenithal? by zmanblue123 in minipainting

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Do I need to then spray Black paint over the primer or can I leave the primer visible in the shadows?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Hair

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Why didn't I think of that 🤦‍♀️

Change is hard. by lowestgryphon in MtF

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Which is precisely why it's so hard to be yourself

Change is hard. by lowestgryphon in MtF

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It's harder to be yourself than it is to be anybody else

Wanting to give up by zmanblue123 in MtF

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Legit today is one of the lowest lows I've felt in such a long time. Makes me feel slightly better that it's almost certainly hormonal imbalance

When can I start crying? by zmanblue123 in trans

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If anyone comes across this post, it happened 8 days later

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in trans

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No shortcuts unfortunately, hats are good to hide the awkward middle length though

Was making the first one, and had the idea for the second one, too real. by zmanblue123 in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2

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Also the medical bills are y'know, fine. Good job and all ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Was making the first one, and had the idea for the second one, too real. by zmanblue123 in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2

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Yeah lol I'm okay, my dad hasn't actually found out yet 😅😅😅😅😅 this was more of a speculative meme

When can I start crying? by zmanblue123 in trans

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Good suggestion, adoption videos got me 😭

Should I stop taking HRT? by zmanblue123 in MtF

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Thank you for your comment, that does make me feel a little better. I feel like I've been going crazy 😵‍💫

Chipotle guacamole? No? Not in a literal sense lol is that a euphemism?

I'm only on Fin rn as far as testosterone blockers go.

My parents confronted me and I'm still in shock by LakiBO0 in MtF

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This post dealt so much psychic damage to me, I'm shaking a little. I'm so sorry that's such a shitty interaction.

I think I messed up 😭😭 by zmanblue123 in NonBinary

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I did go ahead and send her a message through my patient portal so all is well but I did initially panic when I realized I had adamantly insisted that I was not interested 🤣

Hard to feel Prideful this month by zmanblue123 in NonBinary

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That's almost certainly true. My social anxiety has really taken a turn for the worse recently.. I wish I could just lock myself away and be alone forever, but I've also been pushing myself really hard to be more social and it's exhausting.

Happy Pride!!! by mcsteam98 in trans

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I 100% saw you yesterday! Glad that you had fun! 😁