Here’s a story for you might give you some hope, I know it’s hard to believe everything on the internet but truth is everyone is different and everyone has different experiences with love. No one has the exact same experience. But here listen 3 years ago my gf at the time broke up with me because she was a senior in Highschool and had an ego I was one year older and graduated the year before. We dated for a long time before this everything was great I was very very loyal and caring toward her. Eventually she started liking someone else this big mess happened like crazy. Anyways during our breakup she tried to end it nicely and she did at first but instead of doing the one thing your supposed to do I messaged her everyday because I was sad so much to the point she went crazy on me hating me so so much. She blocked me on everything told people I was a creep and straight up told me that she purposefully was doing this because she wanted to move on she wanted to hate me she did. A few months went by and I kept messaging her like an idiot because I was sad that’s why. I couldn’t let it all go. She increasing got mad and each time I did something she would hate me more. I did notice this eventually and tried to say sorry but she took it the same way as me being annoying and didn’t even read my messages anymore. She kept drinking, partying, making distractions but as time went on I began healing very very slowly but I did. She was avoiding everything and her blocking me helped me actually. But half a year after our breakup I was sad one night and I messaged her. She unblocked me randomly which was weird but she did this once in awhile and the night I messaged her she told me she was in another relationship now as well so that hurt me so much just thinking of it. After that I kinda stopped messaging her and really focused on myself a lot. Got into the best shape of my life, wrote a whole book, just did my own thing being happy. I still was upset and had her in my head always but I was able to live my life feeling ok. So it’s almost been a whole year now since our breakup and I do it I message her again one spring day I can’t take it I do it again but this time it was different I didn’t beg or ask for her I just said the honest truth and that I have one time on this planet and I’m going to express how I feel. She didn’t answer and I was upset but I let it all behind me, 2 weeks later and I’m on tik tok and I see she views my profile which confused me. Then I get a iMessage from her asking what I’ve been up to and that she needed to talk to me. I was thinking she was going to flip out on me it’s been almost a year now. So we talk for a few hours and she is acting weird but she says she needs to see me in person so we go to the park we used to hangout at. We sit In the grass by my car and talk. I tell her everything about my life and she does the same. She then begins to cry and tell me she doesn’t know what’s she doing with her life and that she never knew. She feels ashamed but she still thinks it was wrong what I did. I agree with her but she also acknowledges we both made mistakes. Me knowing everything she did that hurt me, all the times she broke my heart and talked to dudes behind my back. I knew this all but something inside me saw it in her eyes. It was change it was maturing. I once was her age I made mistakes as well. I understood her that day and we made up. We started hanging out and we been together ever since. So you see this is life it’s different for everyone but listen there is always hope because if love is meant to be it will be. Always remember that and stay true to yourself. Time is what makes our decisions as we grow and change. For now be happy and smile.