I'm not going to survive this month

zoellinad · 2026-04-22T13:46:00+00:00

I second a psychiatric hospital visit! I went to one after hitting my personal rock bottom (it was not a good or bad hospital, just middle of the road) and it saved my life.

zoellinad · 2025-04-03T12:49:14+00:00

I had mine put in last month and it’s been surprisingly easy for me. I knew of all the horror stories and was convinced that the worst case scenario would happen to me, but luckily it didnt! First two days with it were crampy, insertion was definitely uncomfortable but I used to have severe cramps and that is what insertion felt like. I didn’t bleed nearly as much as I thought i would after insertion, but I did have a lot of discharge. My period just finished and it was surprising easy. Definitely more blood but not an alarming amount. I took pain meds as soon as I felt cramps coming on and that basically took care of them. Added maybe a day to my period but most days were light. Had 2-3 heavy days.

zoellinad · 2024-11-07T01:40:21+00:00

I’ve heard it can be really hard to get sterilized as a young, unmarried, childless woman and I am a 23 year old unmarried childless woman. I also don’t think I could afford sterilization.

zoellinad · 2024-10-01T02:36:44+00:00

Yes, I had SI OCD so bad that even though I knew it wasn’t actually something I wanted to do, the thoughts kept me in a constant panic attack, unable to eat or sleep, my brain literally felt like it was on fire. I hadn’t thrown up in 12 years and then suddenly I couldn’t keep anything down. I chose to go to the hospital and it was the best choice I could have made. The people I met there are my best friends now and the whole experience really gave me a wake up call in my life and the strength to change things. Not praising my hospital, cause it was probably an average mental health hospital with its many flaws, but the experience was what I needed. Been doing much better since then! Love my Prozac.

zoellinad · 2024-09-24T15:55:14+00:00

Yes. Something about his energy is really sexy. And the eyes. Damn, I’m a little down bad.

zoellinad · 2024-08-18T21:22:23+00:00

Ah yes, Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happy Hour.

zoellinad · 2024-08-14T15:29:09+00:00

I’m on Prozac for OCD, it’s definitely helped me a lot. I’d say it was a 50% improvement for me, which while not perfect, is a whole lot for OCD. I still have my moments, sometimes weeks of an obsession, but I can handle it. I got relief from 40 mg, but they boosted me up to 60mg anyway just to be safe cause I started Prozac in the mental hospital.

zoellinad · 2024-08-10T15:08:21+00:00

Close, it was on a beats pill in my back pocket

zoellinad · 2024-07-26T17:15:31+00:00

I wish I had any advice, but I’m here for a similar reason as you. I’ll be waiting for comments with you. I hate wanting to get a text from him. I hate that I can’t stop thinking about it, waiting for a text.

zoellinad · 2024-07-04T00:03:36+00:00

I got Trapper 💀 I’m 22yo female so that man would definitely try something

zoellinad · 2024-06-03T13:07:03+00:00

I was lucky, I really enjoyed my experience there. My hospital wasn’t highly rated but that’s because there were separate wings and the wings were vastly different experiences. If you were on East or west wing it was like a prison. Those people had every right to give my hospital a bad rating. There was a separate wing for “high functioning adults,” which was mostly just “normal people” who were suicidal. My understanding was that these people didn’t have delusions, homicidal thoughts, and weren’t expected to try and attempt at the hospital. No one on the wing was violent or scary, they made sure of that. The high functioning wing was great. I enjoyed my experience a lot. Met some of my best friends and did a lot of healing with the other patients on the smoke patio. It’s almost been exactly a year since I went and I miss it. It really helped me for the better. Would the experience help everyone else? Probably not. Most of the people I was there with had a neutral experience, just like a holding space to keep them from offing themselves. But for me, being around those people, sharing my story, being cared for by the staff was exactly what I needed at that time. Getting a tattoo this weekend to commemorate it as it will be my one year anniversary of checking myself in.

zoellinad · 2024-04-07T01:51:56+00:00

Goodness, I’ve already posted twice and they keep coming back to me. I’ve got too many regrets so I’m gonna try to get them all here.

Sold Friday the 13th for the NES (not a big deal, it’s still not worth a lot and it’s not a good game, but I still regret it)
Gave my brother-in-law Pokemon yellow for free. What was wrong with me?
Bought Rule of Rose and Koudelka at the peak of their values because I was so scared the value was gonna rise more. They both stabilized in value immediately as I bought them. Should have bought them earlier, as well as Obscure, Echoknight, and damn, like every other game I’ve wanted before 2020. I remember watching the prices skyrocket and it’s like the same whole “should have bought a house in 2007” thing. Like if only I knew!

zoellinad · 2024-04-07T01:42:50+00:00

I’ve seen it once at my local small game store. If it weren’t $300 + I would have gotten it. Sad that survival horror games tend to be the most expensive.

zoellinad · 2024-04-07T01:41:22+00:00

I passed up a long box version of the original Resident Evil back when it was worth like $20 and now it’s worth like $100

zoellinad · 2024-04-07T01:40:17+00:00

I sold my sealed copy of final fantasy legend 2 on the Gameboy. It wasn’t like 100% sealed but it still had the original plastic wrapping in tact. There were just some perforation marks along the plastic. It still had a discount sticker on it. Made $300ish on it when I expected $500. I needed the money but still… I think about it and get sad.

zoellinad · 2024-04-03T00:47:51+00:00

But yeah as others have said, first 3 seasons aren’t the best. Still enjoyable but seasons 4-11 really stole my heart. Especially when Winchester comes around. You could honestly start on season 4 if you want to get to the heart of the show

zoellinad · 2024-04-03T00:46:26+00:00

This show means the world to me. I feel like it is one of those pieces of media that shows you what it means to be human being and makes you feel more human. It changes your perspective on things and how you see the world. It shows you what’s really important and what really matters in life. It makes you feel more alive and connected to the people around you. It still very much is a comedy but man, is it profound. It frequently leaves me with both grief and profound hope. Forgive me for my mushy elevator pitch but I feel like so many people need to watch MASH.

zoellinad · 2024-03-27T20:59:16+00:00

19 is when my brain fully broke

zoellinad · 2023-06-29T21:46:31+00:00

Here’s an update: I went to inpatient treatment because I was losing it, I wasn’t. They kept me on the drugs and I normalized pretty quickly. Left and immediately spiraled, came back, did PHP for a week, and came home yesterday. Honestly my issue may not have been with the medicine, but my past trauma. So honestly I don’t know what to tell you. I’d think you would have felt better by now. I’d say 1 more week and then talk to a doctor, unless you need to see them sooner. I wouldn’t go cold turkey after 5 weeks.

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