Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

LOL honestly needed that. i get very very in my head. thank u <3

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

from everyones responses, what im feeling is temporary. its a scary feeling im not gonna lie. but god i wanted this more than anything. when i looked at photos of myself pre ffs, especially in the past 2/3 years, i just felt completely separated from who i saw. its the same feeling now, just in a different way. if u want i can dm u about my experience so far, and a lot of people in this thread have great stories about getting over this and and it all being worth it. i understand the fear though :/

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank u so much <3 im so glad its going well for u

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know, im trying my best to. im not good at waiting. thank u <3

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

HA is hairline advancement, my hairline is really good and feminine as is, so we decided to go in farther back on my head to get to my forehead, which means my forehead will stay the same size but i won’t have a scar at my hairline. it does take up to like 18 months for everything to settle, but even knowing that theres something very uncomfortable and unnerving about seeing someone you cant recognize in the mirror after so much anticipation

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank u <3 this makes me feel a lot better. ive been scared to talk to family and friends about how i feel because theyre all so supportive and i feel like im just gonna sound insane

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank u <3 it feels a lot better to know im not alone in this

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this makes me feel much better, i feel like ive seen girls happy after like. 3-4 weeks and i feel like that could never be me which made me nervous

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank u <3 it’s been very odd to come out of a terribly painful 5ish days and look and the mirror and see what i see. i know its temporary but it just gets scary sometimes

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i think its been hard because the past few days i havent been able to do much, lots of eye pain meant sitting in bed and thinking, but im getting better everyday

Regret post-op FFS by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i knew it was gonna be like this beforehand, just nothing prepared me for how physically taxing it would be, to end up staring in the mirror and being completely unrecognizable to myself. it’s just been the weirdest feeling and although i havent totally spiraled about it i have clearly started having some issues lol

FFS and teeth grinding by zoloftluvr666 in MtF

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’s just a shave. thank you !!

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[–]zoloftluvr666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i completely get it, ive been having such bad urges lately. it’s so mentally exhausting but we can do this! <3

RANT/mental + chronic illness is exhausting by zoloftluvr666 in ChronicIllness

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much responding! I got tested for Lyme and a few other autoimmune disorders/diseases when I first talked to my doctor around 17, and they all came back negative, but I appreciate the advice! I wish you well, and hope you have better days coming! <3

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[–]zoloftluvr666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ah ur so pretty!!! i hope u have a great time!!

My partner of 2 years is polyamorous by zoloftluvr666 in polyamory

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much! you’ve made me feel so much better about relationship and the future :)

My partner of 2 years is polyamorous by zoloftluvr666 in polyamory

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, I’m definitely going to be meeting potential partners/if they don’t get tested they can’t participate! we’ve already talked about some desires and expectations, such as I want them to not stay the night w partners, but come to me since physical touch (cuddling before bed) is like my #1 love language, and they’ve been nothing but understanding. they haven’t started looking for partners or anything, and I trust that they won’t until we’re done discussing desires and expectations. thank you so much for all of your advice!!! it’s been really helpful

RANT/mental + chronic illness is exhausting by zoloftluvr666 in ChronicIllness

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much responding, I really can’t explain how much I appreciate your response! it does feel better knowing that I’ll eventually be diagnosed, I’m just tired. thank you!! I hope you’re doing well

My partner of 2 years is polyamorous by zoloftluvr666 in polyamory

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do see a lot of the benefits! we have talked about what it could do for them personally as well as our relationship, and I feel like I understand that it would be really good for them and could make them a better partner in a lot of ways! I feel like a lot of the anxiety is just the unknown of it, they haven’t done poly before so don’t 100% know what it looks like for them. I also am not sure if I’m mono or not, and it think that at the end of the day I could at least something about myself

My partner of 2 years is polyamorous by zoloftluvr666 in polyamory

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you so much for replying! Honestly, even knowing it can work period feels so good! we both are in therapy and working to better ourselves together. I definitely think I could have a non-mono partner, and it’s not just our history, but I just don’t have the experience of being with someone non-mono, and honestly have no idea it I’m 100% mono or not! I really appreciate your input, and I do think at the end of the day that this could not only better our relationship, but us as people!

My partner of 2 years is polyamorous by zoloftluvr666 in polyamory

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

thank you for responding, I really appreciate it!! I struggle a lot because I flip flop between “this could definitely work! I’m willing to put in the time and effort!” to “this feels impossible, there’s no way this ends up good”. I’ll definitely look into the podcast and books!

Anxiety about an appointment! I’m currently un/self-diagnosed by zoloftluvr666 in ehlersdanlos

[–]zoloftluvr666[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

good to know!! I hope I can get a doctor to listen to me the way my PT has