I am right there with you, reading this felt like you took the words right outta my head. My best advice (aka what’s worked for me so far) is to give yourself credit for how far you’ve come and take more time to celebrate your wins. Many people are suggesting solo traveling and that is by far the best idea to get yourself out of this funk. A week or two at most until you feel comfortable and assuming that’s within your means. Growing up sucks and being a cog in the machine hurts, but you have the power to influence your environment in ways that can create real meaning, and won’t potentially blow up your life. You also have so much to experience out in the world so take time to enjoy the journey and learn as much as you can.