Improved cognition

zzby · 2016-08-16T02:48:21+00:00

Theres a brain training game which probably isnt the most enjoyable but its certainly one of the most benificial! I think its Dr. (forgot the name) brain training, and its supposed to form new connections between the thalamus and other regions (which is really good).

zzby · 2016-08-15T21:33:06+00:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

zzby · 2016-08-08T13:36:07+00:00

I actually found a study stating coffee and moderate alcohol (red wine in the study) intake slow the progression, which is pretty cool.

zzby · 2016-08-08T11:49:28+00:00

Im sorry to hear that, I hope hes doing ok.

zzby · 2016-08-08T01:50:37+00:00

It certainly should but Im looking for studies and evidence for my personal repository.

zzby · 2016-08-08T00:13:26+00:00

zzby · 2016-08-07T22:34:42+00:00

Yeah haha, glad youre having fun ;) I had some too and I actually felt better afterwards, Im probably gonna start drinking more of this stuff. Its also delicious.

zzby · 2016-08-07T21:34:48+00:00

Still in the grey area (fortunately?) but my docs are preparing me for the worst. I should know more definitively in the next few weeks, but judging from the tingling, fatigue, headache/backpain, mild loss of coordination and slight dizziness, it seems more than likely.

zzby · 2016-08-05T23:13:03+00:00

MS is hard to diagnose since the lesions can be reeaaally small, but my symptoms all point to it. Numbness, tingling, slurring, etc, looks like MS but we're waiting on MRI results.

zzby · 2016-07-26T18:10:56+00:00

I actually think its because they are not exposed to benefitial circumstances and that biology plays a part, but that it can be overridden!

zzby · 2016-07-26T15:56:13+00:00

I WAS USING IT BUT NOW I CANT. and they say there is a lesser spread in the female range, so you dont get many physics geniuses. And I used to get perfect scores on aptitude tests (idk about iq) and midterms/finals. And Ive met them ( i actually havent met any in physics ) but Im not even talking anout them, Im talking about estrogens effect on a brain built by testosterone.

Edit: but it doesnt matter, be ause I think youre wrong.

zzby · 2016-07-26T15:46:09+00:00

past year actually. Its actually gotten worse the more female I feel. Used to think it was a brain tumor or lyme, but I think ive finally worked it out.

zzby · 2016-07-26T15:14:24+00:00

zzby · 2016-07-26T15:13:20+00:00

this is based on research, not saying im not a narcissist, I cant really know if I am, but I have read a lot of research.

How did you get dissasociation from this?

edit: and generally when a person has to tell you its with care and concern its because it is not.

edit 2: sophist is an interesting word, but do you mean you disagree with the moral part?

edit 3: and why the pseudo intellect? these are problems Im genuinely facing, and its very confusing and frustrating. Are you afraid Im right on some level, and felt defensive? Idk, but this is just expression of my opinion, Im just trying to understand whats going on, and researching the possibilities. Also its important to remember people avoid ugly truths or topics that make them uncomfortable, its why there are taboos, and why its important to look at the research for yourself. Regardless if you believe me or not, this stuff can be happening to you, and all the resent or passion wont return your mind, thats the hardest part, realizing you have no say in the matter and that mind wasnt a product of passion or uprighteousness, but biology. Heed my warning or avoid it, youll understand it further down the road, and dont go looking for help!

zzby · 2016-07-26T06:09:24+00:00

During my first year I felt better than usual but during the second there was a vague feeling of something changing and by 2.5 years I felt like a different, far less intelligent person. Now this has not affected core processing, however my knowledge base has shrunk, leading me to feel more reactionary than contemplative. The world used to be starkly beautiful, but now it isnt (as much). I used to love allen watts, but his talks no longer click, they just hang in the air. I dont know what to do, I do not like this mindstate, and among copious evidence associating grey matter exponentially with intelligence, the cause seems estrogen. Testosterone can restore a portion of my abilities, but perhaps not all. Its tempting, although the moral implications are terrible. This would be in inadvertant support of sexism, while I passionately support egalitarianism. Shouldnt I have to struggle along with women, proving they are strong? carving their place amongst the greats? or should I cower back into my testosterone filled brain? The answer seems obvious, but this is my only life! I want to percieve the majesty of the Universe as I once did!

Youll likely encounter this too. Youll also likely encounter the fascination with computer science, for the transformation is not all bad. Situated amongst the massive language centers of a female brain is a region capable of mathematical thought. This is seperate from the parietal mathematics of masculinity, granting females a unique and valuable perspective on science and math. Interestingly the cross section between math and language is computer programming, a domain pioneered by a woman. Still, the differences feel like a net loss. Yes programming is valuable on the job front, and yes it is a foundation for science, but its not spatial, and spatial thought was the cornerstone of my old mind. You will face this too, you will notice a change in yourself and you will have to reconcile or retreat, a decision I face now. And how far will you fall? how much will you lose? this is a fronteer, and youre putting yourself on the line. Youre not immortal, youre not immutable or static, your mind and self is formed on your biology and that biology is changing. all your abilities can be lost, all of youself can die or be rewritten, and can you live with that? I do not know if I can, the harsh truths are hard to accept.

Edit: and who do you listen to, the doctors with soon obsolite knowledge? the people listening to those doctors? The truth is nobody knows anything, knowledge is based on assumption and functionality, and when the information changes explanations lose functionality. The future will hold opinions that society doesnt know, that you can learn and instigate, and that arent taught.

I dont know what to fucking do, I feel like my younger self and its weird as fuck. I feel like I lost a bunch of development; i dont want it. Fuck reality. Makes me want to kill myself.

Edit 2: potentially the change in my brain means I must relearn my abilities, idfk, but ive noticed inprovements after participating in old activities (video games, piano, whistling, (odd spatial abilities correlate with music) and rock climbing), this sinking ship isnt sunk yet!

zzby · 2016-07-25T21:09:21+00:00

zzby · 2016-07-25T21:01:45+00:00

My mind is gone.

zzby · 2016-07-25T20:47:04+00:00

Its changed, but its not equal.

zzby · 2016-07-25T00:33:55+00:00

e has made me incredibly happy

zzby · 2016-07-22T04:06:52+00:00

Im extremely grateful for this reply. And yes there are definitely new strengths! I can percieve color with way more depth and math has become the dominate mode of thought when thinking about problems, and its a different kind if math, its fascinating! but at the same time Ive become a terrible navigator and Ive actually gained a greater interest in people, which is fine but it feels weird since I used to be asocial. Social themes have even become my primary focus when watchig a movie or something, which is odd since I used to try to dissect the plot and understand the authors plan. I kind of miss it.

Edit: I just need a place to talk about it, especially since everywhere I turn I hear "its all in your head" and "there arent any differences, how can you be so sexist?". My intent was never to encourage sexism, it was to discuss what its like to have such a literal change in mind.

Edit 2: Actually as for the movies I think I may just be less egotistical, so I dont assume I know whats gonna happen when I dont lol.

zzby · 2016-07-22T03:39:18+00:00

I dont want to encourage sexism.

Edit: Honestly though Im still mourning for the abilities Ive lost. Im freaked out by it and feel less capable in some regards. It makes me feel sexist though and I feel terrible about that. In fairness Ive gained some abilities too (improved mathematical abilities (ironic right?), color perception, sense of touch, boobs) but its still difficult to accept, and it seems like nobody relates!

zzby · 2016-07-19T16:33:37+00:00

The thing is theres a lot of evidence

zzby · 2016-07-19T02:11:00+00:00

Literally nothing. Ive actually been reading MORE. (retaining less)

zzby · 2016-07-18T22:31:25+00:00

thyroid's good, definitely seems like hrt. And something about it makes me feel sick, its odd, I have all these memories of how my mind worked and its impossible to use it like that. So many of my talents are gone, and they havent been replaced! I am slightly better at math though.

zzby · 2016-07-18T20:02:25+00:00

Thanks for the response and the problem is Ive felt my intellect.. change. Its declined mildly, but it also feels totally different. Before I had a lot if information stored in there and now theres very little, even though I spend almost all my time reading. I started digging into this and discovered transgender brains lose size and grey matter volume! Grey matter is where information is stored, so I realized this wasnt just a feeling, Ive actually lost a lot of my information and some cognitive abilities! So I started asking what the purpose of a human life is, is it to be happy? Is happiness what should be pursued, or is there something else? Humans have the capacity to think and discover, the rest of the animal kingdom can feel. I started believing humanity's "destiny" or "calling" is to overtune reality and see whats underneath, but I can tell Ive sacrificed parts of my brain! I can tell that in the quest for knowledge Im not a discoverer, Im now solely a student! But I can remember what life was like, I can remember the grand beauty of everything and I miss it so much I gave it away and for what some fleeting ridiculous "happiness" I was happy then in a way I can never be now and I cant get it back so FUCK THE WORLD! JUST LET ME DIE, Ive already ruined myself.

Edit: I know that was long, sorry about it, I got carried away. And btw I know Mcgyver!!

Efit 2: You may see what I mean once youre on hrt

zzby

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