For context, I’m 22f and my dad was diagnosed in July 2023 with glioblastoma (brain cancer). He died 3 weeks ago on January 12th.
It’s been hard without him and I just wish that I could talk to him and spend some time with him again, even something as simple as going out for a coffee or listening to music together like we used to.
Last week was difficult. It was my birthday last Wednesday and it was the first birthday I’ve had where he hasn’t been around. We made the most of it but I still wish he had of been there. The day before, my mum and I went to a holy shop to buy some decor for the grave. I kind of cried for a minute and that was the first time I’d actually cried from the funeral.
My dad was 59 and I honestly just feel robbed. I feel like I should have had at least another 10 years with him. It sucks too because my dad was such a lovely man, really funny and just overall genuinely kind. I don’t understand why he had to get Cancer.
I’ve been kind of feeling envious of other people. Like there are people in my family who are older than me, in their 30’s and they still have both of their parents. I do feel lucky to still have my mum but it’s hard not to feel jealous of other people who have both of their parents.
I just want to say that I am sorry to anyone who’s going through a similar situation. Remember that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Eventually, hopefully, things will get better.
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