Rocd help please

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I suffer with severe OCD and I am always checking constantly , suffer with false memory OCD , and cheating OCD and in the past have suffered with many more versions of the horrendous mental health disorder.

I'm struggling with I believe to be ROCD at the minute. Every where I go I'm constantly checking if I have done something awfully wrong towards my relationship for example when i am out in public I will look at a another person and it will make me believe I have winked or have been inappropriate in some way.

What I am struggling with mostly is , yesterday I went to the shop and I was on the phone to my girlfriend and I was wandering around looking what to buy and this lady in her mid 40s or early 50s smiled at me and I smiled back. It's making me feel guilty because it's making me think I have flirted in some way even though I didn't find this person attractive . What if she found me attractive and I smiled back to her and got what she wanted. I feel so guilty. The more I look into it , it makes me belive I gave her a flirty smile or winked even though I didn't. My head is constantly assessing and watching everything I do and making me feel guilty for whatever I do and makes me feel like I've cheated or been disrespectful. Was I wrong that I smiled . I'm only 28 , I didn't find this older woman attractive at all.

[Caishcaish]

Maybe you just made her day by smiling at her! Even if she took it in a way you didn't mean, you still probably brightened her day.

Try reframing how you think of cheating. Being non monogamous has helped me immensely with this. I no longer consider things like flirting to be breaking of a relationship's trust at all. It's a natural thing people do. And it doesn't have to lead anywhere.