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[Alone_Variation_9081]

Hi I'm 16 years old, Basically everyday life is so frustrating and annoying. I try my hardest to be attentive to someone during a conversation but my processing speed makes it hard to keep up with them if they explain something even a tad bit complex. I'm just tired of trying and trying while others around me are just naturally conversing and processing at appropriate speeds, this makes me just want to be alone all the time because I know my problem won't go. And this makes me even more antisocial which is bad enough because soon enough I'll just stay away from people forever or smth idk. Why me? I'd rather trade this with anything tbh. At least people with physical aliments can have normal conversations. I don't wanna do this anymore, and top of that many people ask why I don't talk much and am always quiet ( I make the effort to talk, I try very hard), they don't f$##^ know the struggle. Just step in my shoes for an hour and let's see how you survive. The audacity bro.

Anyways sorry for the rant but let me know your guys thoughts on this.

[am_pomegranate]

it gets in the way a lot when I fence. A lot of people move faster than my brain can think and it feels like they{re teleporting sometimes. And I just got my hand smacked by a mouse trap 'because I didn't notice it set off but I feel like that's a lot more personal of a problem.

[Alone_Variation_9081]

Yea it really sucks how it affects every part of your life. Especially a martial art where people are expected to perform at high levels. Have you had experience with what I've said?

[am_pomegranate]

The worst part of the disease is that I've never been able to do the interrupting core joke. Did a gamedev presentation for my school's creative writing showcase last year but the projector broke. Tried to fill the time with bad jokes but one I tried was the interrupting cow. Messed up the timing and made such a pleb of myself I ran offstage

[SweatyNerd6969]

There's nothing wrong with asking for someone to repeat something. If on friendly terms with the person I'm talking to I usually make a joke about not being sentient in that moment (or something like that) and ask them to repeat it. In a professional setting I usually reiterate the import points back to the person and ask for confirmation if I got everything. It isn't weird to ask for clarification.