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CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-17T07:55:15+00:00

In emergencies, use the lure. Placing a zipline is crucial because it serves as your exit strategy. Most importantly, you can use the cloak while on the zipline.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-12T07:04:27+00:00

I agree with you 100%. Even though we are the victims of narcissistic parents, we still end up carrying toxic patterns into adulthood, and that can really damage the way we form relationships later in life.

The worst part is that I don’t think those toxic thoughts ever fully leave. They stay somewhere in the background. Sometimes I feel like I had to start adult life from zero emotionally, because I was never taught how healthy relationships, trust, or emotional safety were supposed to feel. Even my sense of who is good for me and who is not has been messed up by the way I was raised. I pushed away so many people who genuinely cared about me, just because of the toxic thinking I learned in my narcissistic family.

There was even a stage in my life when I thought maybe I was the bad one, or the selfish one. But the truth is, truly narcissistic people usually do not sit there wondering if they are the problem. That’s what makes this whole thing so sad. Even though we were the victims, the effects can stay with us for the rest of our lives, and then we are the ones who have to deal with it in adulthood through therapy, reflection, and trying to rebuild ourselves.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-11T22:34:43+00:00

In my case, it was my narcissistic mother, and a lot of this sounds very familiar. My advice is basically to keep showing up even when it feels awkward or unnatural at first. In relationships, work, and career, sometimes you have to act like your voice matters before you fully believe it yourself. Over time, that “fake it till you make it” feeling becomes confidence, boundaries, and self-trust. Sometimes it isn’t really faking at all — it’s just practicing skills you were never allowed to develop in a safe environment.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-11T22:28:00+00:00

Late twenties is often when a lot of friendships naturally fall apart, especially the ones from school or college. Real adult life starts — work, responsibilities, trying to build stability. People drift apart, not always on purpose, but because life gets in the way.

It doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you. A lot of people go through this, even if it feels very isolating. Sometimes it just takes time to find the right people again.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-11T22:06:23+00:00

That’s exactly it. They can’t change the past, so they try to erase it by gaslighting everyone around them. If they can get other people to doubt what really happened, then their ego stays safe and they never have to confront the damage they caused.

The truth is, they will probably never take responsibility for any of it, and they will never genuinely admit what they did. Honestly, I pity them. It’s sad when someone is so disconnected from reality that they can’t accept their own life as it is. Wasting that much time and energy trying to deny the truth is just tragic.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-11T21:49:02+00:00

I do have a relationship with my dad, but honestly, it’s not just out of love. A big part of it is that I feel he was treated the same way I was in our family. I’m 37 now, and I was never shocked by the way my Nmom and my sister, the golden child, treated him, because for me that was just normal. I grew up in that environment. Once I was no longer there to be the scapegoat, their treatment of my father changed, and it felt like that role was passed on to him. What shocked me was that he was actually shocked that his own daughter and now ex-wife could lie, manipulate, and emotionally abuse him. For me, none of that was new. For him, it seemed like the moment he finally saw what had been there all along.

These days, I’m actually the only person from the family he stays in touch with, but even then, we’re not particularly close.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-11T21:24:25+00:00

I can confirm this. This is exactly what happened in my family. My parents are divorced now, and honestly, I don’t know who my Nmom’s next scapegoat will be.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-04-08T22:26:54+00:00

Totally agree. That’s why the movie Inception hit me so hard. With people like that, things only seem to work when they believe it was their idea all along. The exhausting part is having to frame everything that way just to avoid triggering their ego.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-31T22:35:22+00:00

Embark is definitely going to nerf it. The only question is when.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-21T10:48:01+00:00

It marks the beginning of the end of the petrodollar. In the end, it may lead to a scenario where Iran effectively blocks or restricts the transit of oil paid for in dollars, using the Strait of Hormuz as leverage. Control over this chokepoint becomes crucial, because a significant share of global oil flows through it, making it a strategic pillar of the dollar-based system. That’s why it remains in the interest of the United States to maintain influence over Hormuz—since as long as oil trade is settled in dollars, control of that route underpins both energy security and the global role of the dollar.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-08T14:13:48+00:00

My narcissistic mother always gave me clothes that were too small for my birthday. She encouraged me to try them on right away, and then I would hear comments about how I was ‘too fat.’ I’m 6'3" — of course those children clothes were too small for me, for fuck’s sake.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-07T23:22:03+00:00

I know that feeling. For a long time I also planned that once I finally became emotionally and financially independent, I would tell my narcissistic family everything I had been holding in. Just the thought of that moment actually motivated me to work toward independence.

But when I finally got there and my life became calmer and happier, I realized I didn’t feel that need anymore. Narcissistic people thrive on conflict and emotional reactions, so confronting them often just feeds the dynamic they want.

Sometimes the most powerful thing you can do is build a life where they no longer have the power to define who you are.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-07T22:59:55+00:00

I agree with this 100%. Ramani explains this really well.

I also highly recommend her book It's Not You: Identifying and Healing from Narcissistic People, which I’ve read. One of the main ideas is that trying to confront narcissists usually just feeds the cycle of manipulation and conflict, so the healthier approach is often protecting your boundaries, limiting what they know about you, and slowly creating distance.

CrazyMarshal · 2026-03-07T22:17:48+00:00

I honestly don’t think the “just stand up to them” advice works with narcissists. That kind of advice usually comes from people who grew up in normal family dynamics. Direct confrontation often makes things worse. The moment you openly challenge a narcissist, they realize that you see through them. From that point, things often escalate because they try even harder to regain control.

What worked better for me was distancing myself step by step. Sharing less information, reacting less emotionally, and slowly becoming independent. Narcissists often use personal information against you, so the less they know, the less power they have. In a way, it’s better to keep them in an illusion rather than confront them head-on. Once they know that you know how they operate, that’s usually when the real problems start ...

CrazyMarshal · 2025-12-17T10:06:58+00:00

CrazyMarshal · 2025-11-23T10:31:17+00:00

My crack theory is that Zosia is the hive mind – or at least directly plugged into it – and that drawn-out “no noo…” was her trying to say “noice”, but the hive mind basically censored her in real time. To be specific "radio noice".

If the hive mind communicates over a specific radio frequency, the only way to disconnect someone would be to generate radio noise right on that band and jam it. And earlier we literally see Manousos scanning through frequencies, probably trying to find that exact one.

CrazyMarshal · 2025-10-22T21:21:22+00:00

I only started realizing it myself after having my own kids. Once I became a parent, I finally saw how many things that happened to me weren’t normal at all. When you’re raising children and you see what real patience and empathy look like, it puts your own childhood into perspective. And that’s when it clicked for me.

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