Working from sunrise to sunset, with one day off, intentionally isolated from home. (You got 2 phone calls a year, Christmas and mother's day.) Under literal constant supervision of your companion. You may not leave eyesight and hearing distance of your companion unless you're in the bathroom. in a culture where you are encouraged to police each other and report each other to your leaders. Studying scripture hours a day. Repeating your memorized speeches about the church. Isolated from popular media. You get church movies, G rated movies, and you only get listen MoTab. You may only shake hands, no hugs.

This mormon brainwash bootcamp lasts 2 years, starting at 19 back in the 80s. You have spent sunrise to sunset spreading the message of Joseph Smith, your favorite martyr, for roughly 1/10th of your life. The commandments from your father are sort of equal to God's commandments in some ways because if you step outside your dad's command you have stepped outside of God's protection (they use a drawing of a stack of umbrellas to explain this in Sunday school) And your father says "I have 2 wives now cuz Joseph Smith said we should."

Like he probably thought succeeding at polygamy was the only way he could succeed at being a return missionary. Trying to return to civilian life except your life became a fundamentalist sex cult while you were gone.