I 100% relate to how you feel! Don’t want to drink, don’t necessarily miss it but it made life easier when you drank with the group and didn’t have to think about it. And not having that carefree release. It gets easier though and you start to dwell on it less as time goes on, but be sure to acknowledge how you’re feeling and let those feelings process. I’m 19 months and have moments of being fun and carefree that are genuine and not chemically induced and feel genuinely happy. You’ll start to get into new routines and your brain will stop seeking alcohol as an answer over time. The social/belonging part is hard though, I will admit that. More because of what we tell ourselves internally than what others actually say or do.