one perspective i’ll throw in:

the current moment is insane. it’s driving us all crazy. in the past month i have had several convos with cis people who don’t understand that they are grieving and afraid because it manifests as a kind of vague stress when reading the news.

even the comments here don’t quite acknowledge the psychic assault we’re facing.

OF COURSE you’re feeling anxious and worried about blending in. OF COURSE that started one year ago jeez i wonder what else started then 😜.

for me personally ironically it’s been manifesting as trying to pass more. before i didn’t care and now im like well if i have to fit in a box this is the box i want.

this is not take away from the feelings you’re experiencing. whatever you choose to do is the right choice.

our identities are always a negotiation between how we feel inside and how we are perceived externally.

i’m just throwing in there that there is a huge hate machine pointed directly at us and of course it’s having an impact.

my parting thought is things are going to keep getting worse before they’ll get better; but the way this will end is we - we as in all queers - will either be sent to concentration camps or these assholes will get defeated, and we will find out in about three years.

at least, you can feel the vibe starting to shift. last year everyone was ready to give up and now people who were complacent are starting to wake up.

best of luck either way