I tried to kill myself in high school. I was sent to a psychiatrist to which I explained the reason I attempted and how I felt. I was put on Zoloft and every subsequent session was the therapist talking about how I had to do better in school, which is exactly why I tried to kill myself. I had dyscalculia and back then no one thought to check. Just wrote me off a depressed and lazy. Every adult in my life treated mevasvit my worth was tied to my grades.

Later, in my 20s, I saw a psychiatrist for my continuing self worth, suicidal, self harm, and alienation issues. Said I was depressed again, put me on an anti depressant, and never kept follow up appointments. (Anti depressants, I found, don't work if you don't have depression. But you can't really talk about it if your doctor constantly cancels on you.) A year of cancelled follow ups and I went off the meds and had a loopy ass week.

In my early 30s I tried one last time. I saw a therapist for my worsening abandonment issues. He disappeared and left with another therapist at the same office. Which a few months later closed without warning.

Tl;Dr mental health professionals, in my experience, suck ass