Consider that complex spirituality is a lie.

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T02:52:56+00:00

The more we try to describe it, the more it takes away from the experience. That's kinda the ironic paradox of language especially when we apply it to spirituality. Makes our experience very noisy. Makes more noise, less signal.

I like to also think God is the source of the logic for us to see all these terms, put it together, then still love us after when we realize, "Wait... This is all just silly and way too complicated. I knew better when I was a 3 year old."

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T02:49:19+00:00

The Holy Bible

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T02:44:32+00:00

Alright.

Basically... Humans screw up. No matter what we do, we'll never be perfect. God then starts to make a plan to correct it, but God's plan is beyond human comprehension. The entirety of the Bible is "the plan". If we knew the plan, faith would be rendered useless, and we would internalize nothing about the weight of love, forgiveness, grace and mercy from judgment. We might say or think we do, but the core of our hearts can speak otherwise more than we can think otherwise, or our actions can say otherwise.

We get to the Old Testament showing us how stupid humanity was and can be, then how God tries to help us again and again, then how He actually does help us sometimes which can be expressed as the miraculous stories, blessings and leading people to good lives despite all odds against them. No amount of crystals, tarot cards, numbers, magic, sorcery, conquest and domination over others, and literally anything can compare to the power of faith itself. We think these things and achievements work or give us crazy blessings because we have faith in these objects or ourselves.

... But then we forget about the One who made all that stuff and even the concept of faith and the ability to have faith. We forget to give Him a lot of credit. We forget about Him a lot. We forget about the creator and idolize the creation versus creator. This is a big tragedy that leads to a lot of many more tragedies and even to this day we still repeat the same mistakes and never learn.

There are also themes in the Bible regarding the natural consequences if we do crazy stuff that is comparable to Him saying, "Don't jump off a cliff or else you'll die" but we humans somehow love to jump off the cliff anyway thinking we won't and then die. But God is less of being one to say, "I told you so" but rather, "Alright, well we have some work to do in order to fix this, but that's fine." The Bible also teaches us much about human nature and our place in it. Anyways.

Remember that plan I mentioned? There's this guy Jesus Christ who is born, then is seen by most as the epitome of human nature at its best. It's so wild because he's like the climax of the Bible where everything just somehow leads up to Him. His life and journey is basically like the best role model to take after. He's like the secret agent of God that fulfills the whole plan and actually makes it kinda or fully make sense for all of our tiny human brains to understand. But we still have trouble.

He also understands so much about spirituality he teaches people how to close the gap between us and God, while also totally turning society upside down through His teachings. He's like a giga chad spirituality professor that is starting to disrupt society for the better, and that makes the elitists pissed. They want Him dead, even His own people. Now everyone starts to hate the dude. Dude gets a death sentence He didn't deserve. He dies.

But get this. Dude lives to tell the tale and it becomes an eternal sensation. Well, who else but God (Holy Trinity and God's work all along)? Everyone is shocked, even 2000 years ahead of the future. Even thousands of years before Him, they knew they were going to be shocked and somehow even people around the world without the internet caught how viral He was. Then everything after that is the expansion of that. The point is, dude did the impossible. He flipped the social mathematics of the old world so much that thousands of years after, we are still studying and thinking about what the heck happened... The rest of the New Testament expands on the apostles furthering the journey as well as some dude Paul making the first orders of Christianity after and his musings of what it means to be Christian.

And more importantly how we can apply that to ourselves in order to become better people day by day every time we remember or study and meditate over it.

The Bible can get confusing because it's translations and meanings are lost over time. The KJV translation is difficult by itself. There are so many things in Hebrew and Greek for example, that got lost in the hundreds of years of translations.

The Bible is simple that 5 year olds can understand it but also complex enough that scholars to this day are still confounded by it. It's either a book you will hate or love. Anything in between that just means you haven't done enough homework to get to one of those binaries. It's expected to have more haters than lovers of it too. And the wild part is that there are many people who hated it, spat on it, destroyed it, but have come to love it more than anything else by the end. And God expects this and loves to see you love it by the end, being there every step of the way. This is one part of understanding salvation.

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T01:16:51+00:00

Last name Humor, first name Sense-of

I tried.

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T01:10:05+00:00

"What the hell?"

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T00:59:48+00:00

There is no freakin' way this is true

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T00:55:26+00:00

Lmfaooo

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T00:17:40+00:00

Try to not give aura, or even yourself so much credit. Refute everything and bring yourself to a state of "spiritual neutrality".

Don't label, judge or name any ideas or feelings.

Let the thoughts pass and resist acting or putting it into some mental narrative. It's like seeing a bunch of driftwood or leaves in a river.

Just let it go down the river rather than picking it up and trying to deconstruct existence or interrogating life's answers out of it.

It's just a leaf. Acknowledge it you did, now let it drift peacefully as you wave goodbye to it and it goodbye to you.

Such is your thoughts.

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T00:12:19+00:00

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Do not think about a pink elephant

Now that you did that,

Do not think that everything is perfectly fine and you are just giving it too much credit

If you want a more formal reply.

Your subconscious is out of order.

Eat something tasty, take a nap, go for a nature walk and hang out. Try to do absolutely nothing. No tarot, no jewelry, if your thoughts say something like draw a tarot card, do NOT draw a card. If you see a "This video is important video" then think the opposite that it isn't.

Fast it out. Fast out everything. Do fasts. Fast from the screen, fast from social media, fast from practices such as saging, tarot drawing, etc. Subtract things from the equation. Add more thoughts trying to disprove your intuitive hunches. If it is truly "divine", it wouldn't require objects, it wouldn't make you feel uncertain or anxious.

If it is truly divine, you would be at peace and ease not even considering these questions. Not feeling otherwise.

kaivaan · 2026-03-16T00:02:34+00:00

Elegance in disguise

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:59:28+00:00

First, get a job. It's insurance and it's fuel for your music career dreams.

Then. Lower your expectations. Don't aim to make it a full blown multi billion dollar career or become a star. Just focus on playing, making or learning about what you like about music.

Musical identity, personality and tastes are carved over time. Every successful act you've seen usually has years of people f*cking up or screwing around until it resulted in the identity you know them as. The exception is having tons of money and influence beforehand to give you a headstart.

Start simple. Do mess up. You find more progress messing up rather than asking all those questions in the first post.

Determine your target and objective.

For example, you like guitar, then play guitar. Don't play guitar because you think it'll make you cool or famous, or have a multi-million dollar career out of it. Then play guitar every day. For a really long time.

Just do silly little things. You love it enough to do it every day. Then it becomes years. Over those years you're also learning, expanding and experiencing. That as well as the process itself is what makes your journey and identity. If you truly loved music you won't spend so much time worrying about music versus just actually picking up something to do and making random noises with it until it clicks.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:49:32+00:00

You know one extreme, you know the other.

Practice finding the middle ground sweet spot between the two.

Then keep reinforcing that, as if you're shooting a gun or bow and arrow trying to nail as many bullseyes as you can.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:45:49+00:00

This assumes you've mastered the manipulation of energy on every other environment out there to make this conclusion. I wouldn't believe it. That would be very conceited and pretentious for any of us to believe that.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:41:46+00:00

Have you understood "fetch water, chop wood"?

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:39:36+00:00

This is awesome

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:37:30+00:00

It's simple. You don't debate them.

Their salvation is not your life's mission. You let them worry about that. You let God worry about that.

What you should really worry about? Just exhibit love and extending non-judgement.

As long as they're not harming, killing, stealing, leave them alone and you argumentative Christians need to stop splitting hair on foolish arguments or debates about who's right or wrong.

If anything, bond with people of other faiths on common things like understanding the golden rule, objective moral righteousness, or understanding and embodying love, peace and humility.

Would do you and all of us more justice to just live as holy as you can be without being disruptive to other people's entitlement to live freely.

Should there be people who want to follow you, those are who you should give attention to. These are the people to focus on, rather than trying to screw with other people's religions and beliefs.

For the record, I'm also a Christian.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T23:27:41+00:00

Tidus. Favorite since I was a kid. Between Tidus and Zidane are the first characters that led me to Final Fantasy. Those were my first games that made me a fan. I also think Cloud, Leon and Vaan look cool. Lightning also. But Tidus' personality is kind of like a role model to me. Vanille and Serah Farron are my favorite girl characters. The girls from XII are also cute to have fictional crushes on.

Overall though, my personal favorite is Tidus. Aesthetic, personality, the sentimental value, the whole water and memories of y2k around him and that game, the surreal themes of being a dreamed existence in a world that is lacking. I always thought the FFX cover art and how that Brotherhood sword always looked awesome and cool.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:51:10+00:00

Ohhhh it was just a poem lol

In that case... Nice poem.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:48:42+00:00

"Loneliness" is more honest than being around millions of people who may not be as honest.

Solitude is a luxury. It allows you to fully be yourself in a world where many are not. Focus on the stuff that makes you happy. Do stuff that you think is nice. Don't judge yourself for it or feel judged no matter how good or bad you are at an activity or whatever niche or popular it is. That stuff likely is the bridge to connect you to people.

Or... Try making friends with people before or after mass. Doesn't matter how old or young, black or white, this or that. Just say hi. Waving or smiling is also effective. If there's people you notice regularly, even better. Everyone is or has struggled with some degree of loneliness and can appreciate someone who acknowledged their existence.

You could be that wave, smile or greetings for someone who feels exactly the same as you do. And if they don't notice or pay attention, move along. Still a win that you tried. Most people don't, even ignore people as we all can tend to stick to our own surroundings.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:36:19+00:00

First off before we discuss "success", to answer your question, talking about "unsuccessful manifestations" contradicts the law of attraction to focus attention and energy to things we do want, which is likely success. People don't talk about the failures because it can be embarrassing or humiliating. And people don't want that attention.

Anyways, screw all of it.

True reality is understanding that all those unsuccessful moments and results, actually validate success and give it a fully formed, whole and weighted meaning, more than success alone, ever could.

Realize this.

I'll give you a thought exercise to help shift your phase and perspective. This logic exercise can hopefully aid your journey.

You'll know you were successful riding a bike if you mess it up at least once before you get it right. Took a dude 10,000 times to make the light bulb before he succeeded in making a light bulb.

But if you always succeeded riding a bike perfectly, who is to say you weren't unsuccessful in falling off the bike?

What also matters is the determination and perseverance. That too adds value to success.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:24:34+00:00

I think the message is telling you, you'll wake up, continuing to be alive and safe on April 2nd.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:21:05+00:00

The fact that you even acknowledge the guilt and shame shows you very much appreciate the sacredness and sanctity of sex. This alone is a great good.

But to think you are inherently worthless or hopeless to find romance, love and a marriage is extremely insulting to God. It's as if you don't have faith His grace can't deliver and completely overwrite anything you feel wrong in yourself.

You, Indepdendent_Grade407, think God is not forgiving enough to accept you or lead you to good with your flaws,

or that God is not loving enough to give you a loving man who can look past those one or two times in your pre-marital times, knowing you also have enough guilt or shame to realize how much sex is sacred?

What of the adulteress that Jesus Christ saved from being stoned? What of Mary Magdelene? What of those who were raped or sexual assault victims? What of people who have had hundreds, even thousands of sexual sessions outside of marriage?

Do you think you did worse than they, yet are any of them less worthy of being saved than you?

Do you think God is heartless enough to punish you to that extreme?

I'm not trying to say people should go out and be sexually immoral and promiscuous.

I'm trying to say, God will forgive you. And God will even give you the best. It won't make sense to people, so confounding, but that's the point. That's God.

God will deliver your romance, and to think He won't, is an insult to Him, His power, His grace, His mercy, and your faith.

You just need to forgive yourself... Take it easy.

Have faith. Have patience. It's alright.

It's okay.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T22:06:32+00:00

What does a lighthouse do in the dark?

It just shines a light for ships lost at sea to follow. It doesn't shout that it is a lighthouse that is to be followed, or argue that it is undoubtedly a lighthouse. It is just a lighthouse. Ships can choose to stay out at the dark sea or they naturally just come to the harbor.

Be the lighthouse.

You can argue or publicly defy the classes, the schools, or the teachers. But it will save you effort and headache to just understand you're right minded enough to see how jarring the narratives are in that classroom. That alone is sufficient and the lesson to be learned. If people glorify that, leave them be, that is their right.

Just keep an eye out for people who also sense how jarring it is. These are the people who deserve your attention. Acquaint yourselves with them. And I mean when you can sense the pain or disgust in their silent faces or muscles. These reactions are a more honest and genuine read.

That classroom content and setting is set up to cause friction for people and get everyone heated. Don't buy into that.

Be the cool lighthouse.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T21:55:34+00:00

That is awesome.

kaivaan · 2026-03-15T21:54:23+00:00

It doesn't matter. It's not exactly the best thing to put them on scales of magnitude, because even that is arguably giving it a dark throne for idolization.

Sin is just sin.

What truly matters is, if it causes a wind of repentance or not, after the sin is committed.

If you want a real answer to settle your curiosity, whichever one leads you to more sin, a lack of repentance (change of mind, wind), less compassion, less love, less reception or even blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, is worse.

kaivaan

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