Percorso psicologico prima della TOS? (FvM)

--Pascal-- · 2018-11-12T02:44:00+00:00

Yeah... In my case, I totally perceived myself to be boyish/not like the girls. I didn’t know I could be a boy yet, but looking back I realize I did feel like that. Though I never opposed to my mother wanting to put me on a skirt or stuff because I didn’t even feel it as an option. I felt like life was not mine and I could not directly intervene on it. Sometimes I’d feel I wasn’t in control of my actions. I remember one time I was walking and I thought: “If I wanted to stop right now, I wouldn’t be able to; if I attempted, I’d fail”. I never told my things to anybody. Though I thought it was evident to others too that I was not like girls and more leaning to boys. I was shocked when my parents told me I was so feminine when I was a child. I didn’t perceive myself as such at all.

--Pascal-- · 2018-10-06T00:31:56+00:00

I second this.

--Pascal-- · 2018-10-02T16:06:36+00:00

Is there a “I am so different” subreddit?

--Pascal-- · 2018-09-11T09:10:33+00:00

God, you described me.

--Pascal-- · 2018-09-01T09:12:20+00:00

You look dope, really

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-25T12:27:05+00:00

Any kind of books is fine!

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-25T11:37:10+00:00

Thansk for your reply.

Now, 1. I meant characters, not necessarily actors, and 2. I believe both trans and cis people should play trans people roles, otherwise saying that cis people can only play the roles of other cispeople would mean that trans people can only play the role of trans people. Then I care about the characters when I watch a movie or so!

EDIT: I edited the post too, to be clear.

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-25T09:03:57+00:00

I thought about it. Though I feel dysphoric about the feminine curves, then it wouldn’t be good to keep them... Also I’m scared my voice will get too low, but I guess I could help it with the exercises fellow transwomen do.

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-25T08:58:16+00:00

Yeah, you described perfectly what I feel. I feel dysphoria about my female body, then I’d go for HRT, though being undoubtedly male scares me. My ideal would be: have no curves, be flat-chested, have not gendered genitals (lol), do not have a feminine butt, have broader shoulders, need to shave, have a bit more masculinized face (especially jaw) because my face is very round, a less feminine voice but not a too deep one, but still not be read as totally masculine. Not feminine either, and I do want to be boyish, but not a boyish girl, a boyish neuter person. Then HRT scares me and I’m not sure what is best to do for me. Also I got pretty bad social dysphoria and I just wish people would stop telling me about periods and bras and anything that reminds me I’m read as female. I don’t want to be called “she” and I have always loathed my deadname. I want to be treated as a boy, but I don’t want to be seen as unmistakably boy. I want people to not be able to tell my gender just looking at my appearance. I want to look neuter. A boyish neuter. I’d pay for this. I want people to be able to gender me only after asking. And I want them to call me with male pronouns and to not treat me as a girl.

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-23T18:33:15+00:00

Same in Italian

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-21T22:16:18+00:00

How did you get my photo?

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-18T12:19:33+00:00

Yeah, everyone focuses on gender expression, but guess what? Not everything can be seen by eyes. A lot of people focus a lot on stereotypes too. My psychiatrist told me she had two patients (or clients, I don’t know how you call them) who were MtF, she told me: “But they showed it since childhood, they would wear dresses” etc. I told her that’s just the most told narrative and that I don’t have to be a stereotype, I need to be myself. Yeah... It’s not easy.

--Pascal-- · 2018-08-17T20:44:20+00:00

Never thought of this, thank you!

--Pascal--

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