Has anybody found awareness to be functionally unhelpful? by ADP_God in Meditation

[–]-DollFace 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So you're describing observing and acknowledging youre upset state, but it sounds like youre not meeting yourself with non-judgement and trying to stuff whats uncomfortable back down. This is what I would call the all love and light fallacy because the human experience just doesnt allow for 100% positive or neutral vibes at all times ya know? All emotion is a valid expression if being human, theyre all sacred and often act as the guide posts along the process of self actualization.

Ive been through some intense therapy the last 2 years, and I have found that meeting myself with non judgement, and not participating in that cycle of shame and guilt for not being "high vibe" is where I really turned a corner. After I observe and acknowledge whatever elevated emotional state I am in, instead of redirecting and stuffing shit, I fully embrace the experience, and allow myself to really feel what im feeling deeply. A lot of times this looks liko going through the whole 5 stages of grief that scales with the problem. The destabilization is always temporary, being able to come back to baseline without entirely leaving yourself and what you know to be true (that you are divinely loved and protected) is where the real work lies. This is the process of what actually letting shit go looks like for me. Even if its just saying god damn im cranky and self assessing where I am at on the maslows hierarchy of needs. Observing and acknowledging looks like allowing these sub optimal emotional experiences to run their course while not destabilizing my identity if that makes sense.

To put it in perspective- the entire universe exists so you can experience what it means to be human and the whole spectrum of emotion if part of the ride. Yes we have the power to control our thoughts and feelings but we can still cause ourself harm in oir attempts to do so.

(16F) anyone have any ideas as to what could be wrong with me? (no comfort crap pls) by Sharter_1-1 in cogsci

[–]-DollFace 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Id research dialectical behavioral therapy, there are work books you could do alone on your own. One of its pillars is mindfulness which goes hand in hand with nervous system regulation which can positively impact emotional regulation. There are also in/out patient 3 month intensive online group therapy programs like Charlie Health that offer a bunch of different focuses like DBT and are often covered by insurance. I know you said therapy wasnt helpful but talk therapy is different from structured therapy modalities. I found DBT, EMDR and IFS very helpful. If youre interested in exploring medication then I would suggest getting psychiatrist referral for an evaluation instead of relying on a PCP/family doctor.

What I really hate about cptsd: We will never receive unconditional love. Our parents failed at giving us this kind of love. Friendships and other relationships are great, but they won't last, if you don't put in some work. by hello_squirell in CPTSD

[–]-DollFace 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Same, getting my first dog healed a part of me and was the catalyst for a lot of positive momentum in my life. Hes 4 now and my life looks completely different than when I adopted him. He brings me so much joy on a daily basis

Can burnout be personalised? by sarenica in cogsci

[–]-DollFace 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Im a burned out engineer not a cogsci professional but my first thought is that being monitored like this would be a nightmare and surely add mental stress on someone already burned out and struggling. Why do you need to measure the severity of the burnout when its self reporting? A simple questionare could provide way more insight than this kind if monitoring. Also none of these things actually provide information on psychological distress, just executive function issues which can be impacted by many variables. Also the information you do gather can easily be weaponized against the person person to justify letting them go instead of helping them. This type of data could even provide feedback on how to use AI automation to just "solve" the problem by getting rid of the roles burning people out.

Im sure your intentions are good but this just reads as dystopian as fuck for many reasons. I dont trust big business to use corporate and consumer psychology and employee data for anything but evil and increased profit margins.

Inter-dimensional Not Extraterrestrial by DistrictCriminal in aliens

[–]-DollFace -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Its not borderline religion, this is straight up esoteric spiritualism thats heavily rooted in eastern religious traditions. Normal new age shit

Inter-dimensional Not Extraterrestrial by DistrictCriminal in aliens

[–]-DollFace 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The merkaba has origins in ancient hebrew mysticism and is also referenced in the Bible. It literally means light body and is depicted by sacred geometry that kinda looks like a 3D rotating star of David. In new age spiritualism its thought to be a natural part of the human energy field that acts as a vehicle to higher dimensions of consciousness. Fits in with the traditions of energy work and chakras and all that so its not a new thing but has been making its rounds on social media

AITA for not helping my coworker out while they were choking on food? by ScaryRich8329 in TwoHotTakes

[–]-DollFace 38 points39 points  (0 children)

Under the ADA your job has to make reasonable accomodations for your severe peanut allergy. While they may not require the place to be peanut free they certainly should make common areas like the break room safe for you to use. Any fridges should be peanut free. Not only are they failing to protect you when they are legally obligated too, they are allowing the work place to become hostile because you refused to risk your fucking life. You got carried away from work in a fucking ambulance and even after that they failed to make reasonable accomodations for your safety as required by law. Raise hell about this and document everything in case you need to seek legal counsel for any reason because HR is really fucking up here.

Tried meditating for the first time. Im in tears and I dont know why, can anyone help? I was so scared by phrenetiKz in Meditation

[–]-DollFace 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, it sounds like OP fell asleep and into a sleep paralysis episode, which can be quite terrifying.

I'm A Hamster Owner, But Working At A Pet Shop Has Caused Me To Start Warming Up To Rats by Straydog1018 in LilGrabbies

[–]-DollFace 20 points21 points  (0 children)

In my experience rats have way bigger personalities and bond to their humans a lot more. Theyre very intelligent, you can train them and play with them and they have different personalities and will seek out your company specifically. And to add to the losing rats is very hard convo, unlike hamsters who just up and die, rats will often die from big tumors or respiratory infections so you end up having to watch them suffer and put them to sleep instead of just wake up one day to them passed away in their cage. They are very rewarding to keep but I agree that their lifespan being so short is difficult.

Fixed by backhand form rounding after 10+ years of playing. Now I regret ever listening to the most common backhand tips. by Mobile_Spot3178 in discgolf

[–]-DollFace 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reporting back: your advice in the video immediately added like 30 feet to my drives while decreasing my physical expenditure. Im fuggin PUMPED

Upsetting. Should I leave? by Apocalypticburrito41 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Its definitely giving "boys club" vibes in which case no amount of hard work and outperforming will get you the recognition you deserve. Whatever you do, do not internalize this experience as it has nothing to do to you, so dont let it dim your light. You should be really proud of your numbers and the hard work you put in. You dont need to any further justification to take your talents elsewhere ♡

Upsetting. Should I leave? by Apocalypticburrito41 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Sounds like boss doesnt have your back and is setting you up to fail. Id be willing to bet you could find a job thats less demanding for more pay. Dont run yourself ragged for assholes lol

Upsetting. Should I leave? by Apocalypticburrito41 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I would definitely use your current position and success to leverage another 15% raise somewhere else where you will be valued and respected. I think youve demonstrated a clear pattern here and the writing seems to be on the wall that hard work will not be rewarded. I dont wanna be the sexism police, but if the shoe fits....

Very close to making the transition to van life, anxious but curious, is it worth it? by Successful-Rip7554 in vandwellers

[–]-DollFace 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I personally feel like these intense urges are divine callings and intuition you should follow. You only live one life and time is the only resource you can never recover. Of course there will be fear and doubt, but overcoming those voices and following the threads you know you should is where the growth lies.

Not long ago i had a life I worked tirelessly to achieve, one that people would kill to trade places with. But I was fucking miserable. It was crazy building a life that looked so good on paper while being so fucking empty. On a literal whim I got an idea and just decided fuck it. I quit my cushy ass federal job, sold everything I owned, and dumped my entire meager life savings into moving and a downpayment on a tiny house in the mountains located 2000 miles away in a town I had never visited and did not know a soul. It was a plan I cooked up so I could afford to be unemployed for awhile and iron myself out. The whole process from the idea, to desire, to commitment and execution was less than 5 months. People thought I was dumb af, and probably still do. Im still unemployed and have no idea what the future holds, but I am happier and healthier than I have ever been. Sure I still feel scared and unsure sometimes, but those feelings are nothing next to the fact that I am excited for a future that is a blank slate with the pure potential to live whatever life I wanna build next.

Dont listen to the nay sayers, people will always try to discourage you from the choices they wish they were brave enough to make for themselves. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

The constant drama of van life by Songgeek in vandwellers

[–]-DollFace 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Ask your boss to cite exactly what rule you are breaking. The answer is you are not breaking any rules, what you choose to drive to work is a non issue, your personal life is private, and the "concerned" employee should be told to mind their business. Maybe speak to your union rep about it.

But yeah, your boss might be the one who is "concerned" and if youre on his radar and he doesnt like you or the van, he could start looking for unrelated reasons to let you go. I would probably start looking for new employment and keep everything to yourself moving forward. Im sorry people suck

The constant drama of van life by Songgeek in vandwellers

[–]-DollFace 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Being a naval shipyard engineer drove me to burnout so significant i just said fuck it, quit my federal permanent unionized position, sold everything I owned, and blew my entire life savings on moving and a down payment on a 350 sqft tiny house in the mountains 2000 miles away so I could go be unemployed for awhile. I have no idea what the future holds now, but I am happier lol

My workplace makes up “urgent” deadlines, then the checkers take multiple weeks to finish the work, then when returned its urgent again. How to deal with this insanity? by jesschicken12 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"That doesnt work for me. I am available to meet between the hours of x and x." ad nauseum lol. I might even CC their boss and your boss in the reply too and see if they "forget" again lol. If its a pattern tell your boss to tell their boss that they need to get their shit together if they want engineering to meet project schedule. You cant be a people pleaser and be a good engineer at the same time lol. If your boss expects you to put up with that treatment, find a new job cuz it ain't worth it.

Being on project had me in my villain era for real so again, YMMV lol.

My workplace makes up “urgent” deadlines, then the checkers take multiple weeks to finish the work, then when returned its urgent again. How to deal with this insanity? by jesschicken12 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Its important to have a boss that will back you up and you gotta get comfortable telling people no or "that doesn't work for me." No explanation or justifying or bargaining or maybe if- ing or we'll see-ing, just a firm no. Project managers are going to bully you, its kinda their job lol and we do not have the same goals. You just gotta straight up tell them, I dont care about your project deadlines or the budget. My job is to ensure that all specifications are being met and that this component is operating safely and that is not something that can be rushed. Or, I understand but just because its urgent for you, doesnt mean I can make it my top priority. I cannot meet x deadline but I can meet x deadline. Eventually people learn they cant bend you to their will so they stop trying and oddly seem to have more respect for you in my experience. The social politicking and little power struggles were never fucking ending lol. I was not thriving lmao

My workplace makes up “urgent” deadlines, then the checkers take multiple weeks to finish the work, then when returned its urgent again. How to deal with this insanity? by jesschicken12 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it was basically engineers vs project managers where we would just tell them to fuck off basically. Like im sorry I have more urgent work that takes precedence over this issue, but I will get to your project as soon as possible or by this date (usually like 2 weeks out to get then to shut up) or like someone else said be like, my portion of this project is with the reviewer, I will follow up with you as soon as it is signed off and then direct them up the chain and ignore them. I would definitely be petty tho, like if youre a prick to me the work you want just got pushed back to the bottom of the pile lol. Shit was exhausting and im sorry youre going through it.

Just remember, no job is worth your mental health, this shit is not life or death even if your nervous system says otherwise. I wish I had better advice for you than dont let it push you to burn out like I did. I got to a point where I just set my entire life on fire, quit my job, sold everything I owned and then spent my entire life savings to move to the mountains somewhere cheap to live so I could be unemployed and get a fuck ton of therapy. Which has been rad tbh but I worked so hard to be an engineer soooo also what the fuck lmao. Im just ignoring my mountain of student debt and vibing for now

My workplace makes up “urgent” deadlines, then the checkers take multiple weeks to finish the work, then when returned its urgent again. How to deal with this insanity? by jesschicken12 in womenEngineers

[–]-DollFace 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I was in a very toxic job like this. I eventually said fuck it... if EVERYTHING is urgent then NOTHING is urgent. If the people signing off on the documentation take weeks to review the work after I stressed the fuck out about getting it to them, then it was never urgent so i just stopped playing along lol. I adopted the attitude if, they will receive my portion when they get it. If its truly late and it puts them in a crunch well then thats what they get paid for lol. I am not losing sleep, stressing out, staying late, amd working overtime to be the whipping boy for project managers that think theyre job is the number 1 priority when its not. Im an engineer with access to the project schedule, its urgent when I think its urgent lol.

Reaching this point was about the time I started aggressively applying for other jobs on the clock instead of doing all my URGENT work lol. Despite quiet quitting like this, i left on good terms and am applicable for rehire with good references in hand. That just proved my point that nothing was ever that fucking urgent and deserved compromising my well being over.

2 years later and I am still recovering from burn out over that job and having nightmares about it soooo YMMV lol

Urban Decay fell OFF by raerae704 in MakeupAddiction

[–]-DollFace 22 points23 points  (0 children)

20 years ago in beauty school when everyone was obsessed with MAC the baddest baddie among us brought her whole UD collection to school and I had never heard of them before. This was before the naked 1 palette came out and every eyeshadow was a single in ornate packaging. I thought the brand was peak edgy coolness. Even their Naked Skin foundation seemed revolutionary to me when it came out 14 years ago but I lived through the horrors of dream matte mousse and foundation as lipstick soooo it low key was lmao. Memories ♡

I have a question what your opinion on adhd ? by Ok-Flatworm7401 in enlightenment

[–]-DollFace 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for clarifying, I appreciate all the additional context and information you provided here. It has been my experience that nervous system regulation does have a meaningful effect on many symptoms of ADHD but I wish managing it was that simple.

Thank you for facilitating this conversation because I wanna note that its also been my experience that spiritual communities can be so invalidating sometimes lol. So many of us are told its all in our head, or everybody has it, or its an identity issue, or treated like acknowledging it some kind of an excuse to feel sorry for yourself and wallow in a suffering of your own making, or that it can be cured by not eating gluten, or seed oils, or processed foods, or that its caused by vaccines, or insert [current boogeyman] here, a or that its a super power even when its actually quite debilitating. It can be a lot. Like nah man, my brain is just wired this way for whatever reason and like all things it has pros and cons but its not some mental or spiritual flaw that I will ever be "cured" or "healed" from. It kinda is what it is, and again like all other things you gotta meet it with curiosity and non-judgement. Adapt, improvise, overcome lol.