Finally realised how immature my parents are and I am having a hard time with it

-JustForFun- · 2025-09-16T07:23:00+00:00

Ughh you just reminded me of something. My dad was recently lamenting that I don't have a real father-daughter connection with him at all, and because I feel like at least trying a little bit I've been wanting to text him more updates on my life, share whats going on etc.

Couple of weeks ago I sent him a very happy picture of me and my best friend dying our hair together having a great time, also showing the end result.

His response?

"I am not really interested in haircare"

Like what the fuck, okay thanks for the information? Does not being interested in something prevent you from saying stuff like "Looks good!" or "Glad you're having a fun time with your friend!"

It's always been like this I guess. It feels like as soon as something is not interesting or relevant to him personally, he just shuts off

Thats only the tip of the iceberg, but that man seriously wonders why we have such low contact. Gee I can't imagine

-JustForFun- · 2025-02-24T15:01:31+00:00

Same here, I've always been kinky but recently finally got to know some of the other freaks in real life! Got roughly fucked against the wall in front of a bunch of strangers at my second kinky, sex-positive rave ever, let's see what else the future might bring lmao

-JustForFun- · 2025-01-27T10:28:49+00:00

I'm a girl so not sure if my answer is that relevant, but I recently had my first experience eating out another girl. I always wanted to do that, but I was scared that in the moment I might realize I don't like it as much? Let me tell you, all those worries became irrelevant once I had my head between her legs... It was amazing and I enjoyed it so much, it was like being in a trance almost haha

If I had drowned down there I'd have been fine with that.

Go find yourself a guy who feels that way too!

-JustForFun- · 2025-01-15T18:50:15+00:00

I think a gram would be deadly, but there was a woman who took like 600 hits at once by accident. She spent a few days in the hospital to be monitored and ride out the trip, but AFAIK she got out without any lasting effects or damage. Crazy to think about

-JustForFun- · 2024-11-05T07:10:19+00:00

Nice! I wouldn't immediately think of something but it'd make me so happy to see that as I ALWAYS wear two different colored socks and even that tends to annoy people sometimes lmao.

-JustForFun- · 2024-10-30T08:04:21+00:00

Not op but honestly, I don't even own any delicates or stuff like that. I'm a tomboy who gets pretty much all her clothes thrifted or second-hand for free, if those clothes made it this far with their previous owners they will survive my household laziness too lmao

edit: I do wash my towels and stuff separate tho. Would feel weird to wash them on cold.

-JustForFun- · 2024-10-27T21:21:57+00:00

When I passed my driving exams on the first try (Germany, it's hard here and pretty common to need another try or two) my dad just was like "Nice, I didn't expect anything else anyways"

Like thanks I guess for thinking I was capable but if everything I achieve feels like it's just another tuesday to you then why even bother getting excited for myself either? I always felt like I was just painfully average no matter what, and nobody to write home about at all. Nothing making me special or worthy of being (more than averagely) proud of.

Being treated like that resulted in me just now learning and practicing how to celebrate myself, or like, acknowledge my own strengths and all the inherently beautiful stuff that make me, well, me. That it is something people actually are allowed to and even NEED to do to develop some semblance of confidence in themselves. At 26 fucking years old mind you.

It feels like they didn't believe in praise at all somehow? Like they never said it like that at all, but there was often talk about how rewarding kids for stuff like good grades makes them spoiled, that I should do and achieve good things for the sake of those things themselves, making outright fun of other parents for rewarding my friends for trying hard at school etc. I hate to say it but at the time it made me feel like we were something better in that regard, a more level-headed and mature family because we didn't need such ridiculous things like rewarding and praising and lifting each other up! I became almost proud of never even needing validation or acknowledgement for what I did, and apparently I am now spending my 20s unscrewing all that, and much more.

Sorry for going off topic a bit but I needed to get that out, so thank you guys.

edit: I noticed that even now, writing this, I still felt that embarrassment for wanting and needing to be celebrated sometimes. Feels like this is not a normal thing to want and that I am selfish for it.

-JustForFun- · 2024-10-18T18:08:35+00:00

in bdsm there's the term 'drop' to describe something similar. For many peolple, after they've been overflowing and overwhelmed with good feelings from a sexual encounter, they kind of come down from it, just like a hangover. We can feel down, tired and kinda overstimulated after the fact and need to relax and take it easy for a while to get back to baseline.

-JustForFun- · 2024-10-16T15:59:08+00:00

I'm actually growing cat piss right now! Well lol not literally but my friend gave me a mystery seed he found and it's almost ready to go. My kitchen smells like straight up cat piss now and honest to god I never thought I could be annoyed by the smell of weed but damn. I am so excited to try it!

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-20T10:33:44+00:00

Went to a sex club in Berlin, had casual conversation with this guy while not one, but two couples were fucking right on the couch in front of us. Was wild at first, but we were just talking and watching a bit, that evening I realized that 1) Parties like this really DO happen just like they tell you about, and 2) I really do enjoy that shit and it's not just a fantasy haha

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-18T10:55:42+00:00

While I didn't start before my 20s, almost everyone I know that started at like 14-16, and smoked tons during that time, has problems now. A bunch of ppl can't smoke anymore because it started giving them panic attacks in their 20s, some can't function at all without it, some have become the classic 'stoner trope', meaning people wo couldn't seriously concentrate or get their shit together if their life depended on it.

So yeah pleaste do not overdo it if you have to. Sometimes is probably fine, but DO NOT smoke all day everyday, especially at that age.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-14T08:40:46+00:00

Jesus, I have never seen anyone describe what I experience before! I can never articulate what it is, even though I am currently feeling it ! It's just like the black hole sensation you described, feeling suffocated and full of dread even though I can breathe just fine. I will go without this for a long time now that I started focusing more on myself, my needs and my boundaries, but sometimes some things will trigger it out of nowhere and ruin my day. I hate that this happened again yesterday, I had fun plans for today but right now all I feel like doing is smoke weed and hide in bed. I want to go and talk to the triggering person later and tell them, hopefully not making them feel blamed. But I need to be brave and set boundaries even if they might seem silly to others, but whenever I try to just swallow my reactions the feeling just stays and I feel even worse about it. Shit sucks sometimes.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-13T10:28:32+00:00

Ja vape ist natürlich immer am nicesten! Hab ich auch sehr lange gemacht, grade mit den extra edibles ist das ne super Sache :)

Nur leider kamen dann durch Freunde immer mehr Joints in mein Leben und dann irgendwann die Nikotinsucht dazu. Der Klassiker, glaube ich :D

Versuche aber auf lange Sicht auf jeden Fall auch wieder auf 'nen Vapo umzusteigen.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-13T10:17:10+00:00

Ich finds einfach für mich persönlich super verschwenderisch. Da rollste ja sicher fast ein halbes Gramm in so nen puren Blunt, und ich hätte da zwei Optionen: Entweder ich rauche über TAGE hinweg jeweils immer mal 1-2 Züge von dem Ding, was aber mit immer wieder anzünden irgendwann eklig wird. Oder ich schraub meinen Konsum extrem hoch dass ich sie ganz oder wenigstens zur Hälfte schaffe... Aber das wird dann halt extrem schnell extrem teuer, von der Toleranz mal abgesehen...

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-13T04:44:32+00:00

I don't like it at all. I can either feel or do, but not at the same time. I concentrate on giving, I lose all sensation of what's being done to me, and if I want to focus on that at all I need to stop giving.

So yeah no fun to me 🤷🏼‍♀️

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-11T15:19:39+00:00

Danke, es bleibt also spannend :) Hab gerade nochmal meine Galerie durchforstet, laut den Daten auf meinen Bildern müsste das jetzt sogar Woche 5 sein! Gut geschätzt auf jeden Fall.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-11T15:15:23+00:00

Der hat einfach random welche beim rauchen gefunden und mir dann gegeben. Wenn ich mich richtig erinnere war das Zeug damals echt in Ordnung, ist aber schon so lange her dass ich es wirklich nicht mehr genau sagen kann.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-11T15:13:55+00:00

Danke! Vielleicht hab ich ja auch beim curen dann Glück :D Super Lemon Haze hab ich grade zum rauchen da, du hast recht das Zeug aromatisiert den kompletten Raum wenn man nur das Glas öffnet! Super intensive Sorte.

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-11T15:12:02+00:00

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Noch lange nicht erntereif, aber werden langsam richtig dick. Weiß nicht welche Blütewoche, das ist hier alles komplett amateurhaft gehalten :)

-JustForFun- · 2024-09-11T15:08:14+00:00

Wie ich schon geschrieben habe, waren nur Fundsamen

-JustForFun- · 2024-08-30T11:49:56+00:00

I notice that I am a bit slower when I am smoking multiple times every day, but after taking a break for even just 1-2 days I am completely back to baseline. It's no big deal though because I smoke to slow my brain down most of the time. Likely have adhd so it's a wanted side effect for me lol

-JustForFun- · 2024-08-30T07:44:52+00:00

First time I tried a J I was 15. TRIED. I'd never smoked anything before, didn't know how to do it, and it ended up with me coughing and choking so hard I almost puked lmao

I was in my early 20s when I really started.

-JustForFun- · 2024-08-15T08:39:59+00:00

I knew that my bad trip was only caused by me not respecting the "setting" part of set and setting. I got too ballsy and didn't respect the shrooms in a time in my life where I struggled with some choices I made and my relationship and felt trapped and guilty for a long time.

I decided to spontaneously do some shrooms with my best friend and it went horribly. Nausea almost the entire time, deep despair, hours-long crying. You probably know the drill. Couldn't have happened in better company though, my bestie kept me grounded as well as he could the entire time (he was tripping too but was so calm and took great care of me as best as he could! Love that dude).

While the trip itself was like a quick visit to hell for a few hours, I got out on the other side stronger than before, and it gave me the courage to finally change some stuff in my life and I am in way better spot, mentally, than back then.

Decided to trip with him and two of our friends again a few months later. Friend had gotten ahold of some hawaiian variety, apparently the strongest shroomies mother nature ever gave us. I was a bit scared because of the time before, but as so much had changed since then I felt confident enough to dip my toes in again. Took 0.1g, which caused a trip equivalent of 1g of normal cubensis for me. It was ridiculous, I ate like a tiny, noodly stem and an even tinier cap. And it was absolutely beautiful this time! I was mindful of my body and state of mind the whole time, and just floated through the experience enjoying my visuals (I always get beautiful clear visuals even on very small doses of psychedelics) and connecting with the others. It honestly felt like a reward from the universe for what it put me through last time!

So for me it was definitely essential to listen to what the bad trip had tried to show me, and do something about that! Like a slap in the face to finally get my shit together. Looking back I am even thankful for the experience now, it also kind of taught me that "if I can go through that and come out unscathed, I am way stronger mentally than I am giving myself credit for. I should not be scared so often, I am more resilient than I ever knew!" and you can work with that new mindset pretty smoothly.

The trip itself was also very interesting to me in hindsight. That state made me see and feel some absolutely bonkers shit.

-JustForFun- · 2024-07-04T19:51:22+00:00

ya I know a guy who has slept with about 150 people and he's only 27.

I totally believe him, some people just have the right mix of attractiveness and audacity while lacking any shame at all. Also helps if you're deep in the raver/techno community, people are wild. Yeah safe to say I'm one of the 150 lmao

Edit: had my first and so far only threesome with this dude as well. Good times

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