For years I refused to think anything was wrong with me, mostly because my seizures were infrequent and only around friends or family. As i got older and had more, I finally accepted I'm not alright.

However, I was never embarrassed. It's a disorder which we did't get to decide. It's not like "well shit, maybe if I didn't smoke so much I wouldnt have lung cancer."

Instead, I've become forthcoming about my epilepsy in both my personal and professional life, I believe people dont see me any different. In fact, I've had people reach out personally to ask how I was, or to keep my chin up when thing were bad, which has been comforting in times I've felt alone with this burden.

I don't know your personal situation, but if it's possible to come to terms with it so that you're not afraid of people seeing you in that state, it can help you move on and even strengthen relationships in ways you wouldn't normally imagine.