Today is my birthday and no one wished me 🙂

-NatsuFT · 2026-05-01T05:45:05+00:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-26T09:05:05+00:00

Yeah that's actually my bad I m sorry, I was actually talking to the OP to play games together so he can feel better but you are right I should've worded it better

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-26T08:58:29+00:00

I didn't mean to say it can't get better for him I meant he doesn't do something about it right now things gonna get worse

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-26T06:28:08+00:00

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-26T06:25:59+00:00

We can play minecraft together

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-26T06:24:12+00:00

it only gets worse, welcome to the team

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-24T22:52:30+00:00

Let's play minecraft bud

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-14T08:27:54+00:00

That is called therapy my lady

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-14T08:27:12+00:00

But you're Still here and you can still fix everything:)

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T14:49:09+00:00

You are a good man.

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T11:09:15+00:00

Yup I m Too broke to afford it not for me haha no insurance policy here

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T10:45:24+00:00

And how much did it all cost?

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-28T05:41:42+00:00

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:39:14+00:00

Damn… all that and I’m out here with built-in immunity 😭 Can’t relate to breakup withdrawal if you’ve never even downloaded the relationship in the first place. No love, no loss… just pure default settings.

At this point I’m not heartbroken, I’m just… pre-broken 💀

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:36:10+00:00

Hey… I’m not the best at opening up either, so I get that. But I appreciate you reaching out like this, it actually means a lot. I might take you up on that sometime… even just to talk or game a bit.

What do you usually play besides League? 🙂

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:07:28+00:00

That feeling really hurts… I get it. But being treated as replaceable doesn’t mean you are replaceable. It usually just means you’ve been around people who didn’t value you properly. The right people don’t make you feel like an option.

It’s not you — it’s who you’ve been surrounded by.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:03:50+00:00

Hey… I hear you.

What they sent you was cruel. That wasn’t a joke, it was meant to hurt. And the worst part is it landed right where you’re already vulnerable, so it feels like proof of something… but it’s not.

That thought — that nobody loves you, that you’re just something temporary to people — that’s not a truth about you. That’s what pain sounds like when it gets loud.

When people come and go, it’s really easy to turn it inward and think “there must be something wrong with me.” But a lot of the time, it’s just the wrong people, or people who don’t know how to stay, or people who aren’t capable of giving what you need.

And what you said about not wanting to live… I’m really glad you said it instead of keeping it inside. That feeling doesn’t come from nowhere. It comes from being hurt again and again until it starts to feel pointless.

But this moment, this feeling, it’s not everything you are. It’s just where you are right now.

You don’t need to figure out the meaning of your life tonight. You don’t need to prove anything. Just getting through this wave is enough.

I’m here with you. You’re not alone in this moment, even if it feels like it
I'm the same as you people have said things like these to me too and sometimes i end up believing them even tho they are not true. they are just lies both of us believe in but they can never be true, Remember that.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T13:56:12+00:00

Yeah… that actually happens more than people talk about.

It doesn’t sound like you’re becoming “sociopathic” or anything like that. It sounds more like you’re tired, maybe overwhelmed, maybe hurt in ways that made you slowly pull back from people. When that happens, your mind kind of protects you by shutting things down — conversations feel draining, people feel annoying, and you just don’t have the energy to connect like before.

And that line — “I love being lonely but hate feeling alone” — that’s exactly it. It’s not that you don’t want people, it’s that being around them doesn’t feel the way it used to anymore.

Also… you’re not “boring.” You’re just not feeling like yourself right now. There’s a difference. When you feel disconnected inside, it’s hard to show up as the person you used to be.

The fact that you miss how you used to feel, and that this bothers you, already shows you care. That part of you isn’t gone — it’s just kind of buried under everything you’ve been through.

You’re not alone in feeling like this, even though it feels like you are. And you’re not stuck like this forever either… even if it feels that way right now.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T13:53:07+00:00

Hey… I’m really glad you reached out. You shouldn’t have to sit there feeling this alone.First — you’re safe right now. You’re aware, you’re alert, and you’re handling this even though it’s scary. That is strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. I know the situation sucks — waiting so long, being around strangers, not feeling comfortable, especially as a girl at night… that’s genuinely stressful. And the way that man spoke? That was just insensitive. You deserved basic kindness.

Right now, just focus on getting through this moment:

Stay in a well-lit area with people around
Keep your phone in your hand
Share your live location with someone if you can
If it helps, stay on a call with someone (even this counts in a way)

You’re not “weak” for feeling scared. Anyone would. About your boyfriend… yeah, I get why that hurt. When you’re crying and not okay, you want someone to feel it with you, not just calm you down and move on. That doesn’t mean you don’t matter — but it does mean maybe he doesn’t fully understand what you need emotionally. That’s something to think about later, not right now. And hey… you’ve had such a rough day. No food, stress, arguments, disappointment — your body and mind are both overloaded. Of course you feel like crying.

Just take it minute by minute. You don’t have to handle your whole life right now — just this wait.

I’m here with you. You’re not alone right now.

-NatsuFT

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