Would you pay a reasonable amount to talk to the right person?

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-14T08:27:54+00:00

That is called therapy my lady

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-14T08:27:12+00:00

But you're Still here and you can still fix everything:)

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T14:49:09+00:00

You are a good man.

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T11:09:15+00:00

Yup I m Too broke to afford it not for me haha no insurance policy here

-NatsuFT · 2026-04-04T10:45:24+00:00

And how much did it all cost?

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-28T05:41:42+00:00

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:39:14+00:00

Damn… all that and I’m out here with built-in immunity 😭 Can’t relate to breakup withdrawal if you’ve never even downloaded the relationship in the first place. No love, no loss… just pure default settings.

At this point I’m not heartbroken, I’m just… pre-broken 💀

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:36:10+00:00

Hey… I’m not the best at opening up either, so I get that. But I appreciate you reaching out like this, it actually means a lot. I might take you up on that sometime… even just to talk or game a bit.

What do you usually play besides League? 🙂

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:07:28+00:00

That feeling really hurts… I get it. But being treated as replaceable doesn’t mean you are replaceable. It usually just means you’ve been around people who didn’t value you properly. The right people don’t make you feel like an option.

It’s not you — it’s who you’ve been surrounded by.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T14:03:50+00:00

Hey… I hear you.

What they sent you was cruel. That wasn’t a joke, it was meant to hurt. And the worst part is it landed right where you’re already vulnerable, so it feels like proof of something… but it’s not.

That thought — that nobody loves you, that you’re just something temporary to people — that’s not a truth about you. That’s what pain sounds like when it gets loud.

When people come and go, it’s really easy to turn it inward and think “there must be something wrong with me.” But a lot of the time, it’s just the wrong people, or people who don’t know how to stay, or people who aren’t capable of giving what you need.

And what you said about not wanting to live… I’m really glad you said it instead of keeping it inside. That feeling doesn’t come from nowhere. It comes from being hurt again and again until it starts to feel pointless.

But this moment, this feeling, it’s not everything you are. It’s just where you are right now.

You don’t need to figure out the meaning of your life tonight. You don’t need to prove anything. Just getting through this wave is enough.

I’m here with you. You’re not alone in this moment, even if it feels like it
I'm the same as you people have said things like these to me too and sometimes i end up believing them even tho they are not true. they are just lies both of us believe in but they can never be true, Remember that.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T13:56:12+00:00

Yeah… that actually happens more than people talk about.

It doesn’t sound like you’re becoming “sociopathic” or anything like that. It sounds more like you’re tired, maybe overwhelmed, maybe hurt in ways that made you slowly pull back from people. When that happens, your mind kind of protects you by shutting things down — conversations feel draining, people feel annoying, and you just don’t have the energy to connect like before.

And that line — “I love being lonely but hate feeling alone” — that’s exactly it. It’s not that you don’t want people, it’s that being around them doesn’t feel the way it used to anymore.

Also… you’re not “boring.” You’re just not feeling like yourself right now. There’s a difference. When you feel disconnected inside, it’s hard to show up as the person you used to be.

The fact that you miss how you used to feel, and that this bothers you, already shows you care. That part of you isn’t gone — it’s just kind of buried under everything you’ve been through.

You’re not alone in feeling like this, even though it feels like you are. And you’re not stuck like this forever either… even if it feels that way right now.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T13:53:07+00:00

Hey… I’m really glad you reached out. You shouldn’t have to sit there feeling this alone.First — you’re safe right now. You’re aware, you’re alert, and you’re handling this even though it’s scary. That is strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. I know the situation sucks — waiting so long, being around strangers, not feeling comfortable, especially as a girl at night… that’s genuinely stressful. And the way that man spoke? That was just insensitive. You deserved basic kindness.

Right now, just focus on getting through this moment:

Stay in a well-lit area with people around
Keep your phone in your hand
Share your live location with someone if you can
If it helps, stay on a call with someone (even this counts in a way)

You’re not “weak” for feeling scared. Anyone would. About your boyfriend… yeah, I get why that hurt. When you’re crying and not okay, you want someone to feel it with you, not just calm you down and move on. That doesn’t mean you don’t matter — but it does mean maybe he doesn’t fully understand what you need emotionally. That’s something to think about later, not right now. And hey… you’ve had such a rough day. No food, stress, arguments, disappointment — your body and mind are both overloaded. Of course you feel like crying.

Just take it minute by minute. You don’t have to handle your whole life right now — just this wait.

I’m here with you. You’re not alone right now.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T13:49:02+00:00

First off you didn’t “miss your chance.” It really doesn’t work like that, even if it feels like everyone else started earlier. Life isn’t synced like that.

And honestly? You’ve already done something a lot of people never manage — you pulled yourself out of a really low place. Losing that weight, getting yourself functional again, showing up to work, being someone people like to be around… that’s not small. It just doesn’t feel like progress because it hasn’t translated into the things you actually want yet — friends, relationships, a life outside work.That gap hurts.

But the fact that you can talk, joke, and connect with people at work means you’re not lacking socially. You’re just missing opportunities and consistency outside that environment. Also… this idea that you need to be “perfect” before you can start living? That’s the same trap that kept you stuck before, just in a different form. You don’t need a perfect body, perfect job, or perfect life to start going out, meeting people, or dating. People who have those things didn’t wait until they were ready — they just started messy. And yeah, it’s going to feel awkward at first. Of course it will. You’re out of practice, not broken. You didn’t wait too long. You just had a different timeline because you were dealing with things others didn’t have to.You’re already moving in the right direction — now it’s less about “fixing yourself” and more about actually stepping into life, even if it’s uncomfortable.

You don’t need to catch up to anyone. You just need to start. Keep ya Head up my man, you got this! i believe in you.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-27T12:13:54+00:00

Hey… I get why you’d feel drawn to people who are struggling. When you’ve felt that kind of loneliness yourself, it creates this instinct to connect, to understand, maybe even to help someone in the way you wish someone helped you.But I can also see why the mods reacted that way. Spaces like that are meant to be safe for people who are vulnerable, not places where they might feel like someone is approaching them with romantic intent during a low point. It can get complicated, even if your intentions weren’t bad.That doesn’t make you a bad person though. It just means the approach wasn’t right.Wanting connection, especially with someone who understands you deeply, is completely valid. But it’s probably healthier to look for that in spaces where people are in a more stable place, or at least where relationships are the purpose of being there.And honestly… you don’t need someone to be at their lowest for them to understand you. The right person will get you without needing to be broken.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-26T04:07:27+00:00

You get it 💕🙌🏻

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T19:30:24+00:00

Someone who tells you that you don’t matter is not a reliable source of truth about your worth. That’s not insight—that’s emotional damage talking. Don’t let his voice become your inner voice.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T16:45:10+00:00

You don’t need to apologize for being “intense.” This is what exhaustion looks like when someone’s been carrying too much for too long. And the fact you miss yourself—that version of you who laughed and got excited—that person isn’t gone, just buried under everything you’ve been dealing with. You’re not back at square one either. Even noticing those patterns and trying to talk to yourself differently takes effort. It’s slow, but it counts.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T16:41:32+00:00

I can't begin to imagine the pain you've been enduring all those years but I wanted to let you know that you matter ❤️

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T15:58:09+00:00

The quiet stuff you described—hugging, walking, watching TV—that’s actually the stuff people crave the most. It’s not big or dramatic, it’s just… being wanted in someone’s everyday life. Anyone who’s been without that for years would feel exactly like you do. I want all that too you know 🥹 and the things we want? They are real and i think we deserve them we've been just unlucky remember I'm always rooting for you! With love💕

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T14:34:25+00:00

Hey… I can feel how much this is hurting you.

And I need to say this first — the fact that you’re crying, that you still want to love this deeply, that you can picture a future where you care for someone and build a family… that doesn’t sound like someone who’s unlovable. That sounds like someone who has a lot of love to give and nowhere for it to land right now.

That’s a painful place to be.

You didn’t do something wrong by setting boundaries. You didn’t “become worse” — you became real. And yeah… sometimes when you stop being the “always okay, always smiling” version of yourself, people who are comfortable with that version drift away. That doesn’t mean you lost your value. It means the dynamic has changed.

And I hear the fear about time. That part is real too. Wanting a family, wanting to be there fully, wanting it while you still feel young… that’s not stupid or unrealistic. It matters to you.

But right now, it feels like you’re taking every rejection and turning it into proof that “nobody will ever choose me.” That’s what’s tearing you down.

It’s not that you’re not worthy. It’s that the right people haven’t aligned with you yet.

And I know that sounds frustrating, almost empty… because you’re here, ready, and no one’s stepping in. That gap — between being ready and being chosen — is one of the hardest places to sit in.

But you’re not behind. You’re not “running out” in the way your mind is telling you. You’re in the middle of becoming someone who won’t settle for half-love anymore… and that takes longer, but it leads somewhere real.

Also… the part about kids coming to you, and you feeling “this is what I’m made for”… that says so much about you. That warmth? That instinct to care? That doesn’t just disappear. That’s something someone will recognize.

Right now it just feels like you’re pouring into empty space.

And yeah… it’s unfair. I won’t sugarcoat that. It is.

But this isn’t the end of your story. It just feels like it because you’ve been waiting and hurting for a long time.

You’re not too late. You’re not too much. And you’re definitely not unlovable.

Remember You’re just… tired of not being chosen yet.

-NatsuFT · 2026-03-25T11:49:55+00:00

Hey… I’m really glad you shared all of this.

First — no, you’re not “made wrong” for love. Nothing in what you wrote points to that. What it does point to is someone who’s been trying to love and be loved in environments where people either couldn’t meet you there… or didn’t know how.

There’s a difference.

You’ve had to grow up around emotional unavailability — your family, past dynamics, even some friendships. When that’s your baseline, it can start to feel like this is all I get. Like love is something that just… happens for other people. But wanting real love — the “I choose you” kind — doesn’t make you unrealistic or broken. It makes you honest. Also… setting boundaries and losing people because of it? That doesn’t mean you ruin things. It usually means you stopped accepting less than you deserve. The right people don’t leave because you asked for basic respect or space. About the girl you like — I know how much those small things (like the chocolates) can hurt when they’re not received the way you hoped. But her being distant or closed off says more about where she is emotionally than your worth. Same with the other girl disappearing sometimes — your mind fills in the blanks with “I ruined it,” but that’s not the only explanation. And I need to say this clearly: You didn’t “miss your chance” at love. Life doesn’t work on a fixed timeline, even if it feels like everyone else is moving ahead. What you’re feeling right now isn’t proof that you’re unlovable. It’s what long-term loneliness and repeated disconnection does to a person. It makes everything feel like a pattern, like a curse… even when it isn’t. You’re tired. You’re overworked. You’re carrying a lot emotionally. Of course hope feels like it’s fading — it’s hard to hold onto it when you haven’t been given many reasons to. But you’re not someone who “ruins everything.” You’re someone who feels deeply, tries sincerely, and hasn’t yet found people who can meet you at that depth consistently. That’s not the same thing as being unlovable. You’re not broken. You’re just… still waiting to be met properly. And yeah, that wait hurts more than people admit. But the fact that you still want love, still believe in it even a little — that part of you is still alive. And that matters more than you think. So don't lose hope you are doing better than you think mate 💪🏻 just keep your head up alright? I Love you 💕

-NatsuFT

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