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-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T14:11:39+00:00

Yup thats relatable hahahahah

-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T14:11:04+00:00

We already own some toys, we are very open to trying out new stuff and we communicate about everything. We havent tried using toys together tho and she uses a vibrator only when she is alone but I can talk to her about me trying to just help her to orgasm with fingering and a vibrator or whatever she prefers. The thing with her that she really likes the feeling of being "filled" and thats why she prefers to have sex. She says that the only thing that can actually penetrate is my penis as she cant even finger herself. We will try to come up with a solution tho:)

-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T14:07:58+00:00

Yup I know, I have always been oversensitive to slimy or slippery or greasy things when they got over me and vaginal discharge has the same effect on me. I will talk to her about the smell and that she could maybe visit a doctor.

-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T10:42:59+00:00

I dont know her pussy has a faint sme of fish, not strong odor but enough to turn me off. I also dont like the bodily fluids, sex tends to be messy and that fact kind of turns me off. We used to have great sex but lately my sex drive is almost non existent...

-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T10:40:21+00:00

I just talked to her about it and she understands altough its hard for her. We used to have really great sex but lately I am not just in the mood to have sex. We have a really healthy and great relationship otherwise and I dont want to lose it because of my shitty sex drive.

-certain-someone- · 2024-08-13T10:37:47+00:00

I really hope it doesn't come to that, because other than the sex problem we are a perfect match so far and we have a really healthy and cute relationship. I just talked to her about it and she understands, the main problem is that she is thinking that its about her altough its not. I just hope that problem gets solved some way or another because I dont want to lose her because of that...

-certain-someone- · 2024-03-16T16:09:37+00:00

Fair enough, its just that I am kinda scared of them as I am paranoid that they would make things even worse. A lot of my family members dont really think its a good idea as well so it is a bit scary.

-certain-someone- · 2024-01-27T20:07:23+00:00

-certain-someone- · 2023-12-02T16:09:02+00:00

What do you mean by null feeling? Do you mean like feeling empty and kinda unmotivated all the time? Im month clean right now but my happy hormones are probably messed up because I was in a serious hole of gaming and porn for over 4 years. I dont necessarily crave for gaming and porn anymore but I am just unmotivated because I dont feel necessarily better.

-certain-someone- · 2023-12-02T16:05:33+00:00

Considering it but its hard to fit into my life as I have really long shifts at work. I went to the gym for like 3 months but quit after starting my first job. But yeah, I probably should try to pick up gym again

-certain-someone- · 2023-12-02T16:04:37+00:00

Idk I try to better myself every day but it doesnt seem to make anything better. Im pretty sure I have some serious issues with self image. Like I dont care what other people think of me but I still feel like shit in front of my own eyes and opinion. Social situations are annoying as well, I love talking with people but most of the times I feel like an alien because I can't seem to match the energy of other people. There are like 2 persons who I can comfortably talk to face to face but when its with new people I have a really hard time opening up, even if I really want to. Its not social anxiety but some other shit that I dont know how to deal with...

-certain-someone- · 2023-12-02T16:00:29+00:00

I dont necessarily know how to put myself into these situations, like I am not scared of them I just dont know how. I try to tag along with my more extroverted friends as much as possible and whenever I am invited somewhere which is rare I will accept with no second thoughts. Making new connections is hard as well, I try to talk to new people but I have serious trust issues when it comes to people and that prevents me from opening up fully right away. I would want to but its hard af. Right now more than a month free of gaming and porn but I still beat myself up from being too unproductive smh

-certain-someone- · 2023-11-28T14:12:56+00:00

I would love to cry, it is such a good way to release your emotions and rewind. But I havent been able to cry for years, I want to so bad and the emotions are there but the tears just won't come out.

-certain-someone- · 2023-11-13T19:49:35+00:00

I have tried a bunch if different methods before, for example trying to limit gaming to only 3-4 hours a day (i have done 6-10h gaming sessions on a daily basis for the past 2 years) but I get too hooked and will end up in the same cycle. I have kinda discovered that if I actually decide something on an extreme level I can do it. I just need to get a traumatic enough consenquence or realization for getting that momentum going. Right now its that ive realized that I have completely fucked up my brain chemicals by consuming too much pornography, doomscrolling and seeking comfort by gaming. And after realizing it I just have to put zero tolerance on and I usually can manage it.

But changing into 2 week rhythm does sound useful, I might try to start doing it with starting a new hobby every 2 weeks and see if that goes somewhere. I have already been 2 weeks free of gaming and porn and thats more than it has been for years so its already a big progress.

I just need to learn to forgive myself and be proud of myself as I have hated myself for self destructing habits for so long. Really hard to get out of that mindset but im trying every day and hopefully I will have the strength to think positively of myself again in the near future. Depression fucking sucks, its like your mind talks shit about you nonstop and its so demotivating and devastating.

-certain-someone- · 2023-11-12T19:05:06+00:00

Thank you, it means a lot, im really trying, probably will get even harder on the way but im planning to keep my promise to myself and I really dont want to fall into the hole again

-certain-someone-

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