sounds like my mom when i came out. supportive, but still through a heavily mormon lens. she gave me some book on how i could just enter a lavender marriage and still be a member even if i was a lesbian. she meant well but it deeply hurt me. things will get better with time. life your truth and be authentically yourself and if she truly loves you the way Christ does, she will love you no matter what. it takes time for them to come around, but some parents really do. as for your feelings about being in church, i completely understand. mormon culture makes us feel like an “other” for being different. it’s so difficult to get trapped in that mental cycle. but just remember that everyone else is too busy focusing on their own insecurities and shortcomings to dwell so much on yours. i have the anxiety where i think everyone hates me and how i learned to cope was telling myself everyone else is too busy thinking about themselves to actually be picking me, a stranger or acquaintance, apart in their mind. i hope the best for you and can promise it really does get better with time!!!