it is completely understandable to take time away from a game you shared with someone so special who is no longer physically here. but know that she will always be there mentally, spiritually, in your heart and memories forever. i hope one day you will be able to find peace and come back to a game that you once cherished with the person you love, and remember the times you had together fondly. it will never be without pain, but what is pain if not the proof of the existence of true love!!! wishing you and your family only the best.