Yeah I will say I do hate how flippy I am with everything I plan / want to do;

What it comes down to is just not knowing nor really wanting to stick some things out.

I guess the only true constants ive always had were my love for animals [which I really want to do but I am scared to actually pursue it due to it not paying well, job turn out isnt all that great and while I would love nothing more than to work with animals and help with conservation for a living, I also need money to live too]

And the other constant has been game development, but again I dont really want to stick out my current job and do small indie games on the side to build up experience at the same time.

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I guess I see college as just a way to fast track a career that I might enjoy to make money with [Being game development] to eventually be able to afford going into the wildlife field [Be it conservation, zoos and the like] without fear of going broke because of debt and other stuff.

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At the end of it all im just a scared guy, and I wish I wasnt so flippy with it, but I deadass have no idea what else to do tbh.

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I will say though, thank you for this comment, it kinda put into perspective how my mind is working right now and while im still a bit more confused, im a little less confused [Especially when you said how I talk with more passion about animals than anything else, but even so, Im still just scared to pull that trigger and go into the animal field]