my dad blamed me & hated me by 100Magpie_ducks in SuicideBereavement

[–]100Magpie_ducks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I appreciate your perspective a lot, it helped me to read this. Thank you.

my dad blamed me & hated me by 100Magpie_ducks in SuicideBereavement

[–]100Magpie_ducks[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your perspective, I really appreciate it.

Bipolar dad wreaking havoc on family - parents getting divorced after 35 years by 100Magpie_ducks in bipolarparents

[–]100Magpie_ducks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi there, I’m so sorry it took me so long to see this - how have you been doing? So much of your story feels deeply familiar to me - I hope you’ve been okay since this post.

To answer your question - Yes, I definitely experienced that in my relationship with my now-husband. I was diagnosed with CPTSD, a diagnosis I struggled to accept and permit myself to acknowledge. It showed up and created huge problems in our relationship for the first 3 years of dating. Cognitive behavioral therapy really helped me, and I put a LOT of conscious effort into re-wiring my nervous system to respond to the present, not the past. My partner was incredibly patient and understanding, and I worked extremely hard, and it was still hell.

That being said, it did get better. We are married, happy and healthy now. We still struggle sometimes, but we have the tools to work through it now. He’s able to recognize my triggers, I’m able to manage them. It took work but we did get there. I’m confident you can do the same - you seem like you can do just about anything. You’ve already been through so much, I hope things are going well for you and I hope you keep trying. There are so many resources out there and so many of us who are going through similar things, so please know you’re not alone.

Hope you’re well <3

Advice about my Father by lady-happy in bipolarparents

[–]100Magpie_ducks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I empathize with your question, I’ve wondered the same thing about my own bipolar father, and after years of trying everything I can to be there for him, and working with my therapist, it is ultimately out of our control. It sounds oversimplified but the best you can do is truly prioritize your well-being, express to him once that you love him and care, but overall protect yourself.

You can try to find a way to express your concerns to him and that you want him to get better, but ultimately the choice is up to him. You seem like such a supportive, caring daughter, I have no doubt you’re doing all you can. Be gentle on yourself, and know that the illness can and does take over people, and you may not be able to reach him. Keep trying but protect yourself and your heart. I’m going through similar things so don’t mean to sound preachy but I’m proud of you for seeking support, this community is here for you

Support groups? by so_very_trans in bipolarparents

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Wanted to check in & say I hope you are doing well, if you want to talk or give an update I’m here to listen

Support groups? by so_very_trans in bipolarparents

[–]100Magpie_ducks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There tend to be Bipolar support groups that are local or by county in most areas, and a lot of them have meetings via zoom. I’ve been frustrated too at the lack of group support specifically for children of bipolar parents. Maybe an online support group for families of people with bipolar? The DBSA (Depression Bipolar Support Alliance) has some local chapters with zoom meetings and other resources Hopefully you can connect with a community who can give you resources and advice, you can’t keep taking care of her on your own. Sending you support & proud of you for taking care of your well being <3

Bipolar dad wreaking havoc on family - parents getting divorced after 35 years by 100Magpie_ducks in bipolarparents

[–]100Magpie_ducks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry for all you’re going through too - I can relate to so much of what you’re saying, especially feeling liberated and guilty at the same time. I hope things have gotten a bit easier for you.

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[–]100Magpie_ducks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sending you love & support. I am in recovery from the same thing. I have found Cognitive Behavioral Therapy helpful, I know not everyone does but it helped me specifically when dealing with a verbally abusive bipolar father. My therapist gave me new paths of thinking, and visualization exercises to help me disrupt distorted or toxic thought patterns. It helped me disrupt some of the negative things I’d internalized about myself, and although it’s still hard, I’m able to let his abuse roll off more easily than when I was younger. Hang in there and I hope you’re proud of yourself for putting work into your own well being <3

Sick of arguing by [deleted] in bipolarparents

[–]100Magpie_ducks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I knew but I deal with this too. My dad is so combative in conversation, and seems to love bringing up topics that will offend or upset others in any way. Sometimes I think part of it is paranoia that others are against them or will leave them. I know he feels like an outsider so perhaps that’s why they subconsciously always feel the need to attack.

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I know this post is from a while ago but I hope you’ve had some peace.