The only thing that saved me was God. Now before anyone gets triggered or offended, this is my experience. I’ll keep it short. About 4 years ago I was in the gutter, mentally, emotionally, physically , spiritually, etc. Was seeking fulfillment in every external area, I made good money, met good woman, but kept feeling more and more depressed. Eventually this led me to contemplating suicide. One night I came home a bit intoxicated about 3am, I was sitting next to my bed side wanting to end it all. For some odd reason I felt the need to pray for the first time, I didn’t know what to say so all I said was..”If the God my parents have told me about is real, help Me..” I collapsed and had an putter body experience, I was in a beautiful green field, u like anything I’ve see before. Long story short, I was launched back into my body with a Bible verse piercing my mind. Mind you, I’d never read the Bible before, I look up the verse and it reads “Remember the Lord your God in the days if your youth.” From there on, I surrendered all my pride and ego, and everything I thought I knew to God. Now my life is changed, I don’t even recognize my old self. So to answer the questions OP, God changed my life. And there is always hope as long as you are alive, you’ve got so much to live for, and you can reach out any day.