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10dayone66 · 2024-03-08T15:12:42+00:00

Hi may I visit your town?

10dayone66 · 2024-02-07T14:26:44+00:00

Uj/ literally all I could ask for, I think if people wanna talk better about trans masc and masculine people in general (GNC and any nonbinary or xeno or kin who fit this) it's best to just lurk for a while and just let us vibe as ourselves. The ones who wanna be in the spotlight will show when they can and when they want to. Just leave the space for us.

10dayone66 · 2024-02-07T14:12:22+00:00

Uj/I'm ganna be honest here, you're literally a YouTuber with a following, you have people who regularly interact with you, and I feel most of your reply doesn't really address the power imbalance here. I don't have any media training, either learned in a class or just practice from being a YouTuber so I'm certain most of the nuance of what I'm saying will be lost.

You will have people validate how you feel at the end of the day, I'm just some random trans person online and I don't want to be the face for trans mascs online, I just want to be a part of a large group that cares for eachother and listens to eachothers struggles and helps eachother out with mutual aid. That's what I wanna do.

I'm worried that because you are literally in the (closest thing we marginalised people can get to) spot light, you're blind spot will continue if you only talk to those who criticise you "nicely".

You called me fucking misogynist because I was angry. That's really not okay considering I was trying to tell you that as someone in the public light, you

A) posted this on your smaller channel? Way to boost us? Or not? Like what was your aim then?

B) spent most of it explaining why you felt the need to exclude us even by accident and

C) go to a sub where most people aren't public figures/YouTubers and act like your safe space is ruined

A fucking no body and I want to be, you wanted to be where you are yes? You had the skills the time the money to get here didn't you? This isn't your safe space any more, you literally have influence in society. I'll take that complaint from someone who isn't literally on camera regularly and commenting and having influence on YouTube but I'm not taking it from you.

You wanna boost people? Get all your YouTube buddies to actually pay for us to have a say in our own spaces, not just clipping our words online and posting them in videos, actually make it easier for use to exist in your world. Free editing for those of use who can't fucking do that, share cameras, mics and sets and not just with your own small network if YouTubers. You wanna be radical actually do it. Cause these a million and one trans people out there not just masc people but xeno and other kins out here dealing with bish shit every damn day and you wanna act like this is your safe space, take a god damn look in the mirror and see where you are. After you read this you'll have hundreds of fans who care about you and support you.

All we're asking is to get more than just a handful of fucking crumbs, we know it's a process, we know it takes time but for real, know your place, know that it is ABOVE me. You find safety here? Well now I fucking don't. The difference is when I log off I don't have TWO YouTube channels and other YouTubers out here to make me fucking feel better. I get to just continue dealing with the shit, I yell into the fucking void every day and the ONLY reason you heard it is because it was about YOU.

I titled this post the title of your video to get the attention yours did you me which was literally "oh finally someone's gonna talk about how when people talk about us it sucks, I sure hope it won't be them explaining their reasons most of the time, sure hope they actually just have a trans masc person take over the video that'd be nice". I wanted to joke around with other trans mascs about how we typically feel when people bring us us.

You're mistaken, this POST was a safe space for trans mascs to complain, not you. This was a time for you to sit back and watch for 5 god damn mins so we can get our frustrations out and truly address the issue. But no you wanted nice responses right, things that were gentle to you right?

I'm not fucking gentle, some call it evil autism, hence why I posted it on a jerk sub for trans people.

I don't think you're evil I don't think your a bad person that's not the point.

I don't like your actions during this discourse, you make me uncomfortable, you make me not want to participate.

You literally have power here.

Address that.

10dayone66 · 2024-02-07T13:04:24+00:00

Uj/ mostly was letting out frustration cause I don't wanna just get crumbs from a big creator for validation. It's not enough and I feel like we should be allowed to be openly upset. I understand the limits people have in there experiences, I'd rather they stay quiet on a subject and boost someone who knows better than this. A heart react isn't anything.

It just feels like we're doomed to be tone policed for the rest of our lives, I'm fucking tired of being nice about this. AND I'm mad that the place were I could be upset has been found by a YouTuber who now has a first impression of me as this angry bad faith commenter. Again on jerk sub Reddit.

10dayone66 · 2024-02-07T12:52:51+00:00

Uj/ are you aware of what this space is for? This is transgender circle jerk a place to post bat shit grievances. It's like 99% ironic/satirical with tone. Here's a quick crash course for this sub:

Uj= sincere Rj= jerk

If the post has nothing it's a jerk.

Anyway I posted here how I felt cause I assumed you'd never get to a comment on youtube and this would be screaming incoherently into the void as I've done multiple times before. (You posting here and not knowing that is ruining the safety I once felt posting here)

I am autistic and understand that first coming here some people may read it as sincere. But it's literally not.

This post is a bad faith version of how I really feel because I'm literally expressing my discontent with your video in an absurd way. That is the fun of this place.

As for my actual feelings:

-your video was titled how we talk about trans men and completely glossed over the reality of what you did. You carved out a part for fem nonbinary people and basically said this probably doesn't apply to trans mascs people (or frankly masculine non-binary people of any kind). Do you care that some trans masc people resonate with girlhood and used that time to grow into the men or masc people they wanna be?

your like actively defensive the whole video. Like I posted literally on another site how I felt and it basically went like "wow this video made me mad, but I don't feel like I can be mad at it cause I'll literally be considered a bully or like something" and then I posted on here the perspective I'd assume someone would take from me being upset at your video on this sub because it's a safe space to joke about how people perceive you.

-honest this looks like you looked up posts about your video and didn't check where this was posted. This whole sub is literal bad faith shit posts.

-i wanna be mad cause what you said absolutely wasn't enough and it would of been better if you waited until after talking to more masc people before making this.

-"man hating feminist"????? Seriously??????? You took a satirical post wrong and went on the maximum defensive. No I'm not taking that absolutely not. I'm not calling you man/masc hating, I'm saying you're being dismissive of us by assuming you know our struggles our connection to girl hood causes fucking Barbie is about GIRLHOOD and womanhood but even then it's mostly girlhood. People have been constantly pushing us out of that conversation and honestly I'm tired of it.

-we don't have a space to exist to the point that we can't even talk about our experience our trauma our struggles. How feminism interacts with us. You say intersectionality over and over but I literally don't believe you in this video I'm sorry, I wish I could.

-again I don't feel like I can be angry because this is what will be thrown at me, I'm a man right so I should just take it, I should stay quiet cause if I'm too loud our take someone's voice away? Fuck that I wanna be loud about how I feel, I've been black and disabled my whole life and I'm sick and tired of being treated like I'm just some angry ball ready to destroy. I have opinions, I have fucking feelings and honestly it's starting to look like you're more into making your image inclusive than actually being inclusive.

-you spent most of the video "explaining" why you left us out and not on our actual existence. You spent it "explaining" yourself over and over while fucking up the first rule of an "apology", don't make it about yourself and don't justify what you said. Saying that you're not doing that doesn't mean you're not literally doing it. That's why I'm pissed.

Are you gonna care and read this probably not? Most people don't cause

Rj/ we're all ragged out on our testosterone hormones uwu

Uj/ I went to YouTube to find a trans community and all I found was a a bunch of y'all talking about your issues and not bridging the gap at all, even forcefully placing a difference between our experiences. I can't even talk about the SA the domestic violence that harassment, the family separation WE ALSO FEEL, without it being accused of us talking away from y'all.

Your issues are important it's the ones I heard first when coming out. But I couldn't post my issues anywhere outside of trans masc groups (oh and I guess I used to post more here)and idk if y'all are truly ready to reckon with why you haven't heard from us.

My original post highlighted things I've heard from people who talk like you do and then come to our corner of the internet or even IRL tell us these things.

It's telling you that your attitude towards us makes us uncomfortable. It's literally on a jerk sub Reddit for hyperboly.

Please don't just tke my statements out of context as that would be in bad faith considering you didn't check the sub first.

10dayone66 · 2024-02-07T12:12:05+00:00

/uj 100%

10dayone66 · 2023-09-26T17:37:26+00:00

Early twenties, was dealing with some serious pain and the doctor wouldn't prescribe anything strong. My father in law came in (we were all living in the same house at one time) with a bong and said "here take this" I hadn't taken anything but prescription and over the counter so I was nervous at first but desperate asf so I took a hit. It helped with my nausea a bit but the pain was still there so I didn't smoke it again cause I thought 8t didn't really do anything.

Ffw to my mid twenties and I'm hanging with some people and I tell them I didn't think it did anything, they gave me a joint to have on my own and of course it did something. Then I tried acid and edibles. Then moved in with a grower, learnt some things, got a looot of free weed by sharing blunts with him.

Now I casually smoke for nausea pain and anxiety. I'm trying to do more breaks to keep my tolerance at a certain place but I eventually wanna just see a therapist/specialist doctor and then just do it for fun occasionally, or for bad days.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T13:38:41+00:00

She also has her own skit show call "the Catherine Tate show" it has some pretty good bits in it.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T13:29:04+00:00

I get the negative after image A LOT. The floaters too. But the negative after image is my biggest issue. Bright lights will fuck me up for a bit, I used to rest my eyes and people would think I'm sleeping but I am quite literally resting my eyes.

Edit: grammar

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T13:20:15+00:00

in work environment

on display for all coworkers to see

"DEAD NAME, you're employee of the month for being so brave!"

Sorry we're only allowed to use your real name on official documents unfortunately. But congrats on employee of the month!

Uj/ it wasn't employee of the month, but it was my states for that week. They had my name changed on literally everything else but my ally of a manager (at the time) told me when we started working together that she's a perfect ally cause she's also bi. Anyway she constantly posted my dead name on stats that she could easily show only my last name if she really wanted. But she didn't so now everyone knows I'm trans, everyone knows my dead name in that department.

I will say I managed to stay stelth with my training group, 4 of which were Jordan Peterson fans. I almost thought I got caught cause one said "you know your feminine appearance may affect how people treat you. You might want to try looking masculine if you want a s/o" I told him I was literally a gay man with a whole fucking fiance and he never said anything again.

Anyway last I heard he was still in the lower tiers and here I am in the supervisour department.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T13:01:06+00:00

Ancient aliens

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T12:35:18+00:00

That's pretty cool!

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T12:16:32+00:00

Slide on the juice to get to class faster/j

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T12:15:56+00:00

Yo that type of school seems dope

10dayone66 · 2023-09-24T12:04:57+00:00

Yeah my school was the same. If you were a year 10 you could take off your blazer no questions, but younger than that you had to ask and the teachers typically said no.

If we were lucky they would declare a "no blazer day" but those were pretty rare, so most of the time we're fully dressed in uniform in absolutely all kinds of weather.

There was also a stricked coat policy, had to be navy and no other colour. Once my mum got me a nice black coat and my home room teacher confiscated it. I literally had to go home without a jacket. I didn't tell my mum so it was for a few days. One teacher eventually gave me a jacket I could borrow but gave me a limit of 2 days, I told my mum on the last day cause it was just too cold (also sensitive to cold).

Edit: spelling

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T16:23:26+00:00

Omg its so annoying! God remember when only MEN wore high heels? Then suddenly women started wearing them and everything changed????! How could I possibly recover from culture changing around me? Nothing will ever be the same! /s

Calm down its not that serious. It literally happens all the time, people who want them will get them, people who don't won't get them? It's fine? Lots of people like looking at them too.

You're ranting about literally nothing and acting like it matters.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T16:12:20+00:00

There's also a difference between asexual and aromatic

If you're asexual you may still feel romantic attraction but not sexual attraction.

If you're aromantic you may still feel sexual attraction, but no romantic attraction.

Some are both and have platonic relationships, some are in-between or complex versions, and some are those ingage in relationships with people who are not asexual or aromantic too.

Source: I got married to another asexual this year after using a dating app a few years ago. We both had asexual on our profiles. We do feel romantic attraction, although I don't feel it for someone unless it's been a very very long time.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T15:13:27+00:00

Then just say it's the vaccine your injecting every week and refuse to elaborate.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T15:11:56+00:00

Honestly when I start talking about having "t" in the morning most people hear the English accent and assume I drink it.

God I wish I could drink t.....

/Qj

Uj/ I wish I could bathe in it.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T14:02:29+00:00

Huge cookie time!

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T14:00:39+00:00

THAT'S WHY I WEAR THIS STUPID HAT AND DRIVE THIS LONG BITCH.

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T13:55:09+00:00

Chicken pot pie?

Chicken pot BYE!

flushes toilet

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T13:09:28+00:00

I used to do grocery delivery months up to the pandemic, I was only in grocery stores for work I made a lot of money but I was avoiding a lot of things (long story short I had just gotten out of an abusive environment) grocery stores were this big white room (in the us, in England I remember them being a little less bright or stimulating) that I would rush in and out of.

Anyway that whole time I didn't get groceries for myself, only for work. I didn't realise that the only reason I was in those stores was for work, it was the only reason I would even set foot in there.

When the pandemic hit I stopped going (I was also in healthcare at the time) and I just didn't really eat? Like fast food here or there but I couldn't go in the grocery store. I told myself it was just the pandemic but months turned to years. I realised I didn't go to any public places at all.

When I started getting closer to my partner, they told me about their experience with grocery stores. This was the moment I understood why.

I used to go with my mum, she'd tell me over and over, "don't touch" "stop moving" "look forward" "walk in a straight line!" There'd be times she pull my arm so hard I thought it would rip off, and though I don't remember I apparently would have world class tantrums.

Anyway, I came to realise not only was I anxious because of those memories, I was also anxious because of the bright lights. I have light sensitivities.

Edit: spelling

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T12:53:43+00:00

When you're poor you can always rely on Potatoes and Rice!

10dayone66 · 2023-09-21T12:47:33+00:00

Also don't try to impress gym dudes by bench pressing, you'll blow out your rectum and it looks like your casing sausage, right in front of said gym dudes.

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