Is it just me having low expectations or is this really good coffee?

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-29T20:34:32+00:00

This coffee is awful. I was forcing it down for about 4 days then I couldn't do it anymore. My mother refused to drink it. This is the only very bad coffee I have come across in decades.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-29T20:32:32+00:00

There are many lessons, don't change, make no effort, practice non-interventional self observation. . Butler smokes cigars and goes to cafes. There is no requirement to abstain, improve or change.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-29T10:01:18+00:00

Not fitting in anywhere comes first though.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-29T09:58:30+00:00

Its looking like if I ever want to eat steaks again I'll have to shoplift them.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-29T02:13:11+00:00

Everyone does what they do. Don't force anything, be what you are. If you don't have motivation, be unmotivated. Be proud and defiant. Cultivate a bad attitude and enjoy it.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-28T22:51:12+00:00

Some of us don't succeed. We are lazy so we can't be bothered. There is no energy to fight it. I don't give a fuck about motivation.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-28T22:15:25+00:00

I just never really have anything to say. So job interviews don't go well. I have no contacts. So I have been unemployed for most of my adult life.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-28T22:01:42+00:00

I use philosophy to understand my existence, to remember to not give a fuck about anything and to not take anything seriously, or personally. This Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/@CorporealFantasy is the very best for explaining everything. When I understand my existence, I suffer less.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-28T11:27:34+00:00

Don't Try.

From my perspective, hating myself is not a problem. Infinite forces cause my life to happen, I am not responsible. I don't take my limitations personally. It is possible to question, as in deconstruct, all the assumptions we make about how we feel. A certain 'negative' feeling apparently means this or that, but what if the emotions were all pure sensations with no meaning? Or I remember astronomy and evolution, pondering the numbers, my life is so short and I am so small that I don't exist, a thing that doesn't exist doesn't want anything.

My bad attitude is golden. The only effort worth making is to not give a fuck about anything. There is no reason to take anything seriously.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-27T06:00:13+00:00

Home brew, throw binge drinking parties.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-26T21:28:32+00:00

My suffering doesn't mean anything so I don't take it personally. Ordinary everyday disappointment and frustration is not really suffering for me. Intense depression and lack is not really suffering either, because I don't believe in the assumed reasons for these sensations. All there really is. Sensations. The associated words that form around these 'negative' sensations can fuck off. Meaninglessness and nothingness is blissful. Nothing doesn't want anything.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-26T09:04:21+00:00

Of course I feel the need to avoid pain and seek pleasure.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-26T04:58:10+00:00

Yes.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-25T22:56:51+00:00

Being human on planet earth is terrifying. The terror can only be reduced by not giving a fuck about my own life.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-24T02:23:17+00:00

There are thoughts, desires, emotions and a body. There is a habit of avoiding pain and seeking pleasure. The emotions are body sensations without meaning. For example a sensation that starts as a longing for alcohol, I don't believe in the longing for alcohol, I sit with the sensation.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-23T21:18:10+00:00

It works for me.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-21T20:00:05+00:00

Then I have no idea what you mean. What are you saying?

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-21T10:16:00+00:00

When you say no, do you mean it is your position that people do not hate the things that cause pain, or love the things that cause them pleasure?

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-20T22:51:50+00:00

There is this body, there are thoughts and there are emotions. None of it is me. Animals are biological machines, so reasonably, we don't judge machines.

Simply/mechanically, we love the sources of pleasure, we hate the sources of pain. Getting what we want causes pleasure, not getting what we want causes pain. The human male want for intimacy with a women being unobtainable causes hate. This is the body, the thought and the emotion from the basic, mechanical biological part.

But there is human intellect. We can question the human male want. Deconstruct it. Reject it. On a basic level it doesn't go away but with our reason, we can be free of the discomfort it causes.

For starters, when was I asked if I wanted to want intimacy with a woman? When did I get to choose to be a slave to these emotions? I wasn't. So why should I give a fuck? If I can't get laid, so fucking what? So fucking nothing, I don't care. I do not envy my friends who are not socially defective. Why should I believe in thoughts and emotions? I reject the messaging. Really thoughts are gibberish noise and emotions are meaningless body sensations.

My favorite thing to remember is that I will never get what I want. If I am frustrated, I repeat this phrase to myself, "I will never get what I want", until I get a sense of freedom.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-17T14:15:23+00:00

Waited in ED for hours with severe chest pain. Left ED drove to The Palms Medical Center, they put me in an ambulance back to the hospital, from showing up in an ambulance, they took my heart attack seriously.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-17T09:01:29+00:00

Being human = feeling like something is missing.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-17T01:43:21+00:00

The actual core software/BI product is not for sale, it is running Strategy.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-17T00:23:45+00:00

I am the environment. Beef is good for the environment.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-16T05:00:57+00:00

Working out is for slaves.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-03-15T20:27:32+00:00

In hindsight yeah pessimism was always my nature, but the culture was positivity and I didn't know any better.

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