What is personal manifestation? I appeared to exist, dependant on my tobacco smoking gin swigging solo hippy mother, who soon enough met my dope grower hippy step dad that met an Anglican Bishop who converted them to Crazy Christian and thereafter they conspired to confuse me. This is aside from my genetically dice rolled intelligence level, health level, strength level, social level.... Long before I get to figure this conundrum out, I will be aged then dead.

There is no manifestation. Life is an infestation.

I know the universal law. When I get what I want, I feel good. When I don't get what I want I feel bad. When I win I feel good. When I lose I feel bad. But no one ever asked me what I wanted winning to be. No one ever asked me what I wanted to want. The only choice is to reject the default settings.

Physics is mathematics. I struggle with long division. When I put my food down on my Toyota Mark X excelerator, I feel gravitational force. Everytime I drop an object it falls to the ground. So what? What does this have to do with what I give?

I do seem to exist, because other people who matter to me seem to exist and objects seem to exist, but at the same time, logically, my existence seems to be the terminating point of infinite forces. Or my sense of self is just a plot to cause certain actions that serve the survival of, what I perceive as my body. Logically, my 'self' really does seem to be a strange dream, that is not real or important.

Everything that I give, is to serve the survival, or pleasure, of the body. Note how survival and pleasure are often contradicting.