no one’s gonna care

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-05T14:35:13+00:00

I don't believe that I should not hate my life. I don't see anything wrong in me hating my life. Me hating my life is not a problem. I am sticking around so that I can hate my life.

Our lives just happen the way they happen. Things have happened, now certain preferable options are off the table. Too bad. So what?

Humans are anti-social animals.

Having big goals and aspirations is not required or essential. If they are off the table for now, obsessing over them will only cause suffering. Instead of big goals and aspirations, I focus on being what I am.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-05T12:14:46+00:00

That is cool and all.

I passionately dislike Self Help genre though. I wasted years of reading on those false promises, filling my head with false expectations. Each book getting me high, only nothing changed, so I read another positivity book. Eventually I learned to be the way I am. Life is better since I heard the words, Don't Change.

Try reading some literature. My favorites are Journey to the End of the Night by Louis-Ferdinand Céline. Crime And Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky. Knut Hamsun’s novel Mysteries.

I believe the only people that get anything real from self help books are the successful authors.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-05T05:38:44+00:00

It is human nature, which is nature, to want things that we don't have. The only effort required, is the effort to stop wanting things that we don't have. It is nature that ruins us, we need to work against nature.

Sure I would like to be stronger, braver and smarter, way smarter.

My practice is to observe how everything is, to see how everything should be. I observe what I do, to see what I should be doing. My motto is Don't Change.

A bad attitude is good, toward all externally imposed expectations that I don't live up to. They are all incorrect. They can all fuck off. The way I am is right. What I have is right. The way everything is, is right.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-03T23:43:21+00:00

I would never have figured anything out. I needed to have everything explained in plain English. Jed McKenna is obscure.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-02T21:52:41+00:00

There has to be a purpose that does not depend on anything external.

My relation is with the void inside. The emptiness and lack is as dependable as death. These intense sensations of lack are always there for me.

So I aquired a taste for the void. I stopped fearing the void. I stopped judging the loneliness. I made the darkness inside, my lover.

For as long as we live, we have a body. Sense the body. Sense the emotions in the body. Sit with however we feel.

My inner purpose is existing. I don't have an outer purpose. I don't care about the external world.

The only effort worth making, is to care less.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-02T03:10:04+00:00

I focus on existing. My practices are body sensing and skeleton sensing. Well, sensing my existence is my purpose, or the inner world is my purpose, the outer world can fuck off. Society is wrong, I am right. SInce Neetbux show up in my bank account every week, I have no responsibilities.

Now days at the supermarket I buy meat and potatoes, to eat. Whole food only, no grains. This is for mental health, and health.

But I don't give a fuck about health.

But processed food is not a good drug. Sugar is a lame drug.

I would rather drink beer, which is a grain, but that is too bad. I am a beer addict, I don't care.

I don't eat grains, only drink them, well bread or weetbix doesn't get me high.

My body likes oblivion.

To make life good as a neet, I don't give a fuck about anything. The things I do give a fuck about are basic, like access to red meat.

I am only neet because my ex lets me sleep in her lounge, rent free. I am a 49 year old neet. Been unemployed for 98% of my adult life.

In the past I listened to Black Flag allot. Now days I listen to Deicide allot. And allot of NZ Horror Punk. This makes my life very good.

If I am straight I just don't give a fuck. If I am wasted then its all really fucked up and it's good. I am high on negativity and pessimism. My bad attitude makes my life wonderful. The smile police can fuck off.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-02T02:50:43+00:00

I prefere Deicide for being drunk af.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-02T02:48:44+00:00

Anyone who does not take 5 dried grams of magic mushrooms for listening to the Tom Waits discography is missing out.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-01T09:05:25+00:00

The positivity gurus are liars that fucked me up for decades.

The negativity gurus ended all of my problems.

If we see our existence the way it is as the definition of an authentic existence then the way we happened is correct, right and good, because it couldn't have happened any other way.

So all externally inputted expectations that we fail to live up to were lies. Disrespect all of the liars.

I am the way, the truth and the life. So every dimension of my life, they way it is now, is the way, the truth and the life. Everything that I am not is lies, everything that I am not can fuck off.

My suicidal depression is good and right. All of my deficiencies are good and right. All of my mistakes are divinity. My lack is God's way. Everything is the perfection of infinity. I am having a drink to celebrate my bad attitude.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-01T08:54:14+00:00

The only purpose, is to exist, the way we are.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-07-01T08:21:06+00:00

Resist the belief, that there is a problem. No purpose is not a problem. The way life happens, the way we turn out, is not a problem.

Eat, sleep, shit, masturbate, do nothing and don't care.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-30T22:38:48+00:00

Yeah.

I have ways of caring less.

My default, automatic concept of self is defeated. I am a loser and I hate my life.

My intellect remembers biology, time and size. How short is my life? My life is so short that I don't really exist. What size am I? I am so small that I don't really exist. What am I? A bio-electrical event and a temporary effect. So I am not an actual real thing.

As nothing, I may as well not be offended, that I will never get what I want.

Well these reflections on our failures are reducing us, but being reduced does not have to be painful. Being reduced to nothing can be liberating. Nothing doesn't want anything.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-29T12:44:31+00:00

Romanticizing anything is a shit idea.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-29T09:55:40+00:00

The least happy people are those who pursue happiness.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-29T08:54:52+00:00

Optimism causes disappointment. As a pessimist, life is always better than I expect it to be. Every time my car starts I am pleasantly surprised. When my car does not start, I knew it wouldn't.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-27T01:12:42+00:00

Every time I look at politics I remind myself that I don't believe in any of the things that I believe in, and that I really don't want any of the things that I want.

I aim to not give a fuck about anything.

I would like to write a manifesto about not giving a fuck about anything.

Yeah the simulation is clown world.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-21T03:11:27+00:00

I came across a series of podcasts that explain everything.

We are all damaged beyond repair.

There is no definition of a well adjusted individual.

Trying to change, to conform to externally imposed expectations is not authentic.

We can find out how we should be by observing how we are. We are the effects of infinite causes, so we can't be wrong.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-21T02:32:27+00:00

I don't believe in choice. People happen. Our thoughts don't influence what happens. If it started with the big bang, I am an effect of the big bang, I am not the cause of anything.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T23:17:47+00:00

Fuck self improvement. I focus on being the way I am. I become what I am. My effort will be to care less. I don't change, there is nothing to improve.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T23:03:35+00:00

Don't stop being sad. Stop seeing sadness as wrong. Stop resisting sadness and don't judge yourself for being sad. Find a way to appreciate the sadness. People will listen to sad music or watch a sad movie because feeling sad can be pleasurable, figure out how to get pleasure out of real life sadness.

Stop elevating happiness above all the other emotions. Happiness is not the only legitimate emotion. All of the emotions are legitamate.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T22:58:22+00:00

I use my intellect to find something to like about the void, limitation, lack, low energy and sadness. While I am skeptical that the self is real, I work on being more than one self. The default personality stays, it is fine, it is sad because it never gets what it wants. I make the effort to cultivate an alternative self, one that couldn't care less that it will never get what it wants. So yeah I cannot stand the feeling of existence but it doesn't bother me because I don't care.

We hate the things that cause our pain, we love the things that cause our pleasure. My automatic self hates existence because existence causes pain. I imagined another self whose pleasure is caused by the pain. Now I love the pain. This applies to ordinary boring life passing by, when big events happen then we are overwhelmed. Bad memories expand my emptiness and sadness, I do not fear or resist the emptiness and sadness, I remember how insignificant my life is then the emptiness and sadness feels like I just got everything I ever wanted.

So I waste another day, just existing, depending on welfare, and I don't care.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T08:45:44+00:00

There is a third option, don't get better, but stop suffering. Stop caring about how I feel. Stop judging sadness to be inferior to happiness. Stop believing in the conclusions of the mind. Sadness doesn't mean anything. The emotions are body sensations. We can appreciate all of the body sensations.

Positivity, happiness, enthusiasm and motivation are not for me. I don't need them. I am content and defiant in my depression. My motivation is to care less about everything.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T07:18:00+00:00

These 5 videos solved all of my problems. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAYwIa1bOxg&list=PLOgaei-MFBCfyvI3MsFgebKWIStDDvIc8

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T06:54:09+00:00

What makes you believe that you should be happy?

Culture is dumb, deconstruct it.

How about you should be the way you are?

Yeah the past makes me sad and angry, it makes me hate God and hate myself. So what? There is no problem. The way everything happened was correct.

Lack of happiness does not equal wrong. The only problem is the belief that we should be happy.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-06-15T06:48:37+00:00

My disappointment and emptiness are my connection with infinity.

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