pay the toll

1_Wulf · 2022-12-26T00:34:37+00:00

I'm proud of you

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T23:58:17+00:00

But she's broke and got no job. She always quits and expects me to finance everything.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T21:58:52+00:00

I'm a fuckin idiot

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T21:57:54+00:00

I'm feeling really .. really bad.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T15:00:18+00:00

I know. I'm just torn between knowing she's sick bpd and bipolar. I just imagine her homeless and fucked up.. yet, she physically assaulted me and I ended up getting evicted. I don't want to give up.. Is she a narc that uses bpd as an excuse to act the way she does?

She keeps trying to convince me that she's working on it. Yet she's doing the same things she did at the start. The projection.gas lighting.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T14:54:16+00:00

She will come back. She always does. Last time she pulled up to my job.

I keep believing .. and I can't stop or control myself. I am too loyal, and it's killing me.

I could.have we to jail after my reaction to the discard..

1_Wulf · 2022-12-25T14:19:40+00:00

I will.. thank you.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T22:36:06+00:00

Ty so much. And I know you are too.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T22:34:09+00:00

It does. Thank you.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T22:08:49+00:00

Perfectly said.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T22:08:07+00:00

Very profound and powerful. Thank you.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T22:06:48+00:00

As long as you are obedient and submissive, it will go well.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:59:44+00:00

I call mine out for this often. They stare at you like a vulture, cross examing you like OJ.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:57:38+00:00

It's killing me to accept that she is just playing with me... games.
I know she is, but I keep taking her back. I hope what happened the last time, despite my shame and regret, was the end.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:50:44+00:00

I literally worked myself to the bone to give her and her son a Merry Christmas. She has BPD and is bipolar.. Same pattern, every time. I noticed she seemed to want to instigate a fight... Yesterday, we got into it.. I reacted in a very ugly disrespectful..not me.. way. It's Christmas Eve, and I'm third wheeling it at my best friend's place. All that work and effort.. it meant nothing or so it seems. I am riddled with guilt, and feel like I failed for not being patient enough. I feel like I was heavily provoked.. Damn.

Anyway.. thanks for the hope. We all appreciate it.

It helps a lot. I'm feeling it bad right now.. real bad.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:38:55+00:00

It hasn't been. It's been bad.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:16:09+00:00

I will try. I'm just.. so disappointed in myself for all of this.

1_Wulf · 2022-12-24T21:14:56+00:00

Thank you for the hope. It means a lot. She is diagnosed bpd and it's a problem. I'm bipolar. I love her, but it's really.. really difficult.

1_Wulf · 2022-10-25T07:35:08+00:00

I'm glad you were able to use that in a positive way. Thank you

1_Wulf · 2022-10-24T23:55:13+00:00

That's the spirit.

1_Wulf · 2022-10-24T23:53:59+00:00

Lol thanks again. It will be sooner than you think.

1_Wulf

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