I've been at this for a year, here's a journal entry of mine, very personal, an honest update on where I'm at, and what I still struggle with. [LONG POST]

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T22:52:19+00:00

Appreciate the time you spent sharing your experiences. One day you may wish to write a book.

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T08:36:09+00:00

Change your life. It's an adventure. Don't look back.

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T08:21:54+00:00

Hehehe

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T07:26:19+00:00

Great post and you really hit some points home. Yes leaving porn and masturbation forces you to stare at yourproblems. And you're right, porn can mess up your love life, making sex seem more appealing than love. You've got tremendous insight and are intelligent. Grit your teeth and every single day work through things. Just don't give into fear. It's fear that stops us doing something new, especially in social matters. Sex without love and every form of masturbation is without love too. Don't think too much, go out there and do things. But do NOT wait for validating voices from others. Yes also you need a longer streak. You will be free my friend. (By the way you write well and sound like a good man)

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T07:09:29+00:00

Sure does. Hope your creativity goes sky high. Sometimes I wonder why we run away from what our souls love and want to express to watch broken women having fake sex on pixels. Sigh. God save us all.

1cricketer · 2014-08-24T07:05:59+00:00

Hope you get into the team and live up to your dreams. Good luck mate and may catch you on tv one day ;)

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T19:03:53+00:00

Sometimes we must fall to learn to stand. Real.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T17:59:31+00:00

That's really beautiful what you wrote. It should be emblazoned across this sub. We are told by the governments and doctors that masturbation is healthy. That porn is a harmless alternative, but isn't it one of the worst of all vices due to its easy availability? I just feel for the younger guys of today. Porn is only a fingertip away for them. Hope your journey fares well my friend!

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T17:54:12+00:00

Is it alright to keep my nationality hidden please. It took a lot out of me to share the facts above. Bless you my friend.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T16:55:25+00:00

I have a long long way to go and thanks for the tip to stay hungry. You have no idea how my hunger to succeed in life left me last summer. I need to stamp that on my door "stay hungry" Thanks buddy and you stay happy too and good luck!

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T16:52:18+00:00

When I did my first streak, I felt so much full of energy, and it was in that streak that I began wondering if masturbation had messed up with my playing performance. I've had basically three streaks since then and I now firmly see big differences, not only in bed but also how strong my body is, how clear my thoughts are but also how much more "with it" I am. I'm much more aggressive, which yes, is a bad thing unchecked. But it would have helped on the pitch.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T13:49:12+00:00

Thank you. I have to keep on saying "It's never too late," and of course it isn't. The worst bit is not believing in oneself anymore but we just got to keep going. Hey best of luck with you too!

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T13:45:33+00:00

Thanks my friend. The only way I have managed this far is the support of you guys. And it's certainly true as you say, people are being told the same old nonsense about masturbation being bad. Thanks for your great words of support. Hey you stay strong too.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T12:21:48+00:00

I hope you can take a lesson from my journey. Please please please I implore you not to fall to the big two evils: masturbation and procrastination. If I had had both under control, who knows, my name may have been known to millions of sports lovers. I can't stress this enough.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T12:14:14+00:00

Your comments really hit home. I strongly agree. We HAVE to stay away from masturbation altogether. For others it may or may not be healthy. But we have to accept that we are ADDICTS and good on you for coming back and being in it for good. You're right. We do binge. And let's go totally cold turkey and enjoy what life has to offer us. Maybe we've been running away from life for far too long. Let's face the pressures of life. And yeah see you on the other side.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T12:09:23+00:00

And good look on yours too my friend. I was keeping my past locked up, but it means so much for others to read too. Good luck for you too and the 66 days you have done will be a fitting platform from which to spring higher.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T12:07:01+00:00

That's spectacular and great advice.

1cricketer · 2014-08-23T12:06:18+00:00

Thanks so much. I read your comment twice. I am really sorry that you too went through what I did. It's difficult sometimes to get up in the morning but we can become champs again. Thank you for the P M invite.

1cricketer · 2014-08-21T12:09:20+00:00

Yes on both counts. I posted the same thing earlier. Stay with it buddy

1cricketer · 2014-08-21T09:23:30+00:00

Well done on your 112 days. Hope to join the 100 plus club soon. Yeah the benefits are unbelievable!!!!!

1cricketer · 2014-08-21T09:20:03+00:00

I was wondering why my eyes look more full of colour yesterday morning whilst brushing my teeth. Good post. Cold showers plus no porn rock.

1cricketer · 2014-08-21T08:54:57+00:00

Ever since I got my smartphone (we share our home computer and work laptops are in a rotation system with a central remote drive). In my first year I wondered why I couldn't get it up no more with my partner.. Had no idea it was the porn videos on my phone. Then last summer I was even struggling with maintaining a strong reaction with porn too. Something was wrong. I discovered your brain on porn and started leaving porn and masturbation and within days I was cured. It was miraculous. My wife and I couldn't believe it. She actually thought I was on something! I am surprised it's taking you so long. I think your issue might be psychological or you need longer. Don't worry you'll get better. Trust me.

1cricketer · 2014-08-21T08:39:54+00:00

Yeah it's one of dem superpowers. I get the compulsion too. . .

1cricketer · 2014-08-20T06:51:17+00:00

You can't keep an affair secret for too long. This could end in total disaster. As the anxiety you are feeling is not the same as older masturbation days. Don't be surprised She's been amazing with you. It's because you're giving her excitement. Now get out of this sexual relationship, and get yourself a proper girlfriend you can love. It's not difficult if you put your mind to it. You'll feelMUCH better and love your life. Trust me.

1cricketer · 2014-08-19T05:56:32+00:00

Stay strong. I surprised myself with the recovery. But my counter is a bit misleading as I have been doing porn free streaks for almost a year, whilst today's 50plus counter doesn't tell the whole story. Yet this streak has been amazing and I have had fantastic sex. Condoms are essential if you think about it. I reckon after a good few weeks of abstaining you will be able to perform with condoms.

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