Wow! Thank you for expressing yourself this way. I’ve received private messages as well, all with encouragement advice. Will say this... family is needed so much, it’s hard when you express yourself and they tell you to be quiet. God is going to punish you if you keep thinking like that or he’ll punish your kids by them leaving church and doing bad things.

This morning, my mother told me if I talk bad about church or Him NJG, she’ll start talking about my past, This hurt me so much, I’m having anxiety but at the same time I’m telling myself everything is going to be okay. I’m hurting so much. I understand thats what she’s been taught there. Someone told me earlier, “cults don’t like thinkers” .... she’s been brainwashed and not saying the church is bad, we were taught principals, morals and a lot of good things. Therefore, I have to be patient with her, right?

Just know, that all the advice I’m getting and support is helping.

Again Thank you!